Were going four months tomorrow. As a person filled with fears, I was again surprised by a question. "Would it be okay if i go out alone with my friends?"
I was stuck in silence, i didnt know what to answer. As a person who wants to please everybody, I said yes, if it makes you happy, why not?(bitter mode). Then he said, "honestly, admit it, were more happy when other people joins us when we go out." Again, i said yes. Its true. After four months of being together, everyday, things have become a routine. Siguro, wala na masyado surprises. Things no longer excite us that much. I told him, it's okay to go out with friends as long as I know who these friends are and where you are going. He told me he wouldnt do it for now and he answered he is not bored with me, its just that we needed to see new faces get to reconnect with what was lost when we got together.
Taking a lesson learned from a friend, the more you control somebody, the more he wanst his freedom. As long as you trust him and you are assured of his loyalty, no matter what happens, no matter what other people says about you, you will still be together as long as you hold on to your love.
Seloso kasi ako, siguro after all that i have been through takot na akong mawalan ng kasama. I told him, I will never allow you to go to Malate or Governent without me. Its not a matter of me not trusting you, it's about the quality of people hanging out there that I'm afraid of. I hope he understands my point. Its not that im making him sakal. Im just protecting what is rightfully mine. And I will never allow any creature to touch it.
I believe that I have to soften my stand and start accepting the fact that I have to allow ourselves to go out with friends. Tan awa si Ken, mas ganahan mugawas sa tangkal ang iro if imo pugngan ug pag gawas. Mas magwild. I don't want that to happen. As a newbie in a relationship that is serious, I always am considering every bit of every situation as a learning experience.
This is a new stage that we are passing right now. I hope we could get it through with finesse. I don't want to wake up in the morning, hearing that my partner is bored with me. Neither do I want to wake up realizing that I am bored with my partner. As most of my friends say, you have to constantly reinvent yourself. Think of new things to do. Think of new things to look forward to. Siguro, I failed in that aspect. If I consider my self a creative genious sa school and company activities Im afraid to accept that im a creative dumb in relationships. That is something I want to change and improve on.
Monday, June 26, 2006
Malate White Party

Last Saturday was the first gay pride event that i attended. Me, josh, xela and wilbert attended the event. It was fun, lots of things to see. Imagine, most probably half of Manila's gay population was there! Sobrang daming bading kakaumay! May discreet, faghug, transvestites, etc. Halo-halo lahat masaya. Well ako nakuyawan kay we never know what will happen. Pero daghan kau ko mga exs nakit-an didto and i was happy proud showing off my partner to them.
I dont know whats with Malate na i ended up feeling bad. Seloso siguro ko. Daghan man gud mga pasaway didto, di morespeto ug uyab. Knowing my partner as a frequent Malate goer and a certified Manileno, meanign daghan siya friends, Its hard to decipher who is a friend and who is not.
Well, everytime we go to Malate, I always consider it as a test of loyalty and trust. Things will never go wrong if you have those. In a way, I can feel na J--- is proud of me too. He hodls my hand in public, eh cuddles me, he shows his affection in public, minsan hinuhubaran niya ako to show off my abs. hehehe..
Wheels
It was one not so busy Thursday afternoon when J--- texted me that he'd fetch me along San Miguel Avenue. It was a very weird idea cause most of the time its him who goes to my office to fetch me up. I waited for him at One San Miguel Avenue. I was in total shock that he was driving his new car. Finally after months of waiting , his company finally gave him his car.
It was a very awkward scene to be in. It felt different. It was the first time I was him drive. It was the first time he had driven a car with a non driver in it. It was scary, really very scary, so Ive got to fasten my seatbelt to make sure thigns will be at least fine when things go wrong.
First scary stop was EDSA hehehe shet ako balhibo natagaktak sa kahadlok hehehe, the cars wheels bumped on one of EDSA's center islands.
Second scary stop, his side mirror hit a girl. Shet nakaligis mi, less than 1 hour pa siya nagdrive..It was fine though, thank God may gani buhi ang girl unya murag sprain ra. Natagaktak ang 1000 namo, haay may gani buhi ang girl nya buotan.
Third scary stop, nabangga mi sa gas station, narattle si j--- sa pagpark tong nagpagas mi.
Haay, naa pa fourth scary stop, nacorner mi sa inclined intersection, imagine pasaka mi sa pasaka na corner, gisugat mi ug truck, gi taparan ug suv nya naa pay lain nisugat na car. Unsa di ka mahadlok, dili pa nahuman, panaug amo car and di nya mastart.Shet di lng balhibo sa panit ang tagaktak sa kahadlok, pati balhimo na di ninyo makit-an paet!
But things are ok now, his driving skills have improved. I know feel safe with him when he is driving. from a grade of 4/10 that i gave him he now gets an 8/10 from me as of Sunday.
Im really happy right now, things are getting better for us. From an almost really broke moments that we had, slowly, things, good things are coming in. I hope it'll continue to come in.
Less than two days from now, 4 months na kami. Well, I hope and pray that God will continue to strengthen our relationship.
It was a very awkward scene to be in. It felt different. It was the first time I was him drive. It was the first time he had driven a car with a non driver in it. It was scary, really very scary, so Ive got to fasten my seatbelt to make sure thigns will be at least fine when things go wrong.
First scary stop was EDSA hehehe shet ako balhibo natagaktak sa kahadlok hehehe, the cars wheels bumped on one of EDSA's center islands.
Second scary stop, his side mirror hit a girl. Shet nakaligis mi, less than 1 hour pa siya nagdrive..It was fine though, thank God may gani buhi ang girl unya murag sprain ra. Natagaktak ang 1000 namo, haay may gani buhi ang girl nya buotan.
Third scary stop, nabangga mi sa gas station, narattle si j--- sa pagpark tong nagpagas mi.
Haay, naa pa fourth scary stop, nacorner mi sa inclined intersection, imagine pasaka mi sa pasaka na corner, gisugat mi ug truck, gi taparan ug suv nya naa pay lain nisugat na car. Unsa di ka mahadlok, dili pa nahuman, panaug amo car and di nya mastart.Shet di lng balhibo sa panit ang tagaktak sa kahadlok, pati balhimo na di ninyo makit-an paet!
But things are ok now, his driving skills have improved. I know feel safe with him when he is driving. from a grade of 4/10 that i gave him he now gets an 8/10 from me as of Sunday.
Im really happy right now, things are getting better for us. From an almost really broke moments that we had, slowly, things, good things are coming in. I hope it'll continue to come in.
Less than two days from now, 4 months na kami. Well, I hope and pray that God will continue to strengthen our relationship.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Friendster Makeover









Getting so many friendster requests and messages and seeing that there are at least 12 people hitting your profile everyday is for me one of my greatest achievements at friendster. Thanks to my photos. Hehehe .. Narcistic as it may sound, a picture really is every persons selling tool. If youve got bad pictures, dont expect to get invitations. Honestly, my best selling point here are my sexy pictures. I admit, it gets everyones attention(hehehe). Really, it does! It also is the reason why some people dont take me seriously.
But I am no longer getting that amount of hits right now. Why so? Ang ang wholesome naman ako primary picture!!! .. J--- decided to slowly remove my sexy pictures and in turn added new wholesome pics. After all, what are those sexy pics for?
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Do i make you proud?


I never liked Taylor Hicks! He was never my favorite to win. He was never my bet. When i first heard of his final song, it made me realize he is not a bad choice at all. He may not look physically appealing, but his voice and spirit as a competitor made him become the fifth american idol.
Do i make you proud
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I've never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
and now that's who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall
My heart is full
of endless gratitude
You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I can see
And I believe
It's only just beginning
This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Christmas Happy!
Pasensya na, wala lang ko lingaw ...hehehe
Season 1 Synopsis:
(January - February) After the very sad breakup with Kim last January, the story started with me listing possible prospects. From 15 probables, it was trimmed to only 1, and since im not happy with the last remaining candidate, i eventually eliminated him and the show continued with the wild cards.
(February 24) Reopened my connexion account because I saw J--- at Fitness First
(February 25) My pictures where finally uploaded, and from there new probables were introduced
(February 27) Had an official meet up with J---
(February 28) The elimination process fast tracked and ended, the winner was declared(hehehe pokpok!!!!) The winner also resigned from his current job.
(March 6) Something happened sa house in QC
(March 18) Moved to new house
(March 28) First monthsary
(April 12-16) Vacation in Bolinao
(April 28) Second Monthsary
(May 18) Its official, manila na siya ..hehehe end of season
There are so many things to look forward this new season:
- J---' new career(his new XDA, car, challenges)
- My NTP project officially ended, looking forward to a new assignment(baka HP daw ko OMG)
- our nth monthsaries, his birthday, new struggles, new conflicts, new characters
Haay i cant believe these all happened in 4 months, i am so excited to see and experience how my life will change soon ...
Christmas Happy
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I was the one who first mentioned this term when J--- asked me how I am feeling when we became us, i told Im so Christmas happy... Since then, we used that term to describe how happy we are. This term was again mentioned yesterday, when he asked me how i felt when he announce that he will be assigned here and not in Cebu, i told him Im so Christmas happy!!!
I am so thankful to God for hearing our prayers, to allfriends who also said prayers for us. Im am sooo Christmas happy right now!!!
Season 1 Synopsis:
(January - February) After the very sad breakup with Kim last January, the story started with me listing possible prospects. From 15 probables, it was trimmed to only 1, and since im not happy with the last remaining candidate, i eventually eliminated him and the show continued with the wild cards.
(February 24) Reopened my connexion account because I saw J--- at Fitness First
(February 25) My pictures where finally uploaded, and from there new probables were introduced
(February 27) Had an official meet up with J---
(February 28) The elimination process fast tracked and ended, the winner was declared(hehehe pokpok!!!!) The winner also resigned from his current job.
(March 6) Something happened sa house in QC
(March 18) Moved to new house
(March 28) First monthsary
(April 12-16) Vacation in Bolinao
(April 28) Second Monthsary
(May 18) Its official, manila na siya ..hehehe end of season
There are so many things to look forward this new season:
- J---' new career(his new XDA, car, challenges)
- My NTP project officially ended, looking forward to a new assignment(baka HP daw ko OMG)
- our nth monthsaries, his birthday, new struggles, new conflicts, new characters
Haay i cant believe these all happened in 4 months, i am so excited to see and experience how my life will change soon ...
Christmas Happy
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I was the one who first mentioned this term when J--- asked me how I am feeling when we became us, i told Im so Christmas happy... Since then, we used that term to describe how happy we are. This term was again mentioned yesterday, when he asked me how i felt when he announce that he will be assigned here and not in Cebu, i told him Im so Christmas happy!!!
I am so thankful to God for hearing our prayers, to allfriends who also said prayers for us. Im am sooo Christmas happy right now!!!
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Why God Why?
After almost two months of waiting, within this week or probably today, we would know where J--- will be assigned. Just 20 minutes ago, he texted me that he may probably be assigned in Cebu(napayosi ko ug 2 ka marlboro na red). From the very start, i already knew the fact that he may leave for an assignmnt in the province. I never thought it is difficult. He hasn't left yet but the very fact that he may be leaving already hurts. It hurts a lot. I can't describe what I am feeling right now. I feel like my world has just stopped and waiting for some good news to come. I have asked God to set our direction because I know I dot have a right, the very right to question his plans for us. I can't question Him why? Maybe its the best for us. I'll just just cross my fingers.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Nearing climax
J---' training has finally ended and he finished it with flying colors.
Right now, im filled with mixed emotions.
Im happy that finally he is over with it. I saw how he strived to pass it.
It wasnt an easy stage for him to pass.
Im sad because he texted me that he might be assigned in my most beloved home town, CEBU.
Cebu is a great place. I am very excited to go home and see how it has developed from the very moment i left it.
I just cant afford to see my mornings waking up without him beside me(char!). He has been a significant part of my daily activities, he has been a part of my life. Things will be different if he will be assigned there, I know it will be.
I may sound selfish but I wish he will just be assigned here.
Right now, im filled with mixed emotions.
Im happy that finally he is over with it. I saw how he strived to pass it.
It wasnt an easy stage for him to pass.
Im sad because he texted me that he might be assigned in my most beloved home town, CEBU.
Cebu is a great place. I am very excited to go home and see how it has developed from the very moment i left it.
I just cant afford to see my mornings waking up without him beside me(char!). He has been a significant part of my daily activities, he has been a part of my life. Things will be different if he will be assigned there, I know it will be.
I may sound selfish but I wish he will just be assigned here.
Monday, April 17, 2006
Angels Brought Me Here

J--- never told me his favorite song, he made it a point that i discover it myself in whatever way i could. But one day while we were at Bolinao, this song just popped out my mouth and he told me thats his favorite song..well after all it too is onn of my favorite songs but not quite a favorite hehehhe ...
[Verse 1]
It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, and walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...
[Bridge]
My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle...
[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
[Verse 2]
Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...
[Bridge 2]
My dreams came true, right here in front of you
My miracle...
[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
[Bridge 3]
Brought me here to be with you,
I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...
[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
Yes they brought me here...
If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
Bolinao na dili isda!



It took me a week to prepare for this trip, may gani nadayon jud mi kay gisugtan ko sa ako mgr na magleave. Haay! thank you Lord. First we planned to go to Galera pero LORD! malain ka sa kamahal, nagsiga ako ilong ug nagdugu dugo sa kamahal sa abang sa balay nya kami ra duha ni J---, Malain akong bat-ang ug huna huna sa 5000 na rent per night. Nitxt sa ako si Van na if mukuyog daw mi, sige amo to giconsider ni J--- pero wa mi kaexpect na nakasakay na mi sa bus going to Bolinao, Pangasinan.
Naabot mi sa Bolinao 10 pm. as in sobra ka ngitngit, feel nako naa ko sa probinsya diri sa cebu. as in ang saba kay mga trike ra. well since dayo mi didto kinahanglan magbinuotan. We rented a trike for 150 going to Bings resort in Patar.Bolinao. Hello!!! naabot ug 300 amo plete sa kalayo take note! 12 kms away diay siya from the town proper, ug ako nawng puno sa abug! it took us an hour to finally get a place, kay ngano? super puno siya and super super mahal..nalain ko kay kami ra duha
it was almost 11 when we finally got a place, it was a small hut called a cabana. We rented it for 1000(kay naay cut ang amo contact). We stayed in the place for 3 days. We just paid 500 for our lunch and dinner for 3 days plus merienda nana! o diba super cheap....
First day ---
We went swimming sa beach just in front sa amo cabaa. The sand was great with very few people kaso sobra ka batuon ang dagat. If naanad ka sa Malapascua, Moalboal, San Remigio, Bantayan, dili siya kacompara, mas nindot jud and Cebu! Well naa naman mi didto so go lng ng go!
After lunch we rested for an hour and rented another trike going to the 2nd tallest lighthouse in the country. It was so beautiful, kita nako tibuok Pilipinas(hehehe joke!) as in it was really tall, nafight jud nako ako fear of heights pero unexpectedly, J--- still had that fear..kataw-anan kau siya gipaningut sa kahadlok hahahaha!!!
After the lighthouse we went to white beach. SHYET! nindot kau. Its a public beach ala moalboal ang feeling. We had a quick dip and it was great. First time ko nagpapicture in trunks and i loved it big time!!! hehehe
We went back sa amo cottage almost 5pm and had a breathtaking view of the sunset(South China Sea version).
We spent the night staring at a very cloudy sky hoping that a star would fall! heheh pero wala so natulog nalang mi.
It was Good Friday when we went to this very secluded public beach. Its sand was white but not very fine, May caves and fishes hehehe.. Lingaw kau mi, sa kainit nag enjoy mi ug sunbathing mao na perteng ituma na nako!
When we went back to our cottage nagsunset watching kami while walking along the white sand shore. And finally nagvideo video mi.hhhee lingaw!
On our last night, J--- woke me up for another round of star gazing. And finally while finishing up our butong pakwan, raisins and boy bawang may star na nagfall. As in direcho we both wished na mayta magdugay mi. Bahala nakornihan mo pero i found it so sweet. It has always been my dream to be on the beach with someone special and true it happened na with J--- hehehe leche! korny!!!!!
Saturday morning we took our last dip sa dagat and said goodbye to a wonderful place, where we spent so many great moments together.... hehehe
We went home via an Alaminos-Cubao bus trip. But before going home, we visited Bolinao's centuries old church.
Need help!
two weeks from now 2nd month na mi, last month he surprised me with a bouquet of flowers i think this is my time to surprise him. we might not be seeing each other for a long time if he be assigned to another province(i hope not in vis-min, LORD!) once he gets regualarized kaya i better do something to make him long for me more once he leaves manila hehehe...
kaya friends tabang!!!! unsa ako buhaton..any suggestions....
kaya friends tabang!!!! unsa ako buhaton..any suggestions....
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Asa ko karon holy week
Dapat unta sa cebu ko, uli ko sa ako pamilya og mga amigo na ako gibiyaan, kaso, gidimalas ko diri, wala ko choice but to back out ..ngano?
1--> balhin ko balay, wa nako wawarts
2--> busy kau sa work, gicancel sa ako manager ang ako leave(paet!)
3--> dili kakuyog ako asawa muna, di na pud kau ko inspired
So unsa naman ako options?
1--> Puerto Galera, cheaper alternative sa Bora!, hala maka dugo ug ilong ang renta sa cottages, 1 airconditioned room costs 5000php!!!..ayaw nalang amo nalang na ipalit ug appliances sa balay, di pud ganahan kau si J--- kay basin daw mag away ra mi, ang mga bayot sa Malate ug club gov, mura rag gibalhin didto...nagbaha sa bayot, hadlok siya kay daghan daw kau temptations
2--> Bolinao, Pangasinan, mas dako chances na diri mi, mas barato daw, white sand, dili daghan tawo, naay underground caves ug other sites, excited ko never been to any place north of Manila pa
3--> mag mika sa balay ..hala paet!
1--> balhin ko balay, wa nako wawarts
2--> busy kau sa work, gicancel sa ako manager ang ako leave(paet!)
3--> dili kakuyog ako asawa muna, di na pud kau ko inspired
So unsa naman ako options?
1--> Puerto Galera, cheaper alternative sa Bora!, hala maka dugo ug ilong ang renta sa cottages, 1 airconditioned room costs 5000php!!!..ayaw nalang amo nalang na ipalit ug appliances sa balay, di pud ganahan kau si J--- kay basin daw mag away ra mi, ang mga bayot sa Malate ug club gov, mura rag gibalhin didto...nagbaha sa bayot, hadlok siya kay daghan daw kau temptations
2--> Bolinao, Pangasinan, mas dako chances na diri mi, mas barato daw, white sand, dili daghan tawo, naay underground caves ug other sites, excited ko never been to any place north of Manila pa
3--> mag mika sa balay ..hala paet!
Monday, April 03, 2006
Another surprise but with a sad twist
Last night, J--- called up and excitedly pforced me to go home early because he is hungry na daw and that he wanted to sleep early(last night 3 hours lang sleep niya because of the house warming).
As requested by him, i brought home a can of condensed milk and a pack of ice worth 3 pesos for our melon. When i arrived home, it was dark and silent. I gently opened the door, because i expected him na tulog na(kasi nagtxt siya na matutulog na siya, parang galit kasi 8 na ako umuwi). He was not on our bed, the house was so clean and the candles were lit. On our mini zen, the fountain was flowing and the food was served ready to be eaten. At the back of the door, there I saw my husband hiding, with a smile, eager to see me.
It was a surprise, I couldnt believe he would do it for me. Cleaning the house wasnt his forte. But I was so amazed to see it, cleaner that what I could achieve. He never fails to surprise me. And again, happy napud ko sobra!
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After the dinner, my happines turned into sadness... He asked me what I would do if ever, he moight be assigned in the province. I couldnt answer his question. I couldn't imagine myself going home, staying alone, without him beside me when I sleep, without noone to see when I wake up....
We should make use of all the time left we have right now. I am selfish. I wish that he be assigned in Manila. Worst-case, he would go back to his old job, in the call center(h is a very brilliant agent)just to stay.
Kalagot, kung kelan ka super happy, diha pud ka itest...
As requested by him, i brought home a can of condensed milk and a pack of ice worth 3 pesos for our melon. When i arrived home, it was dark and silent. I gently opened the door, because i expected him na tulog na(kasi nagtxt siya na matutulog na siya, parang galit kasi 8 na ako umuwi). He was not on our bed, the house was so clean and the candles were lit. On our mini zen, the fountain was flowing and the food was served ready to be eaten. At the back of the door, there I saw my husband hiding, with a smile, eager to see me.
It was a surprise, I couldnt believe he would do it for me. Cleaning the house wasnt his forte. But I was so amazed to see it, cleaner that what I could achieve. He never fails to surprise me. And again, happy napud ko sobra!
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After the dinner, my happines turned into sadness... He asked me what I would do if ever, he moight be assigned in the province. I couldnt answer his question. I couldn't imagine myself going home, staying alone, without him beside me when I sleep, without noone to see when I wake up....
We should make use of all the time left we have right now. I am selfish. I wish that he be assigned in Manila. Worst-case, he would go back to his old job, in the call center(h is a very brilliant agent)just to stay.
Kalagot, kung kelan ka super happy, diha pud ka itest...
Thank you
Last Sunday, we celebrated our first soft house warming(naa pay lain). Since we were not allowed to have more than 5 people in the unit, we decided to have many house warmings for our friends. For the first edition, we had Cecille, Yammy and Alex. J---, served our guest with his own version of Shabu-shabu using Claire's rice cooker. I bought a roasted chicken. Alex brought a rolled cake and we complimented it with hot tea.
And since, our loan was released last Friday, it gave us an oppurtunity to buy new things for our house. In a way, it now looks like a house...hehehe... but it still lacks some necessary things..but we know it could wait. (Hello friends, japanese-zen amo proposed theme sa house(with red, blue and black colors), if you decide to give us something lang hehehe)
We cannot, in any way, have this unit without the help of so many friends. To Claire, Georgia, Monette and Cecille for the monetary help(a special thank you goes to the Chinatrust manager to kicked every employees ass just to have our loan approved and released). To Claire for her rice cooker. To Vans and Kima for letting me stay at their place when I was homeless and had no place to stay for two weeks. To everybody, who offered help in their most noble and thoughtful way (Ria, Eugene, Marcy, Pipo and Julius). A very very special thank you to God, for being so good! Thank You!
And since, our loan was released last Friday, it gave us an oppurtunity to buy new things for our house. In a way, it now looks like a house...hehehe... but it still lacks some necessary things..but we know it could wait. (Hello friends, japanese-zen amo proposed theme sa house(with red, blue and black colors), if you decide to give us something lang hehehe)
We cannot, in any way, have this unit without the help of so many friends. To Claire, Georgia, Monette and Cecille for the monetary help(a special thank you goes to the Chinatrust manager to kicked every employees ass just to have our loan approved and released). To Claire for her rice cooker. To Vans and Kima for letting me stay at their place when I was homeless and had no place to stay for two weeks. To everybody, who offered help in their most noble and thoughtful way (Ria, Eugene, Marcy, Pipo and Julius). A very very special thank you to God, for being so good! Thank You!
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
1 month and counting
Time flies too fast, i never realized, 1 month na kami.
Yesterday, i went to the office early because I know, we will be doing something after work. So sabay na kami sa office. After work, I immediately went straight to Greenhills to meet him. Kaso, he called up and asked where I was, I told him, Im on my way to Greenhills. He told me he is at CyberJ. It was a complete shock. I was surprised. Di ko alam bakit nasa CyberJ siya. I waited for him at the elevator lobby. To my complete surprise, he gave me a bouquet of flowers. I couldnt measure how happy I was that time. I felt so loved. I felt so special. He made me feel very happy. The bouquet has a single red rose and around it were white malaysian mums. He told me the white malaysian mums meant that his intentions are pure and the red rose signified our 1 month together.The red rose around the malaysian mums meant that he chose me among the many guys and that I stood out among them. I gave him a card, containing a special message and there I declared offically that im John Gonzales and I also gave him a necklace..hehehehe
Yesterday was the one of the best moments of my life ...
Yesterday, i went to the office early because I know, we will be doing something after work. So sabay na kami sa office. After work, I immediately went straight to Greenhills to meet him. Kaso, he called up and asked where I was, I told him, Im on my way to Greenhills. He told me he is at CyberJ. It was a complete shock. I was surprised. Di ko alam bakit nasa CyberJ siya. I waited for him at the elevator lobby. To my complete surprise, he gave me a bouquet of flowers. I couldnt measure how happy I was that time. I felt so loved. I felt so special. He made me feel very happy. The bouquet has a single red rose and around it were white malaysian mums. He told me the white malaysian mums meant that his intentions are pure and the red rose signified our 1 month together.The red rose around the malaysian mums meant that he chose me among the many guys and that I stood out among them. I gave him a card, containing a special message and there I declared offically that im John Gonzales and I also gave him a necklace..hehehehe
Yesterday was the one of the best moments of my life ...
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Crossing my fingers
I never expected that things will run this fast. Yesterday, it took me and J--- 4 hours to iron out plans for our new place(mayta madayon mi). Im excited and hoping that things will work out well for us. Crossing my fingers on that.
No Permanent Address
After the disastrous event that took place at my old place, i decided to finally leave it. I can't bear thinking every night before i sleep that my life may be in danger or speding the day alone trying to check if all doors are locked or hearing the phone imagining that the freaky caller might say something that may cause fear.
Right after the incident, J---' friend Vans offered her place. For threee nights i stayed in her place at Robinson's Circle, Valle Verde. This place is so near ULTRA where teh stampede took place.
Last Thursday, my manager offered her place at Wack Wack Twin Tower B. This palce is much nearer our office so i decided to take her offer. Naa nako kauban pauli, ka share sa taxi, kaso my manager is so workaholic ma forced pud kog stay sa office until 2 am. Pero Ok ra. It so nice to have at least a week a nakastay ko ug usa ka prime condominium.
Last Monday, Ria emailed me and said that i could stay at their unit at Asian Mansion 1. Ok ra pud, coz, feel nako i am more happy staying with close friends. Feel nako guarded and counted kau ako actions sa ako current place, knowing na di kau mi clsoe sa ako manager.
Right now, im still waiting for the land lord to officially say na we could stay na at the unit. This unit is near Greenhills, its nice, as in brand new siya na studio apartment. Im so excited to transfer na hopefull this weekend.
Right after the incident, J---' friend Vans offered her place. For threee nights i stayed in her place at Robinson's Circle, Valle Verde. This place is so near ULTRA where teh stampede took place.
Last Thursday, my manager offered her place at Wack Wack Twin Tower B. This palce is much nearer our office so i decided to take her offer. Naa nako kauban pauli, ka share sa taxi, kaso my manager is so workaholic ma forced pud kog stay sa office until 2 am. Pero Ok ra. It so nice to have at least a week a nakastay ko ug usa ka prime condominium.
Last Monday, Ria emailed me and said that i could stay at their unit at Asian Mansion 1. Ok ra pud, coz, feel nako i am more happy staying with close friends. Feel nako guarded and counted kau ako actions sa ako current place, knowing na di kau mi clsoe sa ako manager.
Right now, im still waiting for the land lord to officially say na we could stay na at the unit. This unit is near Greenhills, its nice, as in brand new siya na studio apartment. Im so excited to transfer na hopefull this weekend.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Serendipity

There is this guy that I was planning to have a date with(actually he was the one who invited me, kasi sabi ko, di ako nang iinvite)last november. It didnt push through cause i felt, he wasnt that interested and I had a partner na before we met.
Two weeks after I broke up with my partner, I went to Greenbelt with friends and there I met up with my long time friendster chatmate named Van. As I was on my way home, Van called up and invited me to go with him and his friends to Malate. So go lang ng go.
We spent almost two hours drinking at Sonata until we finally decided to eat somewhere. In that place, I saw this very familiar face, so mataray, I know he was looking at me and I was looking at him too. Si j--- pala yun.
He has been texting me since greenbelt pa that night cause he saw me na pala there and good thing he saw me again sa Malate. I wasnt that into him, he is Ok but not quite Ok. So di ko siya pinansin. He got pissed off, coz sige daw siya txt nako and he never saw me open my phone to check if I have a new message. SO what he did, he erased my number.
The reason why, i didnt reply because he was txting my old number. I didnt PUBLISH my sun number to connexion and downelink friends. That same night i eliminated him sa ako list of potentials. I realized di nako siya type. Wa nako tuyua na ako siya mameet, i felt i was meant to see him. He was on my list though.
Two weeks after that, Thursday February 24, 2006, nag gym ko sa Fitness, and then I saw a different J---, the gym J---, hahaha, nakarealize ko na a type d i nako siya. I cant stop staring at him, hoping that he would approach me. Pero wala. His friends knew that I was staring at him, even kato sa Malate pa.
So what I did, i rebuilt by connexion account and wa online for a day, waiting na he would see me.
Monday February 28, 2006, "ang haba ng buhok ko day", i agreed to meet up with 2 people on the same time and place o diba? kaya na nimo, pero ako sila injanon, usa ra ako imeet.
Almost noon na, when J--- chat window popped, shet..this is it....
This was our conversation ...
J---: Kaw ba ung nakita ko sa Malate and Gym last week?
me: yeah
J---: Palagi mo akong tinitignan diba?
me: huh? di kaya
J---: Pagsnabi kong may nakakita sayo, mga friends ko, may witnesses ako marami sa Malate at gym
me: huh? di ah
J---: Aminin mo na kasi
me: cge in a way
J---: walang in a way, yes or no lng gusto ko
me: yes
J---: last question ko na to
me: ano?
J---: Gusto mo ba ako?
me: huh? bilis mo naman
J---: di naman ibig sabihin non na magiging tayo na, liek what we planned before, date muna, ano gusto mo ba ako, kasi pag hindi, di na ako magpaparamdam sayo, yes or no lng
me: in a way
J---: kulet mo, yes or no lng gusto ko
me: yes
J---: cge gusto mo ba ako mameet mamaya, tulog lng ako
me: huh? bilis naman, may work ako
J---: after work, lapit lng naman haus natin diba? kahit coffee shop lng sa sm north, kahit don lng then uwi na
....
that was our conversation
so three na sila ako imeet, sa the garden, sa coffee shops didto, sa sm north edsa at 10pm, o diba? feeling gwapa kau ko..and on that same day i agreed to have a date with different people everyday until saturday that week. Naay artista, naay lawyer, naay UP masteral student, naay nursing student, naay tag iya ug condo ug car, etc
Then, nabusy ko ug kalit(kabantay mo ngano nagbisaya kog kalit hahaha), so i planned not to meet all of them. Then suddenly, J--- called up..hala ka diha! gipadali ko ug trabaho, gispaot siya nako kay magstart pa daw mi nya in ana na ang mahitabo, walay claro, he was scared na bati ug result..
ANg gwapa, nagdali dali pud ..then nagmeet na mi sa tomas morato sa baang coffee..
There, we just talked, smoked and eventually we become US.
Yeah, again and again, another whirl wind thing, i hope this is something different na. I can feel na he is serious, mafeel man na nimo sa iya friends, before we met, i admit, we admit na murag naglingaw2 ra mi, until we met each other ...
Grabe, todo intro ko sa iya friends, he is so sweet, dala food sa house, ivisit ko sa office, kuhaon ko sa balay, hatud ko sa house, and because of what happened sa house namo ni Ken, we decided to stay together. Sa night na gikawatan mi, I told him na im havin a hard time deciding where to stay because of Ken, coz he is my friend, then nalain siya bayot! kay ngano daw wa jud ko kamention sa iya name...Siya daw in everything that he does, im always part of his plans ..haaay ..
Pero im happy, definitely happy, though this time, ako ang under dog physically(face value) hahhaa, for me that doesnt matter, i know his past, whats important for me right now is us, what happening in the present, and hopefully, naay future
Unlikely
Peste, excited pa man ta ko muoli sa Cebu , pero it s very unlikely na makauli ko. Wlaa na koy kwarta kay mupayad pa ko advance sa balay and to think na wala pa koy gamit. LECHE! ako kwarta hurot ani ..ATAY ANI OI! wa ko gisapot ha!
Officially homeless
LAst Monday gikawatan amo balay, gidala sa kawatan ang TV ug component sauyab ni Kenneth. Gigubot nila pagmaayo amo mga gamit. Pila ka oras human sa panghitabo, naay nitawag nga murag nanghadlok. Advice sa mama ni Alfred na muvacate mi sa balay kay basin balikan mi. Muna karon kami ni Kenneth, Alfred ug ako officially HOMELESS.
Sila Kenneth naa kang Julius nipuyo ug ako kang Vans, closefriend ni Josh.
Haay kakapuy aning kinabuhia, makaluya, makalanag....
Kapoy pangita ug balay, wala pay kwarta..LECHE!
Sila Kenneth naa kang Julius nipuyo ug ako kang Vans, closefriend ni Josh.
Haay kakapuy aning kinabuhia, makaluya, makalanag....
Kapoy pangita ug balay, wala pay kwarta..LECHE!
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