"And I believe
That in my life I will see
An end to hopelesness of giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love"
Kahit di ko kasama ang family ko this Christmas, in a way happy pa rin ako. Makakasama ko mga friends ko. God really works in mysterious ways. I've got so many things to thank him now, a new love, a new job, a new outlook in life, a stronger relationship with friends.I wanna thank Him for being with me always, for giving lessons i have to learn for me to be better and stronger as a person, as a friend, as a son, as a brother, as a partner, as an employee and as a citizen.
Gusto ko magblog pero i cant write something for now..just wana greet all my readers and my self if wala akong reader a Merry Mery Christmas!
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Monday, December 05, 2005
Chance ... Oppurtunity .. a Challenge
Ill be going back to our requirements walkthrough later with our Ukrainian client, that's why, ill be taking this spare time to blog what i feel now.
When i entered this company, i really don't know what to expect. All i know is that Pipo and Darrix are happy to be part of it and that my VPAL-EM barkada convinced me that this is such a great oppurtunity for me.
The first few week with this company was tough ... i really dont know what to do inside..i have no assignment, no group, no manager.. I was pretty bored just reading about Struts, JSP, J2EE, Beans, Servlets.. what these terms are all about..I even got a comment from Darrix that i always look pale and unexcited.
Then, finally i got an assignment, I spent three months tinkering about Ibatis, Struts, XmL etc..It was pretty tougher because i really don't have any experience with any of these except basic J2SE. But it was so much challenging. I finally had a taste of creating my first few JSP pages and at the same time coding with Struts.
Just last week, my manager approached me. She told me, she felt i was so underutilized in her group. She wanted to transfer me. Now, she will no longer be assigning me as a senior developer but an assistant team lead for the new project. I was in a total shock. I really never expected it. It was so much a challenge, i told myself.
Since last week till today, i spent my days reading requirement documents, creating design plans, meeting, meeting and meetings. Whoa! Finally, im doing this. Something that i have always dreamt of, leading a group and not just code.
I hope this will be a start of a better career path for me. This should be something i should take good care of. Not everyone is given this oppurtunity.
While writing this, i remembered Ms Nene during our ratings session last april. She told me that i have to do more and be better because ill soon be an SDE2. I'll always be thankful to Ms Nene for she has always been an inspiration to me.
I always be thankful to my project manager for giving me this chance and to the company in general. Huge thanks also goes to my former teammates for helping me understand the technology and the business process as well. To my friends, for always inspiring me to improve my craft as a professional. And to God for this new blessing.
When i entered this company, i really don't know what to expect. All i know is that Pipo and Darrix are happy to be part of it and that my VPAL-EM barkada convinced me that this is such a great oppurtunity for me.
The first few week with this company was tough ... i really dont know what to do inside..i have no assignment, no group, no manager.. I was pretty bored just reading about Struts, JSP, J2EE, Beans, Servlets.. what these terms are all about..I even got a comment from Darrix that i always look pale and unexcited.
Then, finally i got an assignment, I spent three months tinkering about Ibatis, Struts, XmL etc..It was pretty tougher because i really don't have any experience with any of these except basic J2SE. But it was so much challenging. I finally had a taste of creating my first few JSP pages and at the same time coding with Struts.
Just last week, my manager approached me. She told me, she felt i was so underutilized in her group. She wanted to transfer me. Now, she will no longer be assigning me as a senior developer but an assistant team lead for the new project. I was in a total shock. I really never expected it. It was so much a challenge, i told myself.
Since last week till today, i spent my days reading requirement documents, creating design plans, meeting, meeting and meetings. Whoa! Finally, im doing this. Something that i have always dreamt of, leading a group and not just code.
I hope this will be a start of a better career path for me. This should be something i should take good care of. Not everyone is given this oppurtunity.
While writing this, i remembered Ms Nene during our ratings session last april. She told me that i have to do more and be better because ill soon be an SDE2. I'll always be thankful to Ms Nene for she has always been an inspiration to me.
I always be thankful to my project manager for giving me this chance and to the company in general. Huge thanks also goes to my former teammates for helping me understand the technology and the business process as well. To my friends, for always inspiring me to improve my craft as a professional. And to God for this new blessing.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
How i found my special someone
Right after i bought a new sun cellular sim, i vowed not to give anymore my new number to anybody from downelink and connexion.
And i promised myself that i would get my revenge starting that week. YEs indeed, i did get my revenge but i never expected this to happen.
--- The first move ---
It was tuesday, i received a message asking for my number, I thought twice, cause giving my number was not part of my plan. When i viewed his profile,
he is 18 but he looks good in the pic..kaya sabi ko" hmmmm. sige ill try this one, this will be my last, bahala na 18 years old! " hehehe i gave my number na. I never thought,
isa lng pala ako sa list of prospects nya , he actually sent the same msg sa ga prospects niya..PAK! parehas jud mi..hehehe
--- The texting stage ---
So un, he texted last wednesday, and he made his first call last thursday.
I was amazed coz, it really boosts my ego when a guy makes an effort to call me. AFter that first call, i realized i was too raw and uninterested so,
i texted him, "Nice talking to you", i purposely did that to make his hopes high. baka isipin niya di ako interested(Sabi niya sakin, un daw nafeel niya)
Friday, i added him sa friendster, there i saw 50 pics of him, i was impressed, for me pasado na siya at 5'8 1/2 ok na.. so i txted him ,
"grabe ka naman ka vain di ko keri 50 pics mo, too much love for oneself is bad, share mo naman yan!" He texted back.."gusto mo, share ko sayo?",
Oh my God, kumagat ang loko, so i replied, "huh? paano?" , he texted me, "R u free 2nyt?" hehehe. eto na.. di na ako nagpakamanang, so i said "sure..
greenbelt 3 tayo then will go somewhere else after.."
--- How we met ----
I looked for a place sa greenbelt, where i could hangout while waiting for him ..(late ksi siya) i decided sa Music1 nalang...
Then he texted "Im here na..were tayo meet?" I told him, "Im at music1 at the listening station , Im wearing green"
Sabi niya, "Dami niyong nakagreen, kaw nlng lapit sakin, im wearing violet" So nilapitan ko siya..Oh God ..complete package to (Kaya pala late)...
sobrang may effort from hair to shoes ..todo getups ...talbog beauty ko ...pwede! ..so un tinabihan ko siya kaso nahiya ang lola niyo so what i did ,
i transfered to his back and texted hi , "I think im at your bACK", He replied, "I think im at your back too hehehe" so un..nagmeet na kami ..
ang saya ko kasi parang gusto ko siya.
--- conclusion ---
We watched, just like heaven sa greenbelt, nalula ako sa kamahal, buti dutch treat(Which is tama naman),
we went to metrowalk just to drink lng then, we went to my place, to wait for ken wyl watching dvds(??) .at dun
we felt the connection, so 6 hours after kami nagkita, kami na. hehehhe
super whirlwind as in the fastest ever, sana hindi rin the fastest na mawala.. he is so special sa kin, i told myself di ko pakakawalan to.
i saw in him the clue or sign i was looking for my next partner which is, "the guy for me is the guy who wouldnt make me think of them all"
and yes, di nga ako nagthink about them, ung focus ko siya lng as in siya lng talaga ....
Masaya siya kasama, i felt young again kasi, maharot siya, as in sobra
Finally, i have found somebody before Xmas..sana siya na!
And i promised myself that i would get my revenge starting that week. YEs indeed, i did get my revenge but i never expected this to happen.
--- The first move ---
It was tuesday, i received a message asking for my number, I thought twice, cause giving my number was not part of my plan. When i viewed his profile,
he is 18 but he looks good in the pic..kaya sabi ko" hmmmm. sige ill try this one, this will be my last, bahala na 18 years old! " hehehe i gave my number na. I never thought,
isa lng pala ako sa list of prospects nya , he actually sent the same msg sa ga prospects niya..PAK! parehas jud mi..hehehe
--- The texting stage ---
So un, he texted last wednesday, and he made his first call last thursday.
I was amazed coz, it really boosts my ego when a guy makes an effort to call me. AFter that first call, i realized i was too raw and uninterested so,
i texted him, "Nice talking to you", i purposely did that to make his hopes high. baka isipin niya di ako interested(Sabi niya sakin, un daw nafeel niya)
Friday, i added him sa friendster, there i saw 50 pics of him, i was impressed, for me pasado na siya at 5'8 1/2 ok na.. so i txted him ,
"grabe ka naman ka vain di ko keri 50 pics mo, too much love for oneself is bad, share mo naman yan!" He texted back.."gusto mo, share ko sayo?",
Oh my God, kumagat ang loko, so i replied, "huh? paano?" , he texted me, "R u free 2nyt?" hehehe. eto na.. di na ako nagpakamanang, so i said "sure..
greenbelt 3 tayo then will go somewhere else after.."
--- How we met ----
I looked for a place sa greenbelt, where i could hangout while waiting for him ..(late ksi siya) i decided sa Music1 nalang...
Then he texted "Im here na..were tayo meet?" I told him, "Im at music1 at the listening station , Im wearing green"
Sabi niya, "Dami niyong nakagreen, kaw nlng lapit sakin, im wearing violet" So nilapitan ko siya..Oh God ..complete package to (Kaya pala late)...
sobrang may effort from hair to shoes ..todo getups ...talbog beauty ko ...pwede! ..so un tinabihan ko siya kaso nahiya ang lola niyo so what i did ,
i transfered to his back and texted hi , "I think im at your bACK", He replied, "I think im at your back too hehehe" so un..nagmeet na kami ..
ang saya ko kasi parang gusto ko siya.
--- conclusion ---
We watched, just like heaven sa greenbelt, nalula ako sa kamahal, buti dutch treat(Which is tama naman),
we went to metrowalk just to drink lng then, we went to my place, to wait for ken wyl watching dvds(??) .at dun
we felt the connection, so 6 hours after kami nagkita, kami na. hehehhe
super whirlwind as in the fastest ever, sana hindi rin the fastest na mawala.. he is so special sa kin, i told myself di ko pakakawalan to.
i saw in him the clue or sign i was looking for my next partner which is, "the guy for me is the guy who wouldnt make me think of them all"
and yes, di nga ako nagthink about them, ung focus ko siya lng as in siya lng talaga ....
Masaya siya kasama, i felt young again kasi, maharot siya, as in sobra
Finally, i have found somebody before Xmas..sana siya na!
Blessings
I never expected that the past week would be a very good 1 for me. There is this song that is played every Christmas which is "Count your blessings instead of sheeps". Haay, after all the things that happened to my life these past few months, i hope this would be a great start.
1) My family, OK na kami...
2) I got a new assignment sa company which is something i never expected but i was hoping for
3) I gained weight, more confident now with my body..hehehe
4) My skin looks better now
5) Active na pud ko sa company activities but not as hyper sa NEC, NEC was different ..mas nahan jud ko moparticipate didto..the best jud ang NEC people for me so far
6) I have found the love of my life hehehe last Friday ...
It is indeed true, mutuo na jud ko ani na saying ..
"Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country."
"When you want something, the whole universe conspires with you to help you achieve it"
Indeed, when i started throwing my dreams into space, it did give me something .more than i expected ..and the universe indeed conpsired with me ..
=)
1) My family, OK na kami...
2) I got a new assignment sa company which is something i never expected but i was hoping for
3) I gained weight, more confident now with my body..hehehe
4) My skin looks better now
5) Active na pud ko sa company activities but not as hyper sa NEC, NEC was different ..mas nahan jud ko moparticipate didto..the best jud ang NEC people for me so far
6) I have found the love of my life hehehe last Friday ...
It is indeed true, mutuo na jud ko ani na saying ..
"Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country."
"When you want something, the whole universe conspires with you to help you achieve it"
Indeed, when i started throwing my dreams into space, it did give me something .more than i expected ..and the universe indeed conpsired with me ..
=)
Friday, December 02, 2005
Stand Up For Love ... Im Sorry(Dont love you no more)
These songs are so nice ..cant stop singing
Stand Up For Love by Destiny's Child
[Beyoncé]
There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such troubled times
And every child that reaches out for someone to hold
For one moment they become my own
And how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on
When every second with every minute another soul is gone
[Chorus]
And I believe that in my life I will see (ooh yeah)
An end to hopelessness or giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love
[Kelly]
I'm inspired and hopeful each and every day
That's how I know that things are gonna change
So how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on
When every second with every minute another soul is gone
[Chorus]
And I believe
That in my life I will see
An end to hopelesness of giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love
[Michelle]
And it all starts right here
And it starts right now
One person stand up there
And the rest will follow
For all the forgotten
For all the unloved
I'm gonna sing this song
[Chorus]
And I believe that in my life I will see
An end to hopelessness of giving up of suffering
If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up and sing
Stand up for love
For love, for love
Don't Love You No More (i'm Sorry) by Craig David
For all the years that I’ve known you baby
I can’t figure out the reason why lately
you’ve been acting so cold (didn’t you say)
if there’s a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you don’t want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly game
don’t think that I’m the only one here to blame
it’s not me who’s been going round slamming doors
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cause I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
I know that I’ve made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn’t make sense to me now that you’re gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
Those simple words hit so hard
they turned my whole world upside down
girl you caught me completely off guard
on that night you said to me
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more.
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
Stand Up For Love by Destiny's Child
[Beyoncé]
There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such troubled times
And every child that reaches out for someone to hold
For one moment they become my own
And how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on
When every second with every minute another soul is gone
[Chorus]
And I believe that in my life I will see (ooh yeah)
An end to hopelessness or giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love
[Kelly]
I'm inspired and hopeful each and every day
That's how I know that things are gonna change
So how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on
When every second with every minute another soul is gone
[Chorus]
And I believe
That in my life I will see
An end to hopelesness of giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love
[Michelle]
And it all starts right here
And it starts right now
One person stand up there
And the rest will follow
For all the forgotten
For all the unloved
I'm gonna sing this song
[Chorus]
And I believe that in my life I will see
An end to hopelessness of giving up of suffering
If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up and sing
Stand up for love
For love, for love
Don't Love You No More (i'm Sorry) by Craig David
For all the years that I’ve known you baby
I can’t figure out the reason why lately
you’ve been acting so cold (didn’t you say)
if there’s a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you don’t want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly game
don’t think that I’m the only one here to blame
it’s not me who’s been going round slamming doors
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cause I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
I know that I’ve made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn’t make sense to me now that you’re gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
Those simple words hit so hard
they turned my whole world upside down
girl you caught me completely off guard
on that night you said to me
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more.
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Ressurection, payback time, revenge
After last Friday's super lasing session na naging winner ako sa kalasingan,
I woke up with more questions and issues about myself. "Whats wrong with me?". That was my biggest question until finally, ako na rin ang sumagot sa question ko..."because it was you who allowed it to happen!"
I was desperate, so frustrated ... i have realized i couldnt be like this forever. My being lasing or super hubog last Friday was the peak of all my disgust over all my frustrations and desperations. I have to stop this!
I have to ressurect my beaten and broken heart, show them its payback time and i want my revenge!
Kaya ngayon, beginning this week, gone are the moments na maghihintay ako na they'll text me, gone are the days na mag iisip ako ba't wala pa ako partner, gone are the questions why can't they love me ... why can't they date me, ba't hanggang ganito lang kami ...
This time, i will have to make sure na ako hahabulin all the time, i'll start to see those who i refuse to see before, i'll start to reach those within the boundaries of my existence. Sayang ung iba na hinayaan ko mawala dahil sa kanila, they could have been a partner, a perfect one for me, i was too foolish to see that.
Feel ko, its just now that i started to give value to myself, it feels good everytime i give them a negative response, something i haven't done before. Haay, this makes my life more exciting right now...
I woke up with more questions and issues about myself. "Whats wrong with me?". That was my biggest question until finally, ako na rin ang sumagot sa question ko..."because it was you who allowed it to happen!"
I was desperate, so frustrated ... i have realized i couldnt be like this forever. My being lasing or super hubog last Friday was the peak of all my disgust over all my frustrations and desperations. I have to stop this!
I have to ressurect my beaten and broken heart, show them its payback time and i want my revenge!
Kaya ngayon, beginning this week, gone are the moments na maghihintay ako na they'll text me, gone are the days na mag iisip ako ba't wala pa ako partner, gone are the questions why can't they love me ... why can't they date me, ba't hanggang ganito lang kami ...
This time, i will have to make sure na ako hahabulin all the time, i'll start to see those who i refuse to see before, i'll start to reach those within the boundaries of my existence. Sayang ung iba na hinayaan ko mawala dahil sa kanila, they could have been a partner, a perfect one for me, i was too foolish to see that.
Feel ko, its just now that i started to give value to myself, it feels good everytime i give them a negative response, something i haven't done before. Haay, this makes my life more exciting right now...
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