Last Sunday, we celebrated our first soft house warming(naa pay lain). Since we were not allowed to have more than 5 people in the unit, we decided to have many house warmings for our friends. For the first edition, we had Cecille, Yammy and Alex. J---, served our guest with his own version of Shabu-shabu using Claire's rice cooker. I bought a roasted chicken. Alex brought a rolled cake and we complimented it with hot tea.
And since, our loan was released last Friday, it gave us an oppurtunity to buy new things for our house. In a way, it now looks like a house...hehehe... but it still lacks some necessary things..but we know it could wait. (Hello friends, japanese-zen amo proposed theme sa house(with red, blue and black colors), if you decide to give us something lang hehehe)
We cannot, in any way, have this unit without the help of so many friends. To Claire, Georgia, Monette and Cecille for the monetary help(a special thank you goes to the Chinatrust manager to kicked every employees ass just to have our loan approved and released). To Claire for her rice cooker. To Vans and Kima for letting me stay at their place when I was homeless and had no place to stay for two weeks. To everybody, who offered help in their most noble and thoughtful way (Ria, Eugene, Marcy, Pipo and Julius). A very very special thank you to God, for being so good! Thank You!
Monday, April 03, 2006
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
1 month and counting
Time flies too fast, i never realized, 1 month na kami.
Yesterday, i went to the office early because I know, we will be doing something after work. So sabay na kami sa office. After work, I immediately went straight to Greenhills to meet him. Kaso, he called up and asked where I was, I told him, Im on my way to Greenhills. He told me he is at CyberJ. It was a complete shock. I was surprised. Di ko alam bakit nasa CyberJ siya. I waited for him at the elevator lobby. To my complete surprise, he gave me a bouquet of flowers. I couldnt measure how happy I was that time. I felt so loved. I felt so special. He made me feel very happy. The bouquet has a single red rose and around it were white malaysian mums. He told me the white malaysian mums meant that his intentions are pure and the red rose signified our 1 month together.The red rose around the malaysian mums meant that he chose me among the many guys and that I stood out among them. I gave him a card, containing a special message and there I declared offically that im John Gonzales and I also gave him a necklace..hehehehe
Yesterday was the one of the best moments of my life ...
Yesterday, i went to the office early because I know, we will be doing something after work. So sabay na kami sa office. After work, I immediately went straight to Greenhills to meet him. Kaso, he called up and asked where I was, I told him, Im on my way to Greenhills. He told me he is at CyberJ. It was a complete shock. I was surprised. Di ko alam bakit nasa CyberJ siya. I waited for him at the elevator lobby. To my complete surprise, he gave me a bouquet of flowers. I couldnt measure how happy I was that time. I felt so loved. I felt so special. He made me feel very happy. The bouquet has a single red rose and around it were white malaysian mums. He told me the white malaysian mums meant that his intentions are pure and the red rose signified our 1 month together.The red rose around the malaysian mums meant that he chose me among the many guys and that I stood out among them. I gave him a card, containing a special message and there I declared offically that im John Gonzales and I also gave him a necklace..hehehehe
Yesterday was the one of the best moments of my life ...
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Crossing my fingers
I never expected that things will run this fast. Yesterday, it took me and J--- 4 hours to iron out plans for our new place(mayta madayon mi). Im excited and hoping that things will work out well for us. Crossing my fingers on that.
No Permanent Address
After the disastrous event that took place at my old place, i decided to finally leave it. I can't bear thinking every night before i sleep that my life may be in danger or speding the day alone trying to check if all doors are locked or hearing the phone imagining that the freaky caller might say something that may cause fear.
Right after the incident, J---' friend Vans offered her place. For threee nights i stayed in her place at Robinson's Circle, Valle Verde. This place is so near ULTRA where teh stampede took place.
Last Thursday, my manager offered her place at Wack Wack Twin Tower B. This palce is much nearer our office so i decided to take her offer. Naa nako kauban pauli, ka share sa taxi, kaso my manager is so workaholic ma forced pud kog stay sa office until 2 am. Pero Ok ra. It so nice to have at least a week a nakastay ko ug usa ka prime condominium.
Last Monday, Ria emailed me and said that i could stay at their unit at Asian Mansion 1. Ok ra pud, coz, feel nako i am more happy staying with close friends. Feel nako guarded and counted kau ako actions sa ako current place, knowing na di kau mi clsoe sa ako manager.
Right now, im still waiting for the land lord to officially say na we could stay na at the unit. This unit is near Greenhills, its nice, as in brand new siya na studio apartment. Im so excited to transfer na hopefull this weekend.
Right after the incident, J---' friend Vans offered her place. For threee nights i stayed in her place at Robinson's Circle, Valle Verde. This place is so near ULTRA where teh stampede took place.
Last Thursday, my manager offered her place at Wack Wack Twin Tower B. This palce is much nearer our office so i decided to take her offer. Naa nako kauban pauli, ka share sa taxi, kaso my manager is so workaholic ma forced pud kog stay sa office until 2 am. Pero Ok ra. It so nice to have at least a week a nakastay ko ug usa ka prime condominium.
Last Monday, Ria emailed me and said that i could stay at their unit at Asian Mansion 1. Ok ra pud, coz, feel nako i am more happy staying with close friends. Feel nako guarded and counted kau ako actions sa ako current place, knowing na di kau mi clsoe sa ako manager.
Right now, im still waiting for the land lord to officially say na we could stay na at the unit. This unit is near Greenhills, its nice, as in brand new siya na studio apartment. Im so excited to transfer na hopefull this weekend.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Serendipity
There is this guy that I was planning to have a date with(actually he was the one who invited me, kasi sabi ko, di ako nang iinvite)last november. It didnt push through cause i felt, he wasnt that interested and I had a partner na before we met.
Two weeks after I broke up with my partner, I went to Greenbelt with friends and there I met up with my long time friendster chatmate named Van. As I was on my way home, Van called up and invited me to go with him and his friends to Malate. So go lang ng go.
We spent almost two hours drinking at Sonata until we finally decided to eat somewhere. In that place, I saw this very familiar face, so mataray, I know he was looking at me and I was looking at him too. Si j--- pala yun.
He has been texting me since greenbelt pa that night cause he saw me na pala there and good thing he saw me again sa Malate. I wasnt that into him, he is Ok but not quite Ok. So di ko siya pinansin. He got pissed off, coz sige daw siya txt nako and he never saw me open my phone to check if I have a new message. SO what he did, he erased my number.
The reason why, i didnt reply because he was txting my old number. I didnt PUBLISH my sun number to connexion and downelink friends. That same night i eliminated him sa ako list of potentials. I realized di nako siya type. Wa nako tuyua na ako siya mameet, i felt i was meant to see him. He was on my list though.
Two weeks after that, Thursday February 24, 2006, nag gym ko sa Fitness, and then I saw a different J---, the gym J---, hahaha, nakarealize ko na a type d i nako siya. I cant stop staring at him, hoping that he would approach me. Pero wala. His friends knew that I was staring at him, even kato sa Malate pa.
So what I did, i rebuilt by connexion account and wa online for a day, waiting na he would see me.
Monday February 28, 2006, "ang haba ng buhok ko day", i agreed to meet up with 2 people on the same time and place o diba? kaya na nimo, pero ako sila injanon, usa ra ako imeet.
Almost noon na, when J--- chat window popped, shet..this is it....
This was our conversation ...
J---: Kaw ba ung nakita ko sa Malate and Gym last week?
me: yeah
J---: Palagi mo akong tinitignan diba?
me: huh? di kaya
J---: Pagsnabi kong may nakakita sayo, mga friends ko, may witnesses ako marami sa Malate at gym
me: huh? di ah
J---: Aminin mo na kasi
me: cge in a way
J---: walang in a way, yes or no lng gusto ko
me: yes
J---: last question ko na to
me: ano?
J---: Gusto mo ba ako?
me: huh? bilis mo naman
J---: di naman ibig sabihin non na magiging tayo na, liek what we planned before, date muna, ano gusto mo ba ako, kasi pag hindi, di na ako magpaparamdam sayo, yes or no lng
me: in a way
J---: kulet mo, yes or no lng gusto ko
me: yes
J---: cge gusto mo ba ako mameet mamaya, tulog lng ako
me: huh? bilis naman, may work ako
J---: after work, lapit lng naman haus natin diba? kahit coffee shop lng sa sm north, kahit don lng then uwi na
....
that was our conversation
so three na sila ako imeet, sa the garden, sa coffee shops didto, sa sm north edsa at 10pm, o diba? feeling gwapa kau ko..and on that same day i agreed to have a date with different people everyday until saturday that week. Naay artista, naay lawyer, naay UP masteral student, naay nursing student, naay tag iya ug condo ug car, etc
Then, nabusy ko ug kalit(kabantay mo ngano nagbisaya kog kalit hahaha), so i planned not to meet all of them. Then suddenly, J--- called up..hala ka diha! gipadali ko ug trabaho, gispaot siya nako kay magstart pa daw mi nya in ana na ang mahitabo, walay claro, he was scared na bati ug result..
ANg gwapa, nagdali dali pud ..then nagmeet na mi sa tomas morato sa baang coffee..
There, we just talked, smoked and eventually we become US.
Yeah, again and again, another whirl wind thing, i hope this is something different na. I can feel na he is serious, mafeel man na nimo sa iya friends, before we met, i admit, we admit na murag naglingaw2 ra mi, until we met each other ...
Grabe, todo intro ko sa iya friends, he is so sweet, dala food sa house, ivisit ko sa office, kuhaon ko sa balay, hatud ko sa house, and because of what happened sa house namo ni Ken, we decided to stay together. Sa night na gikawatan mi, I told him na im havin a hard time deciding where to stay because of Ken, coz he is my friend, then nalain siya bayot! kay ngano daw wa jud ko kamention sa iya name...Siya daw in everything that he does, im always part of his plans ..haaay ..
Pero im happy, definitely happy, though this time, ako ang under dog physically(face value) hahhaa, for me that doesnt matter, i know his past, whats important for me right now is us, what happening in the present, and hopefully, naay future
Unlikely
Peste, excited pa man ta ko muoli sa Cebu , pero it s very unlikely na makauli ko. Wlaa na koy kwarta kay mupayad pa ko advance sa balay and to think na wala pa koy gamit. LECHE! ako kwarta hurot ani ..ATAY ANI OI! wa ko gisapot ha!
Officially homeless
LAst Monday gikawatan amo balay, gidala sa kawatan ang TV ug component sauyab ni Kenneth. Gigubot nila pagmaayo amo mga gamit. Pila ka oras human sa panghitabo, naay nitawag nga murag nanghadlok. Advice sa mama ni Alfred na muvacate mi sa balay kay basin balikan mi. Muna karon kami ni Kenneth, Alfred ug ako officially HOMELESS.
Sila Kenneth naa kang Julius nipuyo ug ako kang Vans, closefriend ni Josh.
Haay kakapuy aning kinabuhia, makaluya, makalanag....
Kapoy pangita ug balay, wala pay kwarta..LECHE!
Sila Kenneth naa kang Julius nipuyo ug ako kang Vans, closefriend ni Josh.
Haay kakapuy aning kinabuhia, makaluya, makalanag....
Kapoy pangita ug balay, wala pay kwarta..LECHE!
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
My so called life
Ever since i was in college i have always considered my life as a very big showbiz career, wherein i have to deal with different people, get new shows, assume characters and win peoples hearts.
My first big show was my college life. Here i met so many equally important people in my life. I met Theresians(Cherissa, Brenda, Feliz and Genevie). I never thought that Theresians could be cowboys too. Then I also had Hearter friends(Anchela and Noreen). Mai2 and Apple were my friends from Mindanao. Jaspher was a bonus to our group. And lastly Kenneth, Glenn and Boggs my very good friends from Science High. I consider our group the cream of cool people. We were the noisiest in the class. And everytiem we have no classes, it is a given that most of my btchmates would gather around us just to listen to our stories. Slowly as we progress thru college, we lost some of them to other schools and courses. Brenda and Boggs left first, followed by Kenneth and Noreen. During our graduation, I never expected that this show would end in a bad way. The group was divided because of a petty quarrel.
My next show, Ill call it Aprilfools. Here i met so many different people. People from neighboring provinces(Negros, Davao and Cagayan de Oro), people from big schools in Cebu(USC-ComE, UP, USJR and UC). I truly treasure these people for they were with me as i grew as a proffessional.We were batchmates. We eanjoyed every moment we had together. It was very hard for me to leave them for a job in Manila. i truly will always be an Aprilfool. Apart from my batchmates, at NEC I also met great people--- my groupmates and the entire NEC community.
Then came VPAL-EM. This is an exlusive group of very daring human beings. Ria was our glue, our story teller, a very thoughtful person who made all our wonderful great things happen. Georgia, a character whose life story I could always relate to, my boarding house mate and roommate in Manila. Claire, a co-Aprilfool, whose kindness and generosity i will forever cherish. Maila, our commander, whose advises are always worth remembering, a woman with strong character and soft heart. Maricris, they say she's Ria's twin but with a softer touch. Arlene, the most silent and serious barkada. Monette, my housemate, a person whom I can easily get along with, a person who gives me the most unbiased advise about love and finances. These girls made a great impact in my life. I will never be the person that I am right now without them. They taught me so many great realities about lfie. They taught me to be confident and believe in myself. Kaso nasobraan lang ko, nagbasul siguro sila hahaha....
CyberJ, It shows my struggles as a proffessional whose primary goal is to get a new life in Manila. Here I was able to meet really really great people. Cecille, Mark, Jewel and Abbey. They are four of my closest friends in the company. Though I have met a lot of great people through my interactions with other departments and groups, these people stand out. They reflect the person that I am. Noisy, easy going, and true to one's self. No doubt we click together. They're my lunchtime barkada, gimik barkada, yosi barkada and outing barkada in the office.
Destiny's Child.. My latest show. A show that gathered three different people with very different characters. Julius, a person that I never thought I could get along with. He was our high school bully. I just cant stand being with him. I had always thought that getting near him automatically sibjects myself to scrutiny. Right now, we became roommates, a great listener to all my stupid problems, very understanding, and is always willing to lend a hand when his friends are in trouble. Kenneth, my roommate in Cebu and college barkada. We never spent so much tiem together before. But when I transferred to Manila, i never thought that we would be this close. He is liek a brother to me that I never had. A brother who completely understands my situation. We have similar family issues, struggles and dreams. I am definite that we will continue to face Manila's worst and best together.
My Next Top Boyfriend, my latest show.hahaha(Giapil pa jud)..This show started right after my breakup with Kim. This program showcases my struggle for true love. This is about how I transformed my self as I experience heartbreaks, love and struggles to get the perfect partner I have always wanted and dreamt. It gives people an idea, how I build my priority queue of prospects. How I enqueue new ones and why I dequeue prospects. It has just ended its first season yesterday. Hopefully its second season would not be in the near future.
In one miss universe episode, the host asked the contestants if there is a certain part in their lives that theyd want to be changed, what would it be and why... Well definitely, If he'll ask methat question, I can now sa "NOTHING".
My first big show was my college life. Here i met so many equally important people in my life. I met Theresians(Cherissa, Brenda, Feliz and Genevie). I never thought that Theresians could be cowboys too. Then I also had Hearter friends(Anchela and Noreen). Mai2 and Apple were my friends from Mindanao. Jaspher was a bonus to our group. And lastly Kenneth, Glenn and Boggs my very good friends from Science High. I consider our group the cream of cool people. We were the noisiest in the class. And everytiem we have no classes, it is a given that most of my btchmates would gather around us just to listen to our stories. Slowly as we progress thru college, we lost some of them to other schools and courses. Brenda and Boggs left first, followed by Kenneth and Noreen. During our graduation, I never expected that this show would end in a bad way. The group was divided because of a petty quarrel.
My next show, Ill call it Aprilfools. Here i met so many different people. People from neighboring provinces(Negros, Davao and Cagayan de Oro), people from big schools in Cebu(USC-ComE, UP, USJR and UC). I truly treasure these people for they were with me as i grew as a proffessional.We were batchmates. We eanjoyed every moment we had together. It was very hard for me to leave them for a job in Manila. i truly will always be an Aprilfool. Apart from my batchmates, at NEC I also met great people--- my groupmates and the entire NEC community.
Then came VPAL-EM. This is an exlusive group of very daring human beings. Ria was our glue, our story teller, a very thoughtful person who made all our wonderful great things happen. Georgia, a character whose life story I could always relate to, my boarding house mate and roommate in Manila. Claire, a co-Aprilfool, whose kindness and generosity i will forever cherish. Maila, our commander, whose advises are always worth remembering, a woman with strong character and soft heart. Maricris, they say she's Ria's twin but with a softer touch. Arlene, the most silent and serious barkada. Monette, my housemate, a person whom I can easily get along with, a person who gives me the most unbiased advise about love and finances. These girls made a great impact in my life. I will never be the person that I am right now without them. They taught me so many great realities about lfie. They taught me to be confident and believe in myself. Kaso nasobraan lang ko, nagbasul siguro sila hahaha....
CyberJ, It shows my struggles as a proffessional whose primary goal is to get a new life in Manila. Here I was able to meet really really great people. Cecille, Mark, Jewel and Abbey. They are four of my closest friends in the company. Though I have met a lot of great people through my interactions with other departments and groups, these people stand out. They reflect the person that I am. Noisy, easy going, and true to one's self. No doubt we click together. They're my lunchtime barkada, gimik barkada, yosi barkada and outing barkada in the office.
Destiny's Child.. My latest show. A show that gathered three different people with very different characters. Julius, a person that I never thought I could get along with. He was our high school bully. I just cant stand being with him. I had always thought that getting near him automatically sibjects myself to scrutiny. Right now, we became roommates, a great listener to all my stupid problems, very understanding, and is always willing to lend a hand when his friends are in trouble. Kenneth, my roommate in Cebu and college barkada. We never spent so much tiem together before. But when I transferred to Manila, i never thought that we would be this close. He is liek a brother to me that I never had. A brother who completely understands my situation. We have similar family issues, struggles and dreams. I am definite that we will continue to face Manila's worst and best together.
My Next Top Boyfriend, my latest show.hahaha(Giapil pa jud)..This show started right after my breakup with Kim. This program showcases my struggle for true love. This is about how I transformed my self as I experience heartbreaks, love and struggles to get the perfect partner I have always wanted and dreamt. It gives people an idea, how I build my priority queue of prospects. How I enqueue new ones and why I dequeue prospects. It has just ended its first season yesterday. Hopefully its second season would not be in the near future.
In one miss universe episode, the host asked the contestants if there is a certain part in their lives that theyd want to be changed, what would it be and why... Well definitely, If he'll ask methat question, I can now sa "NOTHING".
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Not looking
Tommorow's going to be valentines day. Last year, I spent it at my gym's spa, had a dinner with my IP-Gateway teammates at our office's pantry and spent the whole night tinkering our software. It was fun, actually it was really really fun(hehehee kaplastic). I didnt have a partner then so it was pretty pretty fine.
How will i spend it this year? Thats today's biggest question for me. Well, I definitely have more options now. This year I'm obviously still loveless(pucha! ngano timingun man na valentines day..leche!)
1) overtime (nasad!)
2) diamond peel or purifying facial at bioessence ( at least laishu diba? Vanity = expressing love for oneself)
3) Get a new haircut at Fix Podium ( O diba? love for oneself napun)
4) Gym ( ingun si ken... LOSER daw ko if mag gym ko ugma..hahahaha!)
5) House ( huhuhu )
6) Spend it with some single friends ( ok ra lingaw ra payts ra...)
7) Surprise date (Wish ko lang!)
Well, I may not have a date tomorrow, at least I didnt rush things out just to get a partner or a date. The lesson I have learned from last Christmas' deadline is something I will always remember. Kaya ..di na ako maghahanap, maghihintay lang ako... Ang saya kaya maging single...no deadlines no pressure just plain fun!
How will i spend it this year? Thats today's biggest question for me. Well, I definitely have more options now. This year I'm obviously still loveless(pucha! ngano timingun man na valentines day..leche!)
1) overtime (nasad!)
2) diamond peel or purifying facial at bioessence ( at least laishu diba? Vanity = expressing love for oneself)
3) Get a new haircut at Fix Podium ( O diba? love for oneself napun)
4) Gym ( ingun si ken... LOSER daw ko if mag gym ko ugma..hahahaha!)
5) House ( huhuhu )
6) Spend it with some single friends ( ok ra lingaw ra payts ra...)
7) Surprise date (Wish ko lang!)
Well, I may not have a date tomorrow, at least I didnt rush things out just to get a partner or a date. The lesson I have learned from last Christmas' deadline is something I will always remember. Kaya ..di na ako maghahanap, maghihintay lang ako... Ang saya kaya maging single...no deadlines no pressure just plain fun!
America's Next Top Model
Last night, as Ken and I were watching a replay of Tyra Banks' America's Next Top Model, I can't help but think what my life would be like if I was a model. What's with these models that i really adore? What if I have no pimples and fucking pimple marks? What if i was taller like 5'11 and toner? WouldI make it? Do I have what it takes to be one? Will my preference inhibit me from being one?
When I transferred to Manila, I was exposed to various people in the industry. I met models, art and creative directors, agents, and writers. I've been given oppurtunities to try auditions and go-sees. But given my present physical condition right now, I think being a model is still a wishful thinking for me. I did not show up at those auditions, I was scared.
A lot of times, I thought of giving it a try. I was asked if I was a model in one of the parties I attended before in Malate, an art director asked my friend if I could meet him, because he might consider me for a shoot for a film festival ad, a friend whose bf is a model gave me go-see schedules, an ex-date told me I have a market because of my skin color and body structure and even an ex-date's friend told me the camera loves me and should give print ad modelling a try. Last Saturday, I saw a group of guys and everybody in the bar knows their sexual preference, which is the same as mine and they are all models. I have a friend and I know that I look better than him and yet he is a model. Maybe if I was more aggressive to attend go-sees, it could have been a catalyst for me to be one.
Well, there are things that aren't just for you. Maybe its too late or maybe its not yet my time. But we never know, this year might be mine. After all, when you want something, the universe conspires with you to help you achieve it.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Georgia's Entry
It took me months to read a new entry from Georgia's blog ...
This is the link of her new entry .. an interesting one indeed hehehehe
This is the link of her new entry .. an interesting one indeed hehehehe
Monday, January 23, 2006
I Believe
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just got a copy of this song from Bev...
I just can't stop listening to it..
be it in my career, love life, family, my dreams ....
i guess this is such a great theme song ..next to "go the distance", "reflection" and "when you believe" ..
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Have you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
And tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
And the magic that surrounds you
Can lift you up and guide you on your way
[Chorus:]
I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally, I believe
When you look out in the distance
You see it never was that far
Ohhh No
Heaven knows your existance
And leads you to be everything you are
Ohhh
There's a time for every soul to fly
It's in the eyes of every child
It's the hope, the love that saves the world
And, ohhh, we should never let it go
[Chorus]
I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe yeah
[Chorus]
Ohh Yeah
Love keeps liftin me higher
Liftin me higher
Love keeps liftin me higher
I said love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me
I said Love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me higher
Said love keeps liften me higher
I said love keeps liften me high
just got a copy of this song from Bev...
I just can't stop listening to it..
be it in my career, love life, family, my dreams ....
i guess this is such a great theme song ..next to "go the distance", "reflection" and "when you believe" ..
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Have you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
And tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
And the magic that surrounds you
Can lift you up and guide you on your way
[Chorus:]
I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally, I believe
When you look out in the distance
You see it never was that far
Ohhh No
Heaven knows your existance
And leads you to be everything you are
Ohhh
There's a time for every soul to fly
It's in the eyes of every child
It's the hope, the love that saves the world
And, ohhh, we should never let it go
[Chorus]
I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe yeah
[Chorus]
Ohh Yeah
Love keeps liftin me higher
Liftin me higher
Love keeps liftin me higher
I said love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me
I said Love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me higher
Said love keeps liften me higher
I said love keeps liften me high
Monday, January 09, 2006
When you want something the universe conspires with you to help you achieve it
Indeed, this saying is really true, i can't stop kim from txtng and calling me, and i cant stop from expecting him to txt and call din, that is why it's destiny who is trying to separate us apart. He is flying to thailand for 10 days. At least for 10 days di ko siya matxt, di ko sya macol, no communication. It makes me forget about about my feelings for him easy....
=)
=)
Sunday, January 08, 2006
There's no easy way
I held her close to me
'Cause I know she breaks so easily
And then I told her
But I knew no matter how I tried to console her
She'd just do the best she could
But there are times the best is no damn good
And no matter how you try to be kind
There's always still a part of you you leave behind
When it falls apart
Chorus:
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart
I lied and told her she'd be fine
Though we both knew it was just a line
I had to do it
'Cause I'd a' said anything to help me get through it
Then she reached out for my hand
And her simple touch was more than I could stand
And I had to turn away
'Cause I knew all the hurt
That she was feeling I was feeling too
'Cause when it falls apart
Chorus:
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart
She could've gotten angry
And made me feel like a guilty child
But I realized that never was her style
I wanted her to hurt me
And not treat me like a friend
I wanted her to say there'd be someday
I'd come crawling on my knees to ask her back again
But she acted like a lady 'til the end
Oh, what a lady
I thought that she'd break down
But she smiled at me and never made a sound
And I guess she understood in her way
'Cause her silence told me everything she could not say
When it falls apart
There's just no easy way
Chorus:
There's just no easy way
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart.
------------------------------------------------------------
Indeed, breaking up is one of the most difficult things any human being can encounter ... Cguro im one of those people who often encounters it..Cguro i could say na tigang na ko ana, pero no..feel nako i still have a lot of things to experience for me to be better .. yeah im sad pero wala man koy mahimo, "what happens..happens" ... and as what a friend told me before, "its easier to talk the talk than walk the walk" ... Kaya, it's better na i look at life's brighter side, think of what i can do to make me happy ... after all, im accountable to whatever i do ....
After all ... Its easier to talk the talk than walk the walk ...
'Cause I know she breaks so easily
And then I told her
But I knew no matter how I tried to console her
She'd just do the best she could
But there are times the best is no damn good
And no matter how you try to be kind
There's always still a part of you you leave behind
When it falls apart
Chorus:
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart
I lied and told her she'd be fine
Though we both knew it was just a line
I had to do it
'Cause I'd a' said anything to help me get through it
Then she reached out for my hand
And her simple touch was more than I could stand
And I had to turn away
'Cause I knew all the hurt
That she was feeling I was feeling too
'Cause when it falls apart
Chorus:
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart
She could've gotten angry
And made me feel like a guilty child
But I realized that never was her style
I wanted her to hurt me
And not treat me like a friend
I wanted her to say there'd be someday
I'd come crawling on my knees to ask her back again
But she acted like a lady 'til the end
Oh, what a lady
I thought that she'd break down
But she smiled at me and never made a sound
And I guess she understood in her way
'Cause her silence told me everything she could not say
When it falls apart
There's just no easy way
Chorus:
There's just no easy way
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart.
------------------------------------------------------------
Indeed, breaking up is one of the most difficult things any human being can encounter ... Cguro im one of those people who often encounters it..Cguro i could say na tigang na ko ana, pero no..feel nako i still have a lot of things to experience for me to be better .. yeah im sad pero wala man koy mahimo, "what happens..happens" ... and as what a friend told me before, "its easier to talk the talk than walk the walk" ... Kaya, it's better na i look at life's brighter side, think of what i can do to make me happy ... after all, im accountable to whatever i do ....
After all ... Its easier to talk the talk than walk the walk ...
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Its Christmas!
"And I believe
That in my life I will see
An end to hopelesness of giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love"
Kahit di ko kasama ang family ko this Christmas, in a way happy pa rin ako. Makakasama ko mga friends ko. God really works in mysterious ways. I've got so many things to thank him now, a new love, a new job, a new outlook in life, a stronger relationship with friends.I wanna thank Him for being with me always, for giving lessons i have to learn for me to be better and stronger as a person, as a friend, as a son, as a brother, as a partner, as an employee and as a citizen.
Gusto ko magblog pero i cant write something for now..just wana greet all my readers and my self if wala akong reader a Merry Mery Christmas!
That in my life I will see
An end to hopelesness of giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love"
Kahit di ko kasama ang family ko this Christmas, in a way happy pa rin ako. Makakasama ko mga friends ko. God really works in mysterious ways. I've got so many things to thank him now, a new love, a new job, a new outlook in life, a stronger relationship with friends.I wanna thank Him for being with me always, for giving lessons i have to learn for me to be better and stronger as a person, as a friend, as a son, as a brother, as a partner, as an employee and as a citizen.
Gusto ko magblog pero i cant write something for now..just wana greet all my readers and my self if wala akong reader a Merry Mery Christmas!
Monday, December 05, 2005
Chance ... Oppurtunity .. a Challenge
Ill be going back to our requirements walkthrough later with our Ukrainian client, that's why, ill be taking this spare time to blog what i feel now.
When i entered this company, i really don't know what to expect. All i know is that Pipo and Darrix are happy to be part of it and that my VPAL-EM barkada convinced me that this is such a great oppurtunity for me.
The first few week with this company was tough ... i really dont know what to do inside..i have no assignment, no group, no manager.. I was pretty bored just reading about Struts, JSP, J2EE, Beans, Servlets.. what these terms are all about..I even got a comment from Darrix that i always look pale and unexcited.
Then, finally i got an assignment, I spent three months tinkering about Ibatis, Struts, XmL etc..It was pretty tougher because i really don't have any experience with any of these except basic J2SE. But it was so much challenging. I finally had a taste of creating my first few JSP pages and at the same time coding with Struts.
Just last week, my manager approached me. She told me, she felt i was so underutilized in her group. She wanted to transfer me. Now, she will no longer be assigning me as a senior developer but an assistant team lead for the new project. I was in a total shock. I really never expected it. It was so much a challenge, i told myself.
Since last week till today, i spent my days reading requirement documents, creating design plans, meeting, meeting and meetings. Whoa! Finally, im doing this. Something that i have always dreamt of, leading a group and not just code.
I hope this will be a start of a better career path for me. This should be something i should take good care of. Not everyone is given this oppurtunity.
While writing this, i remembered Ms Nene during our ratings session last april. She told me that i have to do more and be better because ill soon be an SDE2. I'll always be thankful to Ms Nene for she has always been an inspiration to me.
I always be thankful to my project manager for giving me this chance and to the company in general. Huge thanks also goes to my former teammates for helping me understand the technology and the business process as well. To my friends, for always inspiring me to improve my craft as a professional. And to God for this new blessing.
When i entered this company, i really don't know what to expect. All i know is that Pipo and Darrix are happy to be part of it and that my VPAL-EM barkada convinced me that this is such a great oppurtunity for me.
The first few week with this company was tough ... i really dont know what to do inside..i have no assignment, no group, no manager.. I was pretty bored just reading about Struts, JSP, J2EE, Beans, Servlets.. what these terms are all about..I even got a comment from Darrix that i always look pale and unexcited.
Then, finally i got an assignment, I spent three months tinkering about Ibatis, Struts, XmL etc..It was pretty tougher because i really don't have any experience with any of these except basic J2SE. But it was so much challenging. I finally had a taste of creating my first few JSP pages and at the same time coding with Struts.
Just last week, my manager approached me. She told me, she felt i was so underutilized in her group. She wanted to transfer me. Now, she will no longer be assigning me as a senior developer but an assistant team lead for the new project. I was in a total shock. I really never expected it. It was so much a challenge, i told myself.
Since last week till today, i spent my days reading requirement documents, creating design plans, meeting, meeting and meetings. Whoa! Finally, im doing this. Something that i have always dreamt of, leading a group and not just code.
I hope this will be a start of a better career path for me. This should be something i should take good care of. Not everyone is given this oppurtunity.
While writing this, i remembered Ms Nene during our ratings session last april. She told me that i have to do more and be better because ill soon be an SDE2. I'll always be thankful to Ms Nene for she has always been an inspiration to me.
I always be thankful to my project manager for giving me this chance and to the company in general. Huge thanks also goes to my former teammates for helping me understand the technology and the business process as well. To my friends, for always inspiring me to improve my craft as a professional. And to God for this new blessing.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
How i found my special someone
Right after i bought a new sun cellular sim, i vowed not to give anymore my new number to anybody from downelink and connexion.
And i promised myself that i would get my revenge starting that week. YEs indeed, i did get my revenge but i never expected this to happen.
--- The first move ---
It was tuesday, i received a message asking for my number, I thought twice, cause giving my number was not part of my plan. When i viewed his profile,
he is 18 but he looks good in the pic..kaya sabi ko" hmmmm. sige ill try this one, this will be my last, bahala na 18 years old! " hehehe i gave my number na. I never thought,
isa lng pala ako sa list of prospects nya , he actually sent the same msg sa ga prospects niya..PAK! parehas jud mi..hehehe
--- The texting stage ---
So un, he texted last wednesday, and he made his first call last thursday.
I was amazed coz, it really boosts my ego when a guy makes an effort to call me. AFter that first call, i realized i was too raw and uninterested so,
i texted him, "Nice talking to you", i purposely did that to make his hopes high. baka isipin niya di ako interested(Sabi niya sakin, un daw nafeel niya)
Friday, i added him sa friendster, there i saw 50 pics of him, i was impressed, for me pasado na siya at 5'8 1/2 ok na.. so i txted him ,
"grabe ka naman ka vain di ko keri 50 pics mo, too much love for oneself is bad, share mo naman yan!" He texted back.."gusto mo, share ko sayo?",
Oh my God, kumagat ang loko, so i replied, "huh? paano?" , he texted me, "R u free 2nyt?" hehehe. eto na.. di na ako nagpakamanang, so i said "sure..
greenbelt 3 tayo then will go somewhere else after.."
--- How we met ----
I looked for a place sa greenbelt, where i could hangout while waiting for him ..(late ksi siya) i decided sa Music1 nalang...
Then he texted "Im here na..were tayo meet?" I told him, "Im at music1 at the listening station , Im wearing green"
Sabi niya, "Dami niyong nakagreen, kaw nlng lapit sakin, im wearing violet" So nilapitan ko siya..Oh God ..complete package to (Kaya pala late)...
sobrang may effort from hair to shoes ..todo getups ...talbog beauty ko ...pwede! ..so un tinabihan ko siya kaso nahiya ang lola niyo so what i did ,
i transfered to his back and texted hi , "I think im at your bACK", He replied, "I think im at your back too hehehe" so un..nagmeet na kami ..
ang saya ko kasi parang gusto ko siya.
--- conclusion ---
We watched, just like heaven sa greenbelt, nalula ako sa kamahal, buti dutch treat(Which is tama naman),
we went to metrowalk just to drink lng then, we went to my place, to wait for ken wyl watching dvds(??) .at dun
we felt the connection, so 6 hours after kami nagkita, kami na. hehehhe
super whirlwind as in the fastest ever, sana hindi rin the fastest na mawala.. he is so special sa kin, i told myself di ko pakakawalan to.
i saw in him the clue or sign i was looking for my next partner which is, "the guy for me is the guy who wouldnt make me think of them all"
and yes, di nga ako nagthink about them, ung focus ko siya lng as in siya lng talaga ....
Masaya siya kasama, i felt young again kasi, maharot siya, as in sobra
Finally, i have found somebody before Xmas..sana siya na!
And i promised myself that i would get my revenge starting that week. YEs indeed, i did get my revenge but i never expected this to happen.
--- The first move ---
It was tuesday, i received a message asking for my number, I thought twice, cause giving my number was not part of my plan. When i viewed his profile,
he is 18 but he looks good in the pic..kaya sabi ko" hmmmm. sige ill try this one, this will be my last, bahala na 18 years old! " hehehe i gave my number na. I never thought,
isa lng pala ako sa list of prospects nya , he actually sent the same msg sa ga prospects niya..PAK! parehas jud mi..hehehe
--- The texting stage ---
So un, he texted last wednesday, and he made his first call last thursday.
I was amazed coz, it really boosts my ego when a guy makes an effort to call me. AFter that first call, i realized i was too raw and uninterested so,
i texted him, "Nice talking to you", i purposely did that to make his hopes high. baka isipin niya di ako interested(Sabi niya sakin, un daw nafeel niya)
Friday, i added him sa friendster, there i saw 50 pics of him, i was impressed, for me pasado na siya at 5'8 1/2 ok na.. so i txted him ,
"grabe ka naman ka vain di ko keri 50 pics mo, too much love for oneself is bad, share mo naman yan!" He texted back.."gusto mo, share ko sayo?",
Oh my God, kumagat ang loko, so i replied, "huh? paano?" , he texted me, "R u free 2nyt?" hehehe. eto na.. di na ako nagpakamanang, so i said "sure..
greenbelt 3 tayo then will go somewhere else after.."
--- How we met ----
I looked for a place sa greenbelt, where i could hangout while waiting for him ..(late ksi siya) i decided sa Music1 nalang...
Then he texted "Im here na..were tayo meet?" I told him, "Im at music1 at the listening station , Im wearing green"
Sabi niya, "Dami niyong nakagreen, kaw nlng lapit sakin, im wearing violet" So nilapitan ko siya..Oh God ..complete package to (Kaya pala late)...
sobrang may effort from hair to shoes ..todo getups ...talbog beauty ko ...pwede! ..so un tinabihan ko siya kaso nahiya ang lola niyo so what i did ,
i transfered to his back and texted hi , "I think im at your bACK", He replied, "I think im at your back too hehehe" so un..nagmeet na kami ..
ang saya ko kasi parang gusto ko siya.
--- conclusion ---
We watched, just like heaven sa greenbelt, nalula ako sa kamahal, buti dutch treat(Which is tama naman),
we went to metrowalk just to drink lng then, we went to my place, to wait for ken wyl watching dvds(??) .at dun
we felt the connection, so 6 hours after kami nagkita, kami na. hehehhe
super whirlwind as in the fastest ever, sana hindi rin the fastest na mawala.. he is so special sa kin, i told myself di ko pakakawalan to.
i saw in him the clue or sign i was looking for my next partner which is, "the guy for me is the guy who wouldnt make me think of them all"
and yes, di nga ako nagthink about them, ung focus ko siya lng as in siya lng talaga ....
Masaya siya kasama, i felt young again kasi, maharot siya, as in sobra
Finally, i have found somebody before Xmas..sana siya na!
Blessings
I never expected that the past week would be a very good 1 for me. There is this song that is played every Christmas which is "Count your blessings instead of sheeps". Haay, after all the things that happened to my life these past few months, i hope this would be a great start.
1) My family, OK na kami...
2) I got a new assignment sa company which is something i never expected but i was hoping for
3) I gained weight, more confident now with my body..hehehe
4) My skin looks better now
5) Active na pud ko sa company activities but not as hyper sa NEC, NEC was different ..mas nahan jud ko moparticipate didto..the best jud ang NEC people for me so far
6) I have found the love of my life hehehe last Friday ...
It is indeed true, mutuo na jud ko ani na saying ..
"Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country."
"When you want something, the whole universe conspires with you to help you achieve it"
Indeed, when i started throwing my dreams into space, it did give me something .more than i expected ..and the universe indeed conpsired with me ..
=)
1) My family, OK na kami...
2) I got a new assignment sa company which is something i never expected but i was hoping for
3) I gained weight, more confident now with my body..hehehe
4) My skin looks better now
5) Active na pud ko sa company activities but not as hyper sa NEC, NEC was different ..mas nahan jud ko moparticipate didto..the best jud ang NEC people for me so far
6) I have found the love of my life hehehe last Friday ...
It is indeed true, mutuo na jud ko ani na saying ..
"Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country."
"When you want something, the whole universe conspires with you to help you achieve it"
Indeed, when i started throwing my dreams into space, it did give me something .more than i expected ..and the universe indeed conpsired with me ..
=)
Friday, December 02, 2005
Stand Up For Love ... Im Sorry(Dont love you no more)
These songs are so nice ..cant stop singing
Stand Up For Love by Destiny's Child
[Beyoncé]
There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such troubled times
And every child that reaches out for someone to hold
For one moment they become my own
And how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on
When every second with every minute another soul is gone
[Chorus]
And I believe that in my life I will see (ooh yeah)
An end to hopelessness or giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love
[Kelly]
I'm inspired and hopeful each and every day
That's how I know that things are gonna change
So how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on
When every second with every minute another soul is gone
[Chorus]
And I believe
That in my life I will see
An end to hopelesness of giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love
[Michelle]
And it all starts right here
And it starts right now
One person stand up there
And the rest will follow
For all the forgotten
For all the unloved
I'm gonna sing this song
[Chorus]
And I believe that in my life I will see
An end to hopelessness of giving up of suffering
If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up and sing
Stand up for love
For love, for love
Don't Love You No More (i'm Sorry) by Craig David
For all the years that I’ve known you baby
I can’t figure out the reason why lately
you’ve been acting so cold (didn’t you say)
if there’s a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you don’t want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly game
don’t think that I’m the only one here to blame
it’s not me who’s been going round slamming doors
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cause I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
I know that I’ve made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn’t make sense to me now that you’re gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
Those simple words hit so hard
they turned my whole world upside down
girl you caught me completely off guard
on that night you said to me
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more.
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
Stand Up For Love by Destiny's Child
[Beyoncé]
There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such troubled times
And every child that reaches out for someone to hold
For one moment they become my own
And how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on
When every second with every minute another soul is gone
[Chorus]
And I believe that in my life I will see (ooh yeah)
An end to hopelessness or giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love
[Kelly]
I'm inspired and hopeful each and every day
That's how I know that things are gonna change
So how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on
When every second with every minute another soul is gone
[Chorus]
And I believe
That in my life I will see
An end to hopelesness of giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love
[Michelle]
And it all starts right here
And it starts right now
One person stand up there
And the rest will follow
For all the forgotten
For all the unloved
I'm gonna sing this song
[Chorus]
And I believe that in my life I will see
An end to hopelessness of giving up of suffering
If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up and sing
Stand up for love
For love, for love
Don't Love You No More (i'm Sorry) by Craig David
For all the years that I’ve known you baby
I can’t figure out the reason why lately
you’ve been acting so cold (didn’t you say)
if there’s a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you don’t want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly game
don’t think that I’m the only one here to blame
it’s not me who’s been going round slamming doors
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cause I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
I know that I’ve made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn’t make sense to me now that you’re gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
Those simple words hit so hard
they turned my whole world upside down
girl you caught me completely off guard
on that night you said to me
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more.
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Ressurection, payback time, revenge
After last Friday's super lasing session na naging winner ako sa kalasingan,
I woke up with more questions and issues about myself. "Whats wrong with me?". That was my biggest question until finally, ako na rin ang sumagot sa question ko..."because it was you who allowed it to happen!"
I was desperate, so frustrated ... i have realized i couldnt be like this forever. My being lasing or super hubog last Friday was the peak of all my disgust over all my frustrations and desperations. I have to stop this!
I have to ressurect my beaten and broken heart, show them its payback time and i want my revenge!
Kaya ngayon, beginning this week, gone are the moments na maghihintay ako na they'll text me, gone are the days na mag iisip ako ba't wala pa ako partner, gone are the questions why can't they love me ... why can't they date me, ba't hanggang ganito lang kami ...
This time, i will have to make sure na ako hahabulin all the time, i'll start to see those who i refuse to see before, i'll start to reach those within the boundaries of my existence. Sayang ung iba na hinayaan ko mawala dahil sa kanila, they could have been a partner, a perfect one for me, i was too foolish to see that.
Feel ko, its just now that i started to give value to myself, it feels good everytime i give them a negative response, something i haven't done before. Haay, this makes my life more exciting right now...
I woke up with more questions and issues about myself. "Whats wrong with me?". That was my biggest question until finally, ako na rin ang sumagot sa question ko..."because it was you who allowed it to happen!"
I was desperate, so frustrated ... i have realized i couldnt be like this forever. My being lasing or super hubog last Friday was the peak of all my disgust over all my frustrations and desperations. I have to stop this!
I have to ressurect my beaten and broken heart, show them its payback time and i want my revenge!
Kaya ngayon, beginning this week, gone are the moments na maghihintay ako na they'll text me, gone are the days na mag iisip ako ba't wala pa ako partner, gone are the questions why can't they love me ... why can't they date me, ba't hanggang ganito lang kami ...
This time, i will have to make sure na ako hahabulin all the time, i'll start to see those who i refuse to see before, i'll start to reach those within the boundaries of my existence. Sayang ung iba na hinayaan ko mawala dahil sa kanila, they could have been a partner, a perfect one for me, i was too foolish to see that.
Feel ko, its just now that i started to give value to myself, it feels good everytime i give them a negative response, something i haven't done before. Haay, this makes my life more exciting right now...
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