Do i make you proud?

I never liked Taylor Hicks! He was never my favorite to win. He was never my bet. When i first heard of his final song, it made me realize he is not a bad choice at all. He may not look physically appealing, but his voice and spirit as a competitor made him become the fifth american idol.



Do i make you proud
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I've never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
and now that's who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall

My heart is full
of endless gratitude
You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I can see
And I believe
It's only just beginning

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud

Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved

Christmas Happy!

Pasensya na, wala lang ko lingaw ...hehehe

Season 1 Synopsis:


(January - February) After the very sad breakup with Kim last January, the story started with me listing possible prospects. From 15 probables, it was trimmed to only 1, and since im not happy with the last remaining candidate, i eventually eliminated him and the show continued with the wild cards.

(February 24) Reopened my connexion account because I saw J--- at Fitness First
(February 25) My pictures where finally uploaded, and from there new probables were introduced
(February 27) Had an official meet up with J---
(February 28) The elimination process fast tracked and ended, the winner was declared(hehehe pokpok!!!!) The winner also resigned from his current job.
(March 6) Something happened sa house in QC
(March 18) Moved to new house
(March 28) First monthsary
(April 12-16) Vacation in Bolinao
(April 28) Second Monthsary
(May 18) Its official, manila na siya ..hehehe end of season

There are so many things to look forward this new season:
- J---' new career(his new XDA, car, challenges)
- My NTP project officially ended, looking forward to a new assignment(baka HP daw ko OMG)
- our nth monthsaries, his birthday, new struggles, new conflicts, new characters

Haay i cant believe these all happened in 4 months, i am so excited to see and experience how my life will change soon ...

Christmas Happy
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I was the one who first mentioned this term when J--- asked me how I am feeling when we became us, i told Im so Christmas happy... Since then, we used that term to describe how happy we are. This term was again mentioned yesterday, when he asked me how i felt when he announce that he will be assigned here and not in Cebu, i told him Im so Christmas happy!!!

I am so thankful to God for hearing our prayers, to allfriends who also said prayers for us. Im am sooo Christmas happy right now!!!

Why God Why?

After almost two months of waiting, within this week or probably today, we would know where J--- will be assigned. Just 20 minutes ago, he texted me that he may probably be assigned in Cebu(napayosi ko ug 2 ka marlboro na red). From the very start, i already knew the fact that he may leave for an assignmnt in the province. I never thought it is difficult. He hasn't left yet but the very fact that he may be leaving already hurts. It hurts a lot. I can't describe what I am feeling right now. I feel like my world has just stopped and waiting for some good news to come. I have asked God to set our direction because I know I dot have a right, the very right to question his plans for us. I can't question Him why? Maybe its the best for us. I'll just just cross my fingers.

Nearing climax

J---' training has finally ended and he finished it with flying colors.
Right now, im filled with mixed emotions.
Im happy that finally he is over with it. I saw how he strived to pass it.
It wasnt an easy stage for him to pass.
Im sad because he texted me that he might be assigned in my most beloved home town, CEBU.
Cebu is a great place. I am very excited to go home and see how it has developed from the very moment i left it.
I just cant afford to see my mornings waking up without him beside me(char!). He has been a significant part of my daily activities, he has been a part of my life. Things will be different if he will be assigned there, I know it will be.
I may sound selfish but I wish he will just be assigned here.