Holy Week Adventure Plans

After my very successful Ilocos tour(pictures to be posted soon), with just a month before the holy week, I think it is high time for me to plan for our holy week vacation.

Initially we had two choices, go back to Bolinao,Pangasinan or Puerto Galera. Bolinao is a good choice, this is where we had our first vacation together pero tapso na kami dito, I wanted a new place. Puerto Galera's white beaches and fun night life is also a good choice kaso, I dont like the crowd, its like going to Malate kaso holy week lang.

Last Thursday, while browsing the PinoyExchange, I came across a thread about vacation spots in the Philippines. One topic was about Apo Reef. I almost thought it was the Apo Island of Negros Oriental. Apo Reef pala of Occidental,Mindoro. Like Puerto Galera, this place is also in Mindoro though on the other side.

Apo Reef is just an added attraction. Di kasi ako marunong mag scuba dive kaya walang silbi to and magastos pa. Ung main attraction pala is Pandan Island.

Pandan Island is a private island with a small resort on the West coast of Occidental Mindoro, Central Philippines.
After the island was 'discovered' and the resort established in 1986 by a French adventurer, this tropical island retreat has been voted time and again as one of the top resorts in the Philippines, not in terms of luxury but for it's quality of life and it's personalized atmosphere.

Here are snapshots of what to expect in Pandan Island.








To know more about this spectacular place, go and visit www.pandan.com

Sana matuloy kami dito. Nakapagbook na ako. Excited!

Not meant for me

This morning i was interviewed by Pipo for the Bearsterns project. Sayang, na blockout ko. I wasnt able to answer his questions even the simple SCJP questions. I fel so sad about this. It made me realize that Im not yet ready for any job interview anytime soon. It even crossed my mind that IT isnt for me. Im afraid that I may not be able to get a bigger paying job after my contract ends. It saddens to to think that my current company might get disappointed about this that they might think that I dont deserve the increase that I got. I feel embrassed because it was Pipo who interviewed me, that he and Darrix might think that I was nothing after all. Shet, I really need to redeem myself. Ive got less than a day to review, with my schedule now, with my hectic and busy project, I dont even think its possible. Haay, another oppurtunity lost.

Almost Valentines Day

Ever since, it has always been my dream to have an authentic Valentines date. When he came to my life, i told myself not to miss any important date sa buhay ko. Indeed, nangyari nga. Sa kasawiang palad, of all sa Valentines pa wala siya. Physically wala siya, pero in my heart and soul kasama ko siya.

Beauty Special

Since Ria came back, her presence has brought me a major realization that I have to keep up with the world's high standards of beauty.(unsa to ako gisulta..usba beh!)

First thing, she made me try her ultra spectacular microdermabrasion kit by Mary Kay. This product is really nice. i almost lost my face when i used it. Grabe ka nice ang iya scrub, you can really feel your skin exfoliating. Well, the pain can testify it.

Second, nangharbor ko ug Hydroquinone and tretinoin creams ni Dan.

Third, she introduced me to katie-jones products which she learned from PinoyExchange. Hmmmm, basta makamoney lang ko palit ko. Im so curious with this product, pattered after Obagi daw and a lot of people were abel to testify its effectiveness. Why not?

Surprise surprise

Muari siya ig weekend!

Nurture your dreams ...

I'll soon turn 25 this October, which makes me think what have i done for the past 24 years. And if I do have dreams for my future, have I started to do something to make my dreams a reality?

Day 6 - After 11 months

After so many failed and less-than-a-month relationships, I though I was going to give up on love. 11 months have passed and now I am waiting for our anniv to come. The waiting is not easy because the other part of my heart is not near me. Though he is away, i know deep inside me that we are still near.

At first I gave it a month, and then we succeeded. I waited for 3 - 6 - 9 months, through these times, we grew stronger. A month from now, we are turning a year. And I know we are going to surpass it.

The situation now is hard but we have definitely built a very strong foundation. I just can't wait to see how things will happen. I just love it.

Gusto maging ganito ako!

While browsing a pageant forum, I came across teh pic of our representative for manhunt international. I like his looks and body. Haaay wish ko lang ganito itsura ko. His name is Roldunne J. Mendoza. Hindi siya masyadong gwapo, ok lang pinoy na pinoy. Katawan naman niya payat lng pero toned, reachable kung baga. Ambisyoso ba ako? Diba libre lang ang mangarap! walang kokontra. blog ko to!

Day 4 - Spend my life

4 days have past since he left, i missed him so much.
Life now is pretty different. I wake up alone.
I go to bed alone. I missed his presence.

He now calls me often. I text him a lot.
We really try our best to make up for each others absence.
I know this wont be long.
I know someday we will see each other and we will be together again.

He is so sweet. He calls me often to check how I was doing.
He tells me he misses me so much. He tells me who he is with, what he has been doing and where he is to make me feel at ease of his situation there.

Last night while watching Dvd, sa sobrang miss ko, I recalled the night we spent watching DVDs when he asks me to buy food. Shet! namiss ko yun, Kaya what i did, I went outside to buy chicharon and noodles. Though this time I did it alone. But it was still a happy moment for me for I recalled the great moments we had together.

Just this morning I went to Megamall to buy my lunch, as I pass by the lotto station, where I bought my ticket to my bright future heheh(wish ko lng makadaug diba?) I saw this real estate exhibit.
The place was spectacular. I saw myself and him live there.
Its a great place to stay with the person you most love.

Haay, 30 more days and we will see each other again.

Di related blog ko sa title. Whiel writign this blog, this song was played.
I so love thsi song.

Spend my life by u turn

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I never knew such a day would come,
and I never knew such a love could be inside one.
And I never knew what my life was for,
now that you're here I know for sure.

I never knew till I looked in your eyes,
I was incomplete till the day you walked into my life,
and I never knew that my heart could feel so,
precious and pure one love so real

Can I just see you every morning when I open my eyes.
Can I just feel your heart beating beside me every night
Could we just feel this way together till the end of all time.
Can I just spend my life with you.

Now baby the days and the week and the years roll by,
but nothing will change the love inside you and I.
And baby I'll never find any words that could explain,
just how much my heart my life my soul you've changed.

(When no one else else understands)
(Can we tell God that your my man)
(How much I love you)
(Oh baby baby)

No touch has ever felt so wonderful
ANd no deeper love I've never known
I swear this love is true
(NOw and forever for you)
Only for you, for you
oh oh oh

Can I just see you every morning when I open my eyes. ooh ooh ooh oh oh oh
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Day 1: Rewriting History

My monday was the longest day so far for this year. It was our last day together. He left last 1am. A new chapter of our story has just started. A story that will be filled with new characters, new challenges, and new sacrifices. Haunted by fear, we will face these new challenges with trust, honesty, understanding and love.

As I open this new chapter, I feel like going back and rewrite our story. I kept asking myself what went wrong. Why was he reassigned? What was God's plan for us?

As I go through the past chapter, I've realized that maybe we may have done things leading us to this phase. Honestly, I have done things. Was his reassignment a punishment? If it was, was it because of me? Was it because of what I did that caused him some negativities in his job? or is this just a phase that he has to undergo to prove his worth and abilities?

For whatever it is, this new chapter has began. We can't do anything to rewrite it.

6 months nalang

Today marks the official coutnain before my bond ends!

Wow Philippines! Pagudpod .. my next stop

It has always been my dream to travel around the country and see how beautiful it is.

I am so blessed to be born and raised in Cebu. It is the country's number 1 tourist destination. There is so much to visit, so much to eat and so much to experience in the Queen City of the South. In the Visayas, Bohol was my first vacation stop. I was mesmerized by Bohol's simplicity and beauty. Panglao Island will never disappoint any tourist. Before I left Cebu for Manila, I had a chance to visit the university city of Dumaguete as well as the enchanting island of Siquijor.

I never had the chance to see the island of promise that we all call Mindanao. Until now, Camiguin, Siargao, Bukidnon, Dakak and Davao still continues to be a dream destination.

Manila has been considered my pseudo-home for the past 18 months. Luzon, where Manila is, is the country's biggest island and is home to various tourist destinations. My first stop here was Puerto Galera. This island is crazy, a cradle of interesting people like me. hehehe... I consider my holy week escapade in Bolinao, Pangasinan as very memorable. Subic is always a cool place to visit. Tagaytay unitl now continues to mesmerize me with its romantic atmosphere. While, batangas is also a great place to go if you wanted to escape Manila's noise and just head to the beach.

2007 welcomed me with a very sad twist but nevertheless it opened the idea of me going to another perfect dream vacation spot! Laoag City, where my dearly beloved will soon be assigned to is where the Paoay church is, It is considered one of the country's oldest and well-preserved church. South of it is the centuries old and still preserved city of Vigan. Finally, north of Laoag is the world famous Pagudpod. I am a beach addict and before i head to the spectacular beaches of the Indian ocean, Pacific ocean and the Carribean, I should first experience what my own country has to offer.

Thinking about it makes me really excited. Considering that it is our anniversary, spending it in a place such as Pagudpod would definitely make it more memorable.

Didn't I tell you they have windmills?

43 days nalang!!!!

Heritage City of Vigan


Sunshine City of Laoag


Pagudpod

It is all about the bond

Ever since 2007 started,I can't help but start counting the number of days before my bond expires. I felt that I have lost so many oppurtunities just because of that useless, "I can't figure out why?", unimaginable, inhuman, selfish bond. 6 months of sleep is not a far cry.

Gym Searching

I have cancelled my Fitness First membership last December. Though I cannot rightfully tell if im officially out of the gym because I havent paid my bill last month. I consider this as a moment for me to prove that I can gain weight just by eating.

Almost two months have passed since my last gym visit, my shape is still intact. Oh, not very intact as I should correctly say it. I can feel the heaviness of my stomach nowadays. I no longer feel comfortable with my shape. I feel insecure everytime I see some officemates who are still going to the gym. I still think they look sexier than I am, even if my mind, heart and soul tells me theyre nothing compared to me. How about those guys I admire and wish that my body was as spectacular as theirs. Huhuhu, how will I ever realize such feat. I wanna look like them. naaah.

With such situation I am in right now, I realized that confidence is not a matter of how people think about you. It is about how you see yourself. Does this conclude that I am insecure, that I lack confidence and that I am so trying hard to be sexy? Ooops! That hurts, but maybe this is the truth I have always hidden inside of me.

It's 2007 and I've got so much things to accomplish for the year and the degradation of my self confidence is never a part of it. it should never be part of it.

Gym searching is fun hehehe. I thought that I could enroll at Gold's gym for 1000 because a friend might tag me along with her company benefit. But to my disappointment, I decided not to pursue this plan because this would mean she has to shell out an additional 800 pesos for her gym membership which she won't be needing. I can't seem to find any gym within the perimeters of my office and home. And so, I went to Pinoyexchange as my final refuge. Gladly, somebody suggested that a 24/7 gym will be opening somewhere Ortigas/Shaw area. Yes, its Eclipse gym. Theyre offering a 1200 per month for non-peak hours. They're opening sometime this February. Well, I cant just hide my excitement. I wanna go back to the gym! Sumemr is coming and I just can't imagine myself strutting the gym wearing a shirt hehehehe....

The Queen City Experience

I'm still waiting for some pics to come but I cant help but blog our experience before i forget them hehehhe
More pics at johnmaunes.multiply.com

Dec 20 - NEC friends reunion



Dec 21 - Schi-hi X-mas Party at Thomas' place





Dec 22 and 23 - Party at Kasadja





Dec 24 and 25 - XMAS!!!!
Dec 26 and 27 - SANREM








Dec 28 - City Tour







Dec 29 - Uli na

Coping up

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January 3, 2007 - Wednesday
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After getting up for work, I kissed him goodbye and he told me he has headache. So before I left i gave him a head massage and left for work.

Between 5 - 6pm, I got a call from him telling me of a news. In a sobbing voice, he said he was reassigned to Ilocos. This was one of the most silent moments I had, I felt my head squeezing and my heart stop beating. I was in disbelief.

I wanted to cry. I wanted to shout. What a great way to start my year. It was my fist working day for 2007 but I cant help it, I cant focus. I cant work.

We kept calling each other, exchanging sorrows, what ifs, "I'll miss you's", "I love you's", "don't leaves me's". Till I cant help it, 8pm I went home.

Before I got a jeep for our place, I visited EDSA shrine to tell God, why he did this to us. This wasn't the expected answer I asked from him. I asked him of other things. I just can't understand why he gave us this. I was so uncomposed, so sad and disturbed.

When I got home, he wasn't at home yet. The sadness, emptiness and loneliness struck me. I missed him so much. When he got home, he was crying and then both of us were.

We recalled the first moment we saw each other. The things we've been through. The fights we had and how we solved it. We recalled our vacations, our monthsaries, the appliances we bought for the house, how we made the house look the way it is right now. We remembered each story that was created from every corner and thing in the house. We viewed the video he created for me for our anniversary and we scanned though the slumbook i gave him for his bday. He promised that when he leaves he will give me his pendant, the very pendant his mom gave him, a pendat that is so close to him. He will keep his chain, teh chain i gave him for his bday. Through this I'll have a part of him and He'll have a part of me. We promsied that every time we meet, we are gonna reunite this pieces together. It was painful to recall those moments but it made us realized that indeed we were so much in love with each other. We spent the night crying, giving promises.

It is during these trying times when we value every bit of memory and importance a person has to us.


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January 4, 2007 - Thursday
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Since he was leaving for Ilocos this weekend, I decided if at least he would see his friends to say goodbye. So i texted Vans and asked her if we could drop by. Thursday night before going to Van's place, we passed by Sto. Domingo church. He showed me a video he created for me, a video containing our pictures and some romantic messages for me. While watching the video, I cried, he cried, we both cried. After the video was shown, he held my hand and asked me if I will marry him. I laughed. He said that in this very symbolic place, he promised to love me and asked me to marry him, he may not have a ring but he said his intentions were true. I asked him how is it possible. He said it doesnt matter if its impossible now, what is improtant is that I love him ,he loves me, we love each other and that someday, when everythings ok we will go out of the country and marry. Definitely, I said yes hahahah....

While at Van's place, the idea of going to Ilocos popped out. That made me happy. Thinking that I could be with him for our anniv. This lightened the heavy load in my heart.

It was so painful to help him pack his clothes. The room started to look empty. Seeing our cabinet with only my clothes on was so depressing. We can't help it.


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January 5, 2007 - Friday
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After getting up, I really wanted to be absent at work, i wanted to spend the day with him. Knowing that he will be leaving tomorrow, I wanted to break the rules for the person I love. Before leaving the house for work, he called his manager and asked if he could get an extension for he has to finish some documents for turn over. Gladly, his manager agreed. haaay.....BTW, Cecille is comign with us for Laoag

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January 6, 2007 - Saturday
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Since J--- is going to Bulacan for his family reunion, I went to work for OT. There I discovered that Cebu Pacific is having a 99 pesos sale for all domestic destinations from February 1 - March 31. Hehehehe matutuloy na nga ung anniv namin dun.

sad new year

ill talk about our recent cebu xmas trip after all the pictures have been collated. for now, ladies and gentlemen, im very sad to announce that my new year isn't that good.

last wednesday, the day that we both fear came.

his boss called him and announced that he'll be assigned in laoag city, ilocos norte! FUCK! para akong tinapunan ng comet ni goddess Venus!

what a great way to start the year ... will update you soon regarding the recent happenings sa disastrous moment sa amo life. haaay LORD.. WHY GOD WHY

On My Own

Move over Go The Distance and When You Believe. I officially declare this as my official inspirational song. Thanks to the first Philippine idol.

I'm wiser now
I'm not the foolish girl you used to know
So long ago
I'm stronger now
I've learned from my mistakes which way to go
And I should know
I put myself aside to do it your way
But now I need to do it all alone

And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'll keep it real you know
Time for me to do it on my own
Yeah yeah, mmm, yeah yeah

It's over now
I can't go back to living through your eyes
Too many lines
And if you don't know by now
I can't go back to being someone else
Not anymore
I never had a chance to do things my way
So now it's time for me to take control

And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'm gonna keep it real you know
Time for me to do it

Oh I start again go back to one
I'm running things in my way
Can't stop me now, I've just begun
Don't even think about it
There ain't no way about it
I'm taking names, the ones of mine
Yes I'm gonna take my turn
It's time for me to finally stand alone, stand alone

I am not afraid to try it on my own
And I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'm gonna keep it real you know
It's time for me to do it
See I'm not afraid

"You And Me"

I first heard this song while watching Smallville, accidentally it was its American premier. Two nights ago while watching the season finale of 4400, this song was again played. The last time i heard of this song was last year, just right before I resigned. I so lvoe this song that everytime I hear it, I always feel so in love and so loved.

"You And Me"

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Can't Sleep .. Insomnia?

I have been deprived of getting a straight 8 hours sleep lately. I dont know what this is..insomnia perhaps? Or a sleeping pattern disorder? whatever! Why cant I sleep before 3am? Why is it that I only get sleepy when the clock ticks 3am? Do i have a disease? Or am i developing this so called of an evolution into something? What am I? A 4400? a mutant? Will I be developing an ability?(Oh my God, effect na siguro to ng kakanood ko ng Lost, Desperate Housewives, Supernatural and 4400). Why is it that sometimes I tend to act OC?(Bree?). Gusto kong magkaroon ng powers! Parang Pyro or some precognitive o telekinetic or life-absorbing ability perhaps? Ano ba? My post is not making any sense.....