Recreating

Were going four months tomorrow. As a person filled with fears, I was again surprised by a question. "Would it be okay if i go out alone with my friends?"
I was stuck in silence, i didnt know what to answer. As a person who wants to please everybody, I said yes, if it makes you happy, why not?(bitter mode). Then he said, "honestly, admit it, were more happy when other people joins us when we go out." Again, i said yes. Its true. After four months of being together, everyday, things have become a routine. Siguro, wala na masyado surprises. Things no longer excite us that much. I told him, it's okay to go out with friends as long as I know who these friends are and where you are going. He told me he wouldnt do it for now and he answered he is not bored with me, its just that we needed to see new faces get to reconnect with what was lost when we got together.

Taking a lesson learned from a friend, the more you control somebody, the more he wanst his freedom. As long as you trust him and you are assured of his loyalty, no matter what happens, no matter what other people says about you, you will still be together as long as you hold on to your love.

Seloso kasi ako, siguro after all that i have been through takot na akong mawalan ng kasama. I told him, I will never allow you to go to Malate or Governent without me. Its not a matter of me not trusting you, it's about the quality of people hanging out there that I'm afraid of. I hope he understands my point. Its not that im making him sakal. Im just protecting what is rightfully mine. And I will never allow any creature to touch it.

I believe that I have to soften my stand and start accepting the fact that I have to allow ourselves to go out with friends. Tan awa si Ken, mas ganahan mugawas sa tangkal ang iro if imo pugngan ug pag gawas. Mas magwild. I don't want that to happen. As a newbie in a relationship that is serious, I always am considering every bit of every situation as a learning experience.

This is a new stage that we are passing right now. I hope we could get it through with finesse. I don't want to wake up in the morning, hearing that my partner is bored with me. Neither do I want to wake up realizing that I am bored with my partner. As most of my friends say, you have to constantly reinvent yourself. Think of new things to do. Think of new things to look forward to. Siguro, I failed in that aspect. If I consider my self a creative genious sa school and company activities Im afraid to accept that im a creative dumb in relationships. That is something I want to change and improve on.

Malate White Party

Last Saturday was the first gay pride event that i attended. Me, josh, xela and wilbert attended the event. It was fun, lots of things to see. Imagine, most probably half of Manila's gay population was there! Sobrang daming bading kakaumay! May discreet, faghug, transvestites, etc. Halo-halo lahat masaya. Well ako nakuyawan kay we never know what will happen. Pero daghan kau ko mga exs nakit-an didto and i was happy proud showing off my partner to them.

I dont know whats with Malate na i ended up feeling bad. Seloso siguro ko. Daghan man gud mga pasaway didto, di morespeto ug uyab. Knowing my partner as a frequent Malate goer and a certified Manileno, meanign daghan siya friends, Its hard to decipher who is a friend and who is not.

Well, everytime we go to Malate, I always consider it as a test of loyalty and trust. Things will never go wrong if you have those. In a way, I can feel na J--- is proud of me too. He hodls my hand in public, eh cuddles me, he shows his affection in public, minsan hinuhubaran niya ako to show off my abs. hehehe..

Wheels

It was one not so busy Thursday afternoon when J--- texted me that he'd fetch me along San Miguel Avenue. It was a very weird idea cause most of the time its him who goes to my office to fetch me up. I waited for him at One San Miguel Avenue. I was in total shock that he was driving his new car. Finally after months of waiting , his company finally gave him his car.

It was a very awkward scene to be in. It felt different. It was the first time I was him drive. It was the first time he had driven a car with a non driver in it. It was scary, really very scary, so Ive got to fasten my seatbelt to make sure thigns will be at least fine when things go wrong.

First scary stop was EDSA hehehe shet ako balhibo natagaktak sa kahadlok hehehe, the cars wheels bumped on one of EDSA's center islands.

Second scary stop, his side mirror hit a girl. Shet nakaligis mi, less than 1 hour pa siya nagdrive..It was fine though, thank God may gani buhi ang girl unya murag sprain ra. Natagaktak ang 1000 namo, haay may gani buhi ang girl nya buotan.

Third scary stop, nabangga mi sa gas station, narattle si j--- sa pagpark tong nagpagas mi.

Haay, naa pa fourth scary stop, nacorner mi sa inclined intersection, imagine pasaka mi sa pasaka na corner, gisugat mi ug truck, gi taparan ug suv nya naa pay lain nisugat na car. Unsa di ka mahadlok, dili pa nahuman, panaug amo car and di nya mastart.Shet di lng balhibo sa panit ang tagaktak sa kahadlok, pati balhimo na di ninyo makit-an paet!

But things are ok now, his driving skills have improved. I know feel safe with him when he is driving. from a grade of 4/10 that i gave him he now gets an 8/10 from me as of Sunday.

Im really happy right now, things are getting better for us. From an almost really broke moments that we had, slowly, things, good things are coming in. I hope it'll continue to come in.

Less than two days from now, 4 months na kami. Well, I hope and pray that God will continue to strengthen our relationship.

Friendster Makeover

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Getting so many friendster requests and messages and seeing that there are at least 12 people hitting your profile everyday is for me one of my greatest achievements at friendster. Thanks to my photos. Hehehe .. Narcistic as it may sound, a picture really is every persons selling tool. If youve got bad pictures, dont expect to get invitations. Honestly, my best selling point here are my sexy pictures. I admit, it gets everyones attention(hehehe). Really, it does! It also is the reason why some people dont take me seriously.

But I am no longer getting that amount of hits right now. Why so? Ang ang wholesome naman ako primary picture!!! .. J--- decided to slowly remove my sexy pictures and in turn added new wholesome pics. After all, what are those sexy pics for?