I first heard this song while watching Smallville, accidentally it was its American premier. Two nights ago while watching the season finale of 4400, this song was again played. The last time i heard of this song was last year, just right before I resigned. I so lvoe this song that everytime I hear it, I always feel so in love and so loved.
"You And Me"
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
Monday, November 27, 2006
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Can't Sleep .. Insomnia?
I have been deprived of getting a straight 8 hours sleep lately. I dont know what this is..insomnia perhaps? Or a sleeping pattern disorder? whatever! Why cant I sleep before 3am? Why is it that I only get sleepy when the clock ticks 3am? Do i have a disease? Or am i developing this so called of an evolution into something? What am I? A 4400? a mutant? Will I be developing an ability?(Oh my God, effect na siguro to ng kakanood ko ng Lost, Desperate Housewives, Supernatural and 4400). Why is it that sometimes I tend to act OC?(Bree?). Gusto kong magkaroon ng powers! Parang Pyro or some precognitive o telekinetic or life-absorbing ability perhaps? Ano ba? My post is not making any sense.....
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Im coming home
As an additional gift for my birthday, aside from treating me for a very happy and memorable vacation down south of Manila, J--- bought me a round trip ticket to Cebu.
By December 20, I'll be home. I'm really excited about this. I have been wanting to see Cebu. I missed the people so much. I missed the food(barbecue, lechon, chicharon). I missed the places I used to hang out and visit. I missed my family and friends. He will also be pending Christmas with me in Cebu. So, that will be another great thing and something that I will be looking forward to next month. .... barely a month to go .....
By December 20, I'll be home. I'm really excited about this. I have been wanting to see Cebu. I missed the people so much. I missed the food(barbecue, lechon, chicharon). I missed the places I used to hang out and visit. I missed my family and friends. He will also be pending Christmas with me in Cebu. So, that will be another great thing and something that I will be looking forward to next month. .... barely a month to go .....
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
I'm Guilty
There are so many things bothering me lately. Things in the past that i did, they're haunting me.
I'm guilty for not respecting my father. I always thought that he was a big burden for my mother. I've always wanted to see him make the ends meet for my family. I hated him for I didn't grow up with luxuries in life that I often see in my classmates and cousins. I hated him for being so strict and too disciplinarian that everytime I hear his voice it seems to me that a lightning has just struck my ear. I hated him for not doing always the household chores when in fact he is always at home. Now I hated myself for hating him. He is a good father. All I saw in him was his negative side. I never realized not until I grew up that he did try his best to pelase us. He was an all around father. He knows how to cook. He wakes up very early every morning just to cook our food for breakfast and baon. He even bakes cakes and pastries for us. He knows how to sew. He fixes our worn clothes, he made a customized bag for us, he tailored our uniforms, he made bedsheets, seat covers and curtains for our house. He knows how to do carpentry and mechanical works. He repairs our house, made a cabinet for us and troubleshoots our broken appliances. He even made a vegetable garden so that we always have fresh vegetables for our meal. He protects us from burglars and from dangerous people. He did all he could just to pay for my graduation expenses when I was in high school and college. Just to have what we need, he even sacrificed his life for us by going abroad, suffered he terror of his Korean employer just to send us money. I am guilty because when I left for Manila, I forgot his birthday and greeted him 2 days after. He may not be the best financial provider for us but he did everything he could just to prove that he loves us. Wow! what a wonderful father my father is!
I am guilty for not loving my mother as much as she loved me. I know deep in my heart and in my mind that mama loves us so much. I am guilty and I am sad that I couldnt repay her. I hate myself for hurting her. I hate myself for not fulfilling my promise to her. I hate myself for hurting her. She was my inspiration when I was still studying. I promised her that once I get a job Ill give her the best life there is that I could. I am so sorry mama. I dont want to promise anything but as soon as things get normal. Things would be better for us.
I am guilty for competing with my siblings. We used to be a happy not until the moment I realized I was gay. I started to separate myself from my sister and brother because I was afraid that they might not respect me. I hated it when my brother borrows thigns from me. I used to shout at him for doing it. I hated helping them with their studies. I laugh at their mistakes, for me it was success. I was afraid that they might surpass my academic achievements for I knew that they're more mentally capable than I am, its just that I was the more diligent son. I thought that if they excel, nothing will be left of me. Theyre more talented and more physically gifted. I was the ugly son. The boring son. Now that we are older, things got better for them. If only I helped them before, they could have achieved more. I miss my siblings. If only I was a better brother.
I am guilty for not spending too much time with my grandmother. My grandmother made me a good person. Because of her, I excelled in school. She taught me everything to prepare me for grade school. She taught me good values. During her last years, I felt tired takign good care of her. Everytime she calls for my attention when she needed something or when she wants to spend time with me, I normally run just to avoid her. I hated myself for doing it. I miss lola so much. I love her so much. She doesnt deserve it.
I am guilty for not paying too much attention to my father's family because they are poor. I spent much of my growing years with my mothers family. I know all of them. Too bad I only know a handful of my father's family. I thought they were misguided. Maybe it was my father's fault for not letting us spend time with them. It could have made a difference. I always compare them with my cousins from my mother's side. I never realized that they are still part of the big family I am. I am who they are. We belong to the same family. I was blessed for being given a good childhood with good education and right upbringing. I could have shared to them the great things I had.
I am not a perfect person. I know I did things that I regret now. I know realizing my faults will make me a better person. I do hope I would be able to makeup the things I failed to do before. I am so sorry for hurting my family. I am sorry for not being the person you have always wanted me to become.
I'm guilty for not respecting my father. I always thought that he was a big burden for my mother. I've always wanted to see him make the ends meet for my family. I hated him for I didn't grow up with luxuries in life that I often see in my classmates and cousins. I hated him for being so strict and too disciplinarian that everytime I hear his voice it seems to me that a lightning has just struck my ear. I hated him for not doing always the household chores when in fact he is always at home. Now I hated myself for hating him. He is a good father. All I saw in him was his negative side. I never realized not until I grew up that he did try his best to pelase us. He was an all around father. He knows how to cook. He wakes up very early every morning just to cook our food for breakfast and baon. He even bakes cakes and pastries for us. He knows how to sew. He fixes our worn clothes, he made a customized bag for us, he tailored our uniforms, he made bedsheets, seat covers and curtains for our house. He knows how to do carpentry and mechanical works. He repairs our house, made a cabinet for us and troubleshoots our broken appliances. He even made a vegetable garden so that we always have fresh vegetables for our meal. He protects us from burglars and from dangerous people. He did all he could just to pay for my graduation expenses when I was in high school and college. Just to have what we need, he even sacrificed his life for us by going abroad, suffered he terror of his Korean employer just to send us money. I am guilty because when I left for Manila, I forgot his birthday and greeted him 2 days after. He may not be the best financial provider for us but he did everything he could just to prove that he loves us. Wow! what a wonderful father my father is!
I am guilty for not loving my mother as much as she loved me. I know deep in my heart and in my mind that mama loves us so much. I am guilty and I am sad that I couldnt repay her. I hate myself for hurting her. I hate myself for not fulfilling my promise to her. I hate myself for hurting her. She was my inspiration when I was still studying. I promised her that once I get a job Ill give her the best life there is that I could. I am so sorry mama. I dont want to promise anything but as soon as things get normal. Things would be better for us.
I am guilty for competing with my siblings. We used to be a happy not until the moment I realized I was gay. I started to separate myself from my sister and brother because I was afraid that they might not respect me. I hated it when my brother borrows thigns from me. I used to shout at him for doing it. I hated helping them with their studies. I laugh at their mistakes, for me it was success. I was afraid that they might surpass my academic achievements for I knew that they're more mentally capable than I am, its just that I was the more diligent son. I thought that if they excel, nothing will be left of me. Theyre more talented and more physically gifted. I was the ugly son. The boring son. Now that we are older, things got better for them. If only I helped them before, they could have achieved more. I miss my siblings. If only I was a better brother.
I am guilty for not spending too much time with my grandmother. My grandmother made me a good person. Because of her, I excelled in school. She taught me everything to prepare me for grade school. She taught me good values. During her last years, I felt tired takign good care of her. Everytime she calls for my attention when she needed something or when she wants to spend time with me, I normally run just to avoid her. I hated myself for doing it. I miss lola so much. I love her so much. She doesnt deserve it.
I am guilty for not paying too much attention to my father's family because they are poor. I spent much of my growing years with my mothers family. I know all of them. Too bad I only know a handful of my father's family. I thought they were misguided. Maybe it was my father's fault for not letting us spend time with them. It could have made a difference. I always compare them with my cousins from my mother's side. I never realized that they are still part of the big family I am. I am who they are. We belong to the same family. I was blessed for being given a good childhood with good education and right upbringing. I could have shared to them the great things I had.
I am not a perfect person. I know I did things that I regret now. I know realizing my faults will make me a better person. I do hope I would be able to makeup the things I failed to do before. I am so sorry for hurting my family. I am sorry for not being the person you have always wanted me to become.
Friday, October 27, 2006
Modelling na naman
I have always admitted that I am a feeling model. It has always been my dream since puberty to be a model. Muntik na ako maloko ni Rick Rendall na nabisto sa Imbestigador kasi nanloloko siya ng male model wannabe. Thanks to georgia and monette di ako nakasama, shet narape na sana ako ng matabang jokla na yun.
Putang inang friendster na yan, bakit ba yang agents na yan sa friendster lng ako nakikita, bakit di nila ako makita sa daan. Siguro di nga talaga ako pangmodel hanggang picture lng ako talaga kaya friendster lng sila. Shet, sayang ung Giordano na audition at ang Reco models na vtr(last week nagmsg sa akin sa friendster ung agent nila). Kakahiya, they might like me sa pics ko pero im definitely sure they wont like me when they see me in person. Shet talaga!
In the first place, why would an agent get models thru friendster? diba mali? Things arent just meant to be. Kaya wag pilitin.
=)
Putang inang friendster na yan, bakit ba yang agents na yan sa friendster lng ako nakikita, bakit di nila ako makita sa daan. Siguro di nga talaga ako pangmodel hanggang picture lng ako talaga kaya friendster lng sila. Shet, sayang ung Giordano na audition at ang Reco models na vtr(last week nagmsg sa akin sa friendster ung agent nila). Kakahiya, they might like me sa pics ko pero im definitely sure they wont like me when they see me in person. Shet talaga!
In the first place, why would an agent get models thru friendster? diba mali? Things arent just meant to be. Kaya wag pilitin.
=)
Blame hell
Last thursday i really felt so bad, because i felt that my team lead here in hp is blaming me for all my projects issues. It was one of the lowest points of my career as a software engineer. And one of the worst pre-birthday gifts i received. Last monday he gave the team chocolates and in a way he looks kinder. i know its not his fault, he is not really like that, maybe he just did it because of pressure from our client. Or maybe i was just overreacting. In a way, it also is an eye opener for me. I better check on what i have and what needs to be done.
I thought I could escape from this, coz akala ko till October nalang ako dito. Pero there might be changes, shet ..if ever Ill be using the whoeel month of November to redeem myself and prove them all wrong.
I thought I could escape from this, coz akala ko till October nalang ako dito. Pero there might be changes, shet ..if ever Ill be using the whoeel month of November to redeem myself and prove them all wrong.
Happy Birthday To Me
This is an overdue and delayed post, drafted liek a month ago. So i decided to just post it, I cant wait for the pics to be published dugay kau ko tagaan sa copy....
Since its Abby's birthday last October 24 and mine was last October 21, she and J--- decided to have it celebrated together at Tagaytay.
The whole weekend was so memorable and fun. It was my first tim to go to Tagaytay, the beach we stayed in Nasugbu was also ok and i love Caleruega.
This is one of the best birthdays I ever had, amidst all the things i have been thinking bout my life, its so good to see and feel that there is somebody who will do something really great for you to be happy. Thanks J---.
Since its Abby's birthday last October 24 and mine was last October 21, she and J--- decided to have it celebrated together at Tagaytay.
The whole weekend was so memorable and fun. It was my first tim to go to Tagaytay, the beach we stayed in Nasugbu was also ok and i love Caleruega.
This is one of the best birthdays I ever had, amidst all the things i have been thinking bout my life, its so good to see and feel that there is somebody who will do something really great for you to be happy. Thanks J---.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
New Friendster Pics
kung si ria naay inigat igat na pictures ako pud di palupig! Though i promised to post only decent pics at friendster, j-- cant help but take new pics of me na sexy. We just want to try if i still have the aura i used to have before at friendster.
My normal pics only gave me an average of 4.5 hits a day, nwo with these new pics shet i got 39 hits in only 3 days ..atay..mo matter d i na? well mao bya na ang purpose sa pic nako karon..well...
My normal pics only gave me an average of 4.5 hits a day, nwo with these new pics shet i got 39 hits in only 3 days ..atay..mo matter d i na? well mao bya na ang purpose sa pic nako karon..well...
Bored ko!
Bored ko! after weeks of having sleepless night ... given a week of working regulary..naanad ko na mumata ug ten hehehe late ko pirmi everyday ... shet deadline na d i nako sa Friday ...i missed this feeling na ur waiting for your off to come, pero narealize nako na kapoi d i siya nabore nako nahan ko daghan work ..paet
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Milenyo, production release and us
I woke up with very strong winds hitting our door and windows.
I woke up seeing rain water flow through our walls and into our floor.
I woke up with heavy winds.
I woke up seeign disaster.
This was what i saw yesterday.
It was typhoon Milenyo making its rage felt over metro manila.
A friend texted me that theres no work but if our project requires us to report in the office weve got no choice but to go to the office.
Shet, production release pa naman namin, may bug pa daw according to Tina.
Shet talaga! kusug kau ang ulan! Mas kusog pa ang hangin.
So unsay pasabot? makigkompetensya ko ni Milenya sa dalan?
Muiway sa mga sin ug mga dahon na naglupad lupad labi na sa baha ug sa mga billboards og kahoy nga nangatumba?
Walay kuryente, so pasabot dili kaluto!
Kay dili man kaluto , walay pagkaon..
Gigutom nako, wala ko mahimo, ang ang man ug mugawas ko
para mupalit ug pagkaon..nya muluto ko? asa nako iluto? asa kog init?
so unsay resulta? GUTOM!
Haay kalami sa among monthsary ni J---, naa mi sa balay, di kagawas, di kakaon...
Unsay among buhaton sa katugnaw sa panahon? sa kagutom? ug sa kamingaw sa panahon....
1) Manlimpyo sa tubig na nisulod sa balay
2) Matulog
3) Maghaircolor hehehehehe
Pero gutom na kaayo mi..di na nako maagwanta...
Pero unsaon man ni nako? What if mutawag si Juric or Tina na paadtuon ko sa office?
Pero buotan japon ang Ginoo! wala diay koy bug nya ugma na daw ang release ..
Haay nahuwasan ko geng!
So di na japon nako maagwanta akong kagutom..di makatabang and chocolates na gihatag ni Claire ug ang cereals and chocolates na amo gipaklit sa Subic..Dili makatanang ang tubig ug magic flakes nga akong gipalamanam ug peanut butter ni Claire ug mayonnaise..Di na ni mahimo kinahanglan na jud mi mugawas
May gani sa taknang alas kwatro, nihunong ang ulan ug hangin..
nagilis na mi kay mag gym mi....
As if abli pa ang gym..pero gutom na kau ko as in
so nanawag mig mgaamigo! paet walay signal
may gani naay globe og smart si j---
nanlakaw mi padung ila vans iya miga..
kataw ana kau ang auto niya kay punog dahun,
kahinumdom ko sa flaot sa Sinulog na puros ferns hahahah
Ni agi mig mall - sarado, ni agi mig jollibee og fastfood - sarado,
Ni agi mig gas station - sarado..
unsay naa? baha! billboards nga naguba! poste ug kahoy na natumba! tawo nag nastranded!
Paet paet paet! gutom na kaayo ko!
May gani naay pagkaon si Vans, ug didto nangaon mi...
Kabantay mo? bisdak kaayo ko ahahhah!!!!
haay English na pd..
And so vans asked us if we could accompany her to the airport to fetch her brother...
And so we went there with tara. It was like for of us going to NAIA.
HUWAAAT!!! On our way to NAIA there I saw the effect of Milenyo's wrath!
Manila was in total wreck!
Pero balik napud kog Tagalog..kapoi ininglis
Pero it was fine naman, when we got home, we had a sumptuous meal..as in seafoods.sarap kumain with sukang pinakurat as in makuratan ka sa kalami.
tapos nun, uminom kami, tinagay ko black label with sprite si j--- naman amarula
tapos kwentuhan kwentuhan about lovelife, then uwi na kasi work pa
haay that was how we spent our monthsary. it was fun, first tym we spent it together the whole day... after 7 months love n love ko pa rin siya as in! matamaan man ako ng kidlat pero totoo to!
I woke up seeing rain water flow through our walls and into our floor.
I woke up with heavy winds.
I woke up seeign disaster.
This was what i saw yesterday.
It was typhoon Milenyo making its rage felt over metro manila.
A friend texted me that theres no work but if our project requires us to report in the office weve got no choice but to go to the office.
Shet, production release pa naman namin, may bug pa daw according to Tina.
Shet talaga! kusug kau ang ulan! Mas kusog pa ang hangin.
So unsay pasabot? makigkompetensya ko ni Milenya sa dalan?
Muiway sa mga sin ug mga dahon na naglupad lupad labi na sa baha ug sa mga billboards og kahoy nga nangatumba?
Walay kuryente, so pasabot dili kaluto!
Kay dili man kaluto , walay pagkaon..
Gigutom nako, wala ko mahimo, ang ang man ug mugawas ko
para mupalit ug pagkaon..nya muluto ko? asa nako iluto? asa kog init?
so unsay resulta? GUTOM!
Haay kalami sa among monthsary ni J---, naa mi sa balay, di kagawas, di kakaon...
Unsay among buhaton sa katugnaw sa panahon? sa kagutom? ug sa kamingaw sa panahon....
1) Manlimpyo sa tubig na nisulod sa balay
2) Matulog
3) Maghaircolor hehehehehe
Pero gutom na kaayo mi..di na nako maagwanta...
Pero unsaon man ni nako? What if mutawag si Juric or Tina na paadtuon ko sa office?
Pero buotan japon ang Ginoo! wala diay koy bug nya ugma na daw ang release ..
Haay nahuwasan ko geng!
So di na japon nako maagwanta akong kagutom..di makatabang and chocolates na gihatag ni Claire ug ang cereals and chocolates na amo gipaklit sa Subic..Dili makatanang ang tubig ug magic flakes nga akong gipalamanam ug peanut butter ni Claire ug mayonnaise..Di na ni mahimo kinahanglan na jud mi mugawas
May gani sa taknang alas kwatro, nihunong ang ulan ug hangin..
nagilis na mi kay mag gym mi....
As if abli pa ang gym..pero gutom na kau ko as in
so nanawag mig mgaamigo! paet walay signal
may gani naay globe og smart si j---
nanlakaw mi padung ila vans iya miga..
kataw ana kau ang auto niya kay punog dahun,
kahinumdom ko sa flaot sa Sinulog na puros ferns hahahah
Ni agi mig mall - sarado, ni agi mig jollibee og fastfood - sarado,
Ni agi mig gas station - sarado..
unsay naa? baha! billboards nga naguba! poste ug kahoy na natumba! tawo nag nastranded!
Paet paet paet! gutom na kaayo ko!
May gani naay pagkaon si Vans, ug didto nangaon mi...
Kabantay mo? bisdak kaayo ko ahahhah!!!!
haay English na pd..
And so vans asked us if we could accompany her to the airport to fetch her brother...
And so we went there with tara. It was like for of us going to NAIA.
HUWAAAT!!! On our way to NAIA there I saw the effect of Milenyo's wrath!
Manila was in total wreck!
Pero balik napud kog Tagalog..kapoi ininglis
Pero it was fine naman, when we got home, we had a sumptuous meal..as in seafoods.sarap kumain with sukang pinakurat as in makuratan ka sa kalami.
tapos nun, uminom kami, tinagay ko black label with sprite si j--- naman amarula
tapos kwentuhan kwentuhan about lovelife, then uwi na kasi work pa
haay that was how we spent our monthsary. it was fun, first tym we spent it together the whole day... after 7 months love n love ko pa rin siya as in! matamaan man ako ng kidlat pero totoo to!
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
September 21, 2006
Its exactly a month before my birthday ..yeah yeah yeah ... well im not excited, my birthday has never been a big event for me, well at least it used to when i turned 1, but hey i couldnt even remember who my visitors were .. well thanks to the betamax that my mom kept in memory of that special day....well well i knew i had lots of guests that even our neighborhood favorite postman manoy tasyo was there and all those relatives and neighbors and my mom's officemates and charismatic mates(is this what we call them or better we call them brothers and sisters in Christ) all laughing everytime i walk(i used to walk like my father) .. hehehe..well thanks to rondinas(our family's former official videographer ..diba sosyal ko naa koy video coverage pag 1 year old nako hehehehe ...
now fastforward 23 years after ....
ill be turning 24(shit 24 ...), 1 year and 2 months in manila .... haaay ..
dami na nagyari sa buhay ko ..daghan na nahitabo sa ako kinabuhi ... a lot of things happened to me since i came here( karememebr ko ni fr bonaventure valles of the oasis of love in ana siya mag homily, trilingual iya iinterpret iya sentence in 3 languages)
well im so thankful kay Lord for everything and for being there for me everytime im in danger ( danger? ) whatever .. basta thank you Lord)
my last years birthday was great but it was still sad, i went to st francis church to hear mass pero naclosan ko ug simbahan, sa gawas sa church in its darkness i prayed and i cried. i felt so sad..that was the first time i celebrated it without my family. that was when i missed them so much..imagine hulaton pa nako sila maabot ako friends like for 2 hours kay 9 pa daw sila maabot ..haaay pero at least when they all came lingaw na ko ..they were all present ..
pero seeing the pics..shet nangahurot na d i mi .. most of them left na ( si ria, ken, julius, arlene and soon si claire) ..haaay
1 year and 2 months in manila
- 3 addresses ( sa condo ni georgia, sa house ni ken and now sa san juan , wala pa apil ang wack wack ug valle verde ,....hala isingit jud)
- 1 company ( 77 aka cyberj ) plus 1 subcompany (hp)
- places i visited ( galera, cavite, subic, pangasinan )
- people i met .. well sobra kadaghan hehehe
- people i loved .. well erase them all, isa lng ako gi love si j---
- people i hated .. hmmmmmm
- places i still want to visit ( tagaytay, batangas, clark, SAGADA, PAGUDPOD, CARAMOAN)
- things i want to have ... exactly wala i really don't care, not that materialistic (PAK!..PANG!... PANG!... PANG!)
- things i wanna let go off ... pimples..scars.. i just want to be stunning and sexy
- books ive read.. the zahir, 5 people you meet in heaven, 11 minutes, he is not that into you
haaaay ..kakapoi sa life pero indeed it is really exciting...1 lesson learned, you just cant get everything you want there are always ifs and buts
now fastforward 23 years after ....
ill be turning 24(shit 24 ...), 1 year and 2 months in manila .... haaay ..
dami na nagyari sa buhay ko ..daghan na nahitabo sa ako kinabuhi ... a lot of things happened to me since i came here( karememebr ko ni fr bonaventure valles of the oasis of love in ana siya mag homily, trilingual iya iinterpret iya sentence in 3 languages)
well im so thankful kay Lord for everything and for being there for me everytime im in danger ( danger? ) whatever .. basta thank you Lord)
my last years birthday was great but it was still sad, i went to st francis church to hear mass pero naclosan ko ug simbahan, sa gawas sa church in its darkness i prayed and i cried. i felt so sad..that was the first time i celebrated it without my family. that was when i missed them so much..imagine hulaton pa nako sila maabot ako friends like for 2 hours kay 9 pa daw sila maabot ..haaay pero at least when they all came lingaw na ko ..they were all present ..
pero seeing the pics..shet nangahurot na d i mi .. most of them left na ( si ria, ken, julius, arlene and soon si claire) ..haaay
1 year and 2 months in manila
- 3 addresses ( sa condo ni georgia, sa house ni ken and now sa san juan , wala pa apil ang wack wack ug valle verde ,....hala isingit jud)
- 1 company ( 77 aka cyberj ) plus 1 subcompany (hp)
- places i visited ( galera, cavite, subic, pangasinan )
- people i met .. well sobra kadaghan hehehe
- people i loved .. well erase them all, isa lng ako gi love si j---
- people i hated .. hmmmmmm
- places i still want to visit ( tagaytay, batangas, clark, SAGADA, PAGUDPOD, CARAMOAN)
- things i want to have ... exactly wala i really don't care, not that materialistic (PAK!..PANG!... PANG!... PANG!)
- things i wanna let go off ... pimples..scars.. i just want to be stunning and sexy
- books ive read.. the zahir, 5 people you meet in heaven, 11 minutes, he is not that into you
haaaay ..kakapoi sa life pero indeed it is really exciting...1 lesson learned, you just cant get everything you want there are always ifs and buts
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Celebrity Lookalike
Wa koy lingaw, sunud-sunod sa uso...sige ako pud...mao ni ako mga celebrity lookalike .. in fairness .....
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Friday, August 18, 2006
My Favorite Miss Universe Winners (Last Ten Years)
 | 1996- Alicia Machado, Venezuela Alicia ignited one of beauty pageants biggest controversies --> weight problems. She was almost dethroned because she gained too much weight. Nevertheless, she is truly a very beautiful Miss Universe and the last Venezuelan to bag the title. |
| 1997 - Brooke Lee, USA This girl nailed her spot as Miss Universe when she established her connection to the audience through her smart answers. She beat Ms Sweden Victoria Lagerstrom during the interview by singing(she sang The Star Spangled Banner during the interview infront of the american audience) and to think Ms Sweden was the better singer hehehe... |  |
 | 2000 - Larra Dutta, INDIA I consider her as the last true traditional miss universe. The one who has the beauty and personality who is truly a representative of a woman with a purpose. Our very own Nina Ricci Alagao could have given her a good fight if only she was given the chance to be in the top ten. |
 | 2001 - Denise Quinones, PUERTO RICO OMG! This lovely girl snatched the crown from Ms Greece..hehehe . The last one to wear the traditional Miss Universe crown. A crowd favorite(obviously, the pageant was held in her home country!) |
| 2002- Oxana Federova, RUSSIA She is my favorite Miss Universe. Too bad she lost her crown. Noone can forget her stunning evening gown. She is the first ever winner to wear the 250000 dollar Mikimoto crown. |  |
| 2003 - Amelia Vega, DOMINICAN REPUBLIC I just like her, thats all! ..nothing special..though i love her fadil berisha shots... |  |
 | 2004 - Jennifer Hawkins, AUSTRALIA Second to Oxana, Jennifer is my second favorite Miss Universe. She is "The Thunder From Down Under", as coined by Billy Bush. Like Oxana, I never noticed her prior to the finals night. |
| 2006 - Zuleyka Rivera, PUERTO RICOA woman who was determined to win from the very day she sat foot in Los Angeles. |  |
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Midlife Crisis...
No, this post is not about me, its about j---. Right now he is experiencing this thing we call midlife crisis. Well, as far as I am concerned, I havent had that thing yet. Or was I not just paying attention to my problems/issues and just brushed it all off my thoughts, thinking and hoping that things will be Ok soon. Im kinda worried about him, because he has been thinking of so many things. He has questions about his work(if he is happy with it, is this really the job for him, that he is so tired and stressed with the demands of his job). He wants to have a child(thinking what happens if ever he chooses to have one, will i be leaving him if ever he does decide to marry(i definitely will) or he will get it from a surrogate mom. Some issues about being tied , missed being single but enjoying his relationship with me, assurign me that im not part of his issues more of something about him and his path in teh future and some other issues about his self. Haaay, so complex something i cant control. Whatever the result of this so called journey/soul search. I think Im ready to accept what it is.Pero I just hope he will be able to resolve all his issues. Its hard I coudnt relate cause I havent been to this kind of situation. Ill just be here to support him.
Am I Obvious?
Last Friday, while I was walking towards home, on a very rainy and lonely night at the streets of P. Guevarra. A girl, holding an umbrella shouted at me and said,
"Hi Bakla!". Oops, was I hearing it right? Yes, she definitly shouted those words at me. I was silenced by that declaration of my gender. Many questions haunted me at that very moment. What was I doing making the girl think that I am gay? Was it the way i held my umbrella? Was it the way i walked(hello I can't seem to imagine my self doing my catwalk while my feet was aching on a rainy Friday night), Was it my outfit?(Every guy now wears body fit) Was it my voice? (I was singing a Josh Groban song while walking therefore its the least of all possible reasons) Then why did she shouted at me? Why?
For whatever reason there is, the biggest question amongst them all is, am i obvious?
If ever, is this a negative thing? Is this something I have to be ashamed of? Is this soemthing that can causa a major alarm? Is this soemthing that can destroy my relationship with my beau? Is this something that can make me a lesser individual?
"Hi Bakla!". Oops, was I hearing it right? Yes, she definitly shouted those words at me. I was silenced by that declaration of my gender. Many questions haunted me at that very moment. What was I doing making the girl think that I am gay? Was it the way i held my umbrella? Was it the way i walked(hello I can't seem to imagine my self doing my catwalk while my feet was aching on a rainy Friday night), Was it my outfit?(Every guy now wears body fit) Was it my voice? (I was singing a Josh Groban song while walking therefore its the least of all possible reasons) Then why did she shouted at me? Why?
For whatever reason there is, the biggest question amongst them all is, am i obvious?
If ever, is this a negative thing? Is this something I have to be ashamed of? Is this soemthing that can causa a major alarm? Is this soemthing that can destroy my relationship with my beau? Is this something that can make me a lesser individual?
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Miss Universe 2006 result
Well the pageant has just ended last Monday, for my score i got 11 of the top 20 plus 2 dark horses making it 13/20. Not a bad score i guess knowing that this years batch was so amazingly competitive. I rooted for Japan to win the title. Im so done and tired of seeing Latinas making it, im so tired of seeing a Miss USA and the rest of teh Americans(North, South,Central and The Caribbeans) making it, this year I wanted an Asian to win if not a European. So sad tehy still wanted Puerto Rico to win, 2004 with Alba Reyes(2nd Runner-up), 2005 with Cynthia Olavarria(1st Runner-up), and 2006 with Zuleyka Rivera(Miss Universe). Well for Puerto Rico this is a very impressive achievement. I still love Zuleyka, though its pretty much obviosu that she is a Michael Jackson wannabe(with all the plastic surgeries). She is still a stunning winner.
Here are the official results
Top 20
Argentina
Brazil
Denmark
Ethiopia
Hungary
India
Russia
Sweden
Thailand
Ukraine
Top 10
Bolivia
Canada
Colombia
Mexico
Trinidad and Tobago
4th Runner-up USA
3rd Runner-up Paraguay
2nd RUnner-up Switzerland
1st Runner-up Japan
Miss Universe 2006 Puerto Rico
Awards
Photogenic Philippines
Congeniality Ghana
National Costume Japan
Here are the official results
Top 20
Argentina
Brazil
Denmark
Ethiopia
Hungary
India
Russia
Sweden
Thailand
Ukraine
Top 10
Bolivia
Canada
Colombia
Mexico
Trinidad and Tobago
4th Runner-up USA
3rd Runner-up Paraguay
2nd RUnner-up Switzerland
1st Runner-up Japan
Miss Universe 2006 Puerto Rico
Awards
Photogenic Philippines
Congeniality Ghana
National Costume Japan
Thursday, July 20, 2006
My Miss Universe 2006 Top Picks
This is the best miss universe so far in terms of the quality of delegates
australia
bolivia
canada
colombia
ethipia
india
indonesia
mexico
paraguuay
philippines
poland
puerto rico
serbia and montenegro
spain
sri lanka
st lucia
switzerland
ukraine
usa
venezuela
----- dark horses -----
brazil
chile
croatia
cyprus
ecuador
egypt
israel
japan
lebanon
australia 
bolivia 
canada 
colombia 
ethipia
india 
indonesia 
mexico 
paraguuay 
philippines 
poland 
puerto rico 
serbia and montenegro
spain
sri lanka
st lucia 
switzerland 
ukraine 
usa 
venezuela ----- dark horses -----
brazil 
chile
croatia
cyprus
ecuador
egypt
israel
japan 
lebanon
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