After i read Jan Wee's blog, i kinda came interested with this film. I havent seen it though kaya i browsed through the net to check its synopsis. In the site i found these memorable quotes, i bet u will surely enjoy. I hope i could find a copy of this film...
Memorable Quotes from Eating Out (2004)
[after Caleb confesses to Kyles that he's afraid of being ravished on his fake gay date]
Kyle: We're NOT pirates. We just dress like them.
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[after yet another boy she's dating confesses he's gay]
Gwen: I feel like a turnstile at the White Party!
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[as the boys leave for their date, Gwen decides Caleb can be had... ]
Marc: Bye, Gwen
Caleb: Bye, Gwen
Gwen: Bi... sexual
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Caleb: I'm gonna circumcise your fucking neck!
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Gwen: Who needs friends who won't fuck friends?
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Joey: You're not being very positive about this?
Gwen: I couldn't be any more positive if I were gang raped in a repository bin at the needle exchange.
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Kyle: Men around here are like day old donuts, I mean I eat them because they're there, but I don't want to
invest anything in them.
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Caleb: Are you looking fo Mr. Right Now?
Kyle: Please. I'll settle Mr. Five Minutes Ago.
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Tiffani: My titties didn't occur to you? Look at them! They occur to every man I meet!
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Gwen: If you've never tricked with a chick, are you sure you pick dick?
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Caleb: Don't take it personally.
Tiffani: I am a person, how else am I supposed to take it.
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Marc: When he's around, my heart beats like a trailer park husband.
Gwen: That is so gay. And I mean all three definitions.
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Jamie: You're a reality show without a camera crew.
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Gwen: Put him on the phone, let me get the balls rolling.
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Gwen: Joey! Just remember, every time you suck a dick! Every time you poke some boy in the brown eye! Remember,
you've eaten pussy. You ate pussy and you liked it!
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Marc: I almost made it with a British guy in a broom closet.
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[as she has sex with Caleb]
Gwen Anderson: Eat it, little gay boy!
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[Tiffani stands in the doorway]
Tiffani: I hear you have phone trouble, Miss Thing.
Kyle: That's Mister Miss Thing to you.
Caleb Peterson: Tiffani?
Tiffani: You little hose huffer!
Frank Peterson: Would you care to join us?
Tiffani: Gomez, Morticia, and little Wednesday.
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Jamie Peterson: Love you, gay bro.
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Caleb Peterson: Do I look gay?
Kyle: Like an insatiable bottom.
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Caleb Peterson: Now I really wish I was a fag.
Kyle: You and Ricky Martin both.
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Gwen Anderson: Can you name any tracks off of Madonna's "Like a Prayer" album?
Joey: Um, "Express Yourself," "Cherish," "Oh Father..."
Gwen Anderson: "Vogue?"
Joey: No, honey, "Vogue" was on "Dick Tracy."
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Gwen Anderson: You didn't mention Tiffani.
Susan Petersoon: Tiffani was a bitch.
Jamie Peterson: I liked her.
Frank Peterson: She was cute.
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Caleb Peterson: I think you turned me gay.
Tiffani: I did not *turn* you gay! How can you say that?
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[Gwen tells Caleb's family that he's gay]
Jamie Peterson: Fag, you're it!
Tiffani: I turned him gay, but I can turn him back.
Jamie Peterson: No fag-backs.
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[as Marc leaves]
Sebastian: You know, kissing is so 1990s.
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Kyle: [to Caleb, picks up the caller-id device] It's for you Blow-me-o.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Waiting In Vain
It has been almost a month since my last post, i decided not to because there has been no clear update about my life here.
Yesterday, i experienced something .. HYPERVENTILATING ... that was the first time and i never thought it would be that exciting to feel that way ...
Why did I hyperentilate?
After two months of "waiting" Gian finally said he likes me ... He asked me if he ever has the chance on me .. I said YEAH! One said thing about this is that We couldnt still be together. He still has a partner. His relationship with that partner is all messed up and still he told me that he doesnt want to drag me into his mess ... Haaaayyyyy!
He is everything for me, the man i have been dreaming of, cute, sexy, tall, clean, model(modelizer bya ko), well educated and speaks english very well(Atenista baya!)You just dont know how happy I am when I am with him. The way he looks at me, the way he holds my hand, the way he kisses me(ShETT!)
I just couldnt understand, why i cant get him.. He said he doesnt want me to wait..but I wanna wait... He said he doesnt want to hurt me and that he doesnt want to drag me into his mess...But i am willing to be hurt just to get him. Ive met a lot of guys here, but everytime I am with them, in everything that i do with these guys, i see him, i think of him, he is all over my thoughts. Now i find it a waste of time to meet these new guys when what i am hoping for is being with him.
I hope he would be able to fix his fucking messed up life with his bf and try it with me..I just dont know if i can wait. I dont know if i could meet somebody who would make me forget him.
Should i wait? Or should i not?
Yesterday, i experienced something .. HYPERVENTILATING ... that was the first time and i never thought it would be that exciting to feel that way ...
Why did I hyperentilate?
After two months of "waiting" Gian finally said he likes me ... He asked me if he ever has the chance on me .. I said YEAH! One said thing about this is that We couldnt still be together. He still has a partner. His relationship with that partner is all messed up and still he told me that he doesnt want to drag me into his mess ... Haaaayyyyy!
He is everything for me, the man i have been dreaming of, cute, sexy, tall, clean, model(modelizer bya ko), well educated and speaks english very well(Atenista baya!)You just dont know how happy I am when I am with him. The way he looks at me, the way he holds my hand, the way he kisses me(ShETT!)
I just couldnt understand, why i cant get him.. He said he doesnt want me to wait..but I wanna wait... He said he doesnt want to hurt me and that he doesnt want to drag me into his mess...But i am willing to be hurt just to get him. Ive met a lot of guys here, but everytime I am with them, in everything that i do with these guys, i see him, i think of him, he is all over my thoughts. Now i find it a waste of time to meet these new guys when what i am hoping for is being with him.
I hope he would be able to fix his fucking messed up life with his bf and try it with me..I just dont know if i can wait. I dont know if i could meet somebody who would make me forget him.
Should i wait? Or should i not?
Monday, October 24, 2005
My Birthday
I was so happy to see all my Manila friends during my birthday. I celebrated it at Metrowalk Ortigas. NagOktoberfest lang kami kasi kulang ako sa budget. Present halos lahat ng friends ko from NEC to CyberJ to VPALS-EM to Sci-hi. I was so happy. Though i missed my family, it could have been better if i celebrated it with them too.
Monday, October 10, 2005
Weekend Na Pud Update!!!
Last Friday i was blogging on my plans for the weekend, Jan Wee even commented that it seems like im running out of guys..hahahaha..so here is my update...
- Gym with Bernard
Yeah, nadayun siya finally, it wasn't a date, it was just a friendly meeting. Instead of going to the Fort, we went to RS Tower instead, while we were entering the changing room, guess who we met, Ted..hahaha, he saw us together..i felt so happy cause that was just how i wanted it to happen. To recall, while we were still dating, he invited Bernard for some private moments, kaso ayaw ni Bernard sa kanya kaya di un natuloy... I just cant describe how Ted looked like that night, He looked so plastic. We didnt even have a conversion fit for people who had great times together as friends. It was so civil, i didnt even realize he left na. Cguro it was awkward lang for us or maybe takot siya na maybe Bernard said awful things about him. Ang haba ng hair ko kc ako minit ni Bernard at siya hindi..hahaha!!! Imagine Bernard told me na pumayag pala siya magpanude photo session shet!!!, akala ko ayaw niya sa mga ganyan..haay! After gym, we just had dinner at his car, nag takeout lng kami sa Mcdo then he dropped me sa may greenbelt kc he has to finish his assignments pa sa law school.
- Meet K
Di ko ito tinuloy, masyadong bata at 19 years old magiguilty ako. kaya what i did, nagpakaloser ako, Saturday AM i txted Bernard, Josh, Van and Gian. Di pwede si Bernard kasi di pa natapos ung mga assignments niya which is due daw 4pm, di nagreply si Josh, si Van naman nagreply pero wala lang. Guess what! Gian ressurected, nagreply siya, ang saya ko!!! Meet kami ulit sa gym..almost di siya natuloy, finally dumating siya, Shit para siyang angel talaga. Everytime he talks to me, everytime he makes kidhat..haay para akong natatameme... His complexion, his body, he is every inch a model... Just cant get my eyes off him...After gym, he told me something ,the cute guy daw wearing a white sando( apparently type ko rin) type daw ako. I dont care, id prefer him over that guy....He asked me if i had dated na after my last, sabi ko "not yet" it seems like nobody wants to date me!" He said, "Id like to date you, i just dont want to drag you into my mess" Shit, puchang mess yan, date mo na ako, if only u know how much i like you!!! then i told him.. "How about trying it out, we never know?" wala siyang comment..hanggang ung usapan namin reached to our birthdays, i hope he could remember my birthday next week....
Sunday i decided, if we meet again that day, ill tell him how i feel, ill risk it... pero if di pwede ill just have to be contented with what we have..friends..i cannot wait for forever diba? or maybe ill end up again with somebody who is not romantically into me at least if you talk about relationships...If i cant have him, i wish ill get somebody who is at least in a way like him... his conio voice, the way he dresses up, the way he fixes his hair, his scent. haaay! Everytime i reminisce us walking the sidewalks of emerald avenue, sheltering under my very small black umbrella and when his chest brushes my back when he says something to me while im doing my routines, when we hold hands on the taxi, when he tries to hold my hand, everytime nobody is around the vicinity, when he kisses my elbow, my arm, shoulders and lips....haaay! It really makes my heart skip a beat! I just hope one day, he will realize that he likes me too! hahaha.. sana 1 day maging kami! Diba, its better if we take this gradually..haay! I hope this wont just be a dream or a silly fling or good time single people normally do, i hope he is not the single guy who wants to be single forever to enjoy his singlehood... I hope i could stand being single with him too ... I hope i could spend more time with him, I hope he will be mine and me his own.... =)
- Gym with Bernard
Yeah, nadayun siya finally, it wasn't a date, it was just a friendly meeting. Instead of going to the Fort, we went to RS Tower instead, while we were entering the changing room, guess who we met, Ted..hahaha, he saw us together..i felt so happy cause that was just how i wanted it to happen. To recall, while we were still dating, he invited Bernard for some private moments, kaso ayaw ni Bernard sa kanya kaya di un natuloy... I just cant describe how Ted looked like that night, He looked so plastic. We didnt even have a conversion fit for people who had great times together as friends. It was so civil, i didnt even realize he left na. Cguro it was awkward lang for us or maybe takot siya na maybe Bernard said awful things about him. Ang haba ng hair ko kc ako minit ni Bernard at siya hindi..hahaha!!! Imagine Bernard told me na pumayag pala siya magpanude photo session shet!!!, akala ko ayaw niya sa mga ganyan..haay! After gym, we just had dinner at his car, nag takeout lng kami sa Mcdo then he dropped me sa may greenbelt kc he has to finish his assignments pa sa law school.
- Meet K
Di ko ito tinuloy, masyadong bata at 19 years old magiguilty ako. kaya what i did, nagpakaloser ako, Saturday AM i txted Bernard, Josh, Van and Gian. Di pwede si Bernard kasi di pa natapos ung mga assignments niya which is due daw 4pm, di nagreply si Josh, si Van naman nagreply pero wala lang. Guess what! Gian ressurected, nagreply siya, ang saya ko!!! Meet kami ulit sa gym..almost di siya natuloy, finally dumating siya, Shit para siyang angel talaga. Everytime he talks to me, everytime he makes kidhat..haay para akong natatameme... His complexion, his body, he is every inch a model... Just cant get my eyes off him...After gym, he told me something ,the cute guy daw wearing a white sando( apparently type ko rin) type daw ako. I dont care, id prefer him over that guy....He asked me if i had dated na after my last, sabi ko "not yet" it seems like nobody wants to date me!" He said, "Id like to date you, i just dont want to drag you into my mess" Shit, puchang mess yan, date mo na ako, if only u know how much i like you!!! then i told him.. "How about trying it out, we never know?" wala siyang comment..hanggang ung usapan namin reached to our birthdays, i hope he could remember my birthday next week....
Sunday i decided, if we meet again that day, ill tell him how i feel, ill risk it... pero if di pwede ill just have to be contented with what we have..friends..i cannot wait for forever diba? or maybe ill end up again with somebody who is not romantically into me at least if you talk about relationships...If i cant have him, i wish ill get somebody who is at least in a way like him... his conio voice, the way he dresses up, the way he fixes his hair, his scent. haaay! Everytime i reminisce us walking the sidewalks of emerald avenue, sheltering under my very small black umbrella and when his chest brushes my back when he says something to me while im doing my routines, when we hold hands on the taxi, when he tries to hold my hand, everytime nobody is around the vicinity, when he kisses my elbow, my arm, shoulders and lips....haaay! It really makes my heart skip a beat! I just hope one day, he will realize that he likes me too! hahaha.. sana 1 day maging kami! Diba, its better if we take this gradually..haay! I hope this wont just be a dream or a silly fling or good time single people normally do, i hope he is not the single guy who wants to be single forever to enjoy his singlehood... I hope i could stand being single with him too ... I hope i could spend more time with him, I hope he will be mine and me his own.... =)
Friday, October 07, 2005
Weekend Na Pud
Last night Me, Ria, Georgia, Vincent, Monette and Rainier had dinner with Jgums at Greenbelt 3's Krokodile Grille. Its was a Shimane, SV-OpS, IX View and E-access reunion, I'll let Ria's blog do the sharing of what we discussed.
Things to look forward for the weekend:
- Ria's trip to Singapore
- Gym with B
- Meet K ( ambot asay madayon ani sa duha, mayta di kau gasto kay wa na kau ko kwarta..)
- Gimik with Ken and Julius
- Ken and Alfred transferring to ur new place in QC
- Weekend gym surprises
- Me scouting for new stuffs for my new room (decors, sheets, fan, foam)
- How i could budget my money, considering that i still have a week to go before the salary comes and that i still have to save for my new place's downpayment and advance) Whew! mayta musugot si alfred na half2 lang sa ako bayran oi!
JGums asked me and Ria whats with Manila that we liked so much. He asked us..salary? savings? we said NO!!!! We told him.... Even if wa mi savings, makalaag japon mi diri, enjoy, lingaw... sa Cebu..wa pa mi savings wa pa jud mi laag naa ra mi balay! ..so mao to amo big difference!!!!
I hope lingaw ako weekend karon, dili na unta parehas sa last 2 weeks, i hope it'll be something exciting and different!....
Things to look forward for the weekend:
- Ria's trip to Singapore
- Gym with B
- Meet K ( ambot asay madayon ani sa duha, mayta di kau gasto kay wa na kau ko kwarta..)
- Gimik with Ken and Julius
- Ken and Alfred transferring to ur new place in QC
- Weekend gym surprises
- Me scouting for new stuffs for my new room (decors, sheets, fan, foam)
- How i could budget my money, considering that i still have a week to go before the salary comes and that i still have to save for my new place's downpayment and advance) Whew! mayta musugot si alfred na half2 lang sa ako bayran oi!
JGums asked me and Ria whats with Manila that we liked so much. He asked us..salary? savings? we said NO!!!! We told him.... Even if wa mi savings, makalaag japon mi diri, enjoy, lingaw... sa Cebu..wa pa mi savings wa pa jud mi laag naa ra mi balay! ..so mao to amo big difference!!!!
I hope lingaw ako weekend karon, dili na unta parehas sa last 2 weeks, i hope it'll be something exciting and different!....
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Prospects
As part of our weekly agenda, me and Ken again went to Starbucks Shangri-la Plaza. Akala niyo nagoorder kami? Hindi, kumukuha lng kami ng table na may order na para di halatang di kami nag oorder.
There we saw Regine Velasquez, o nga, she is so white!, she's not beautiful and i dont find her sexy. i also saw JB Magsaysay, he is OK. Di siya super attractive but he is perfectly ok na....
While Ken and i were talking, I saw this guy behind the glass of Starbucks, may kasama siyang matanda rin na katulad namin. I stared at him, ginamit ko ung makamandag kong stare, and as expected, kumagat! I kept looking at him, until they went home.
Nagtuo mi ni Ken na muoli na jud siya, shet nibalik ang ekal! So mao na ni.... nya wala man sige ra man ug tindog sa gawas so niuli na mi ni ken kay 10pm na sad. As we went to the MRt station, we decided na Ken should take a bus nalang, so bumalik kami sa may Megamall, he was really following us, kaso its too obvious na, if he'll follow us papuntang Mega. So end of love story na.
Why prospects? kay wa ko lain mathink na topic, wa ko gana mowork kay frozen ako utok sa katugnaw diri sa office. Who are these prospects ba? First si Bernard, meet daw kami bukas, maggigym lang, haay ewan ko ba sa taong to, baka mapostpone na naman ung gym date na to..dont want to expect further...Si josh, wala na yata to kasi he saw na my profile sa friendster at di siya nagtext, di ako type. Si Van, nagreply na sya, he gave his number, i texted yet di rin nag reply,siguro tulog pa. Ung mestizo na sexy guy sa gym, kaso parang maarte kaya dequeue() na rin siya.. Ung Rico look-alike na guy din sa gym, haay..wa siyay effort mureach out sa ako...Haay! sa kadaghan sa prospects murag walay klaro tanan..
The biggest question...hapit na ang deadline, wala pa koy klaro na mauyab.....Kinsa ka ha? TABANG!!!
There we saw Regine Velasquez, o nga, she is so white!, she's not beautiful and i dont find her sexy. i also saw JB Magsaysay, he is OK. Di siya super attractive but he is perfectly ok na....
While Ken and i were talking, I saw this guy behind the glass of Starbucks, may kasama siyang matanda rin na katulad namin. I stared at him, ginamit ko ung makamandag kong stare, and as expected, kumagat! I kept looking at him, until they went home.
Nagtuo mi ni Ken na muoli na jud siya, shet nibalik ang ekal! So mao na ni.... nya wala man sige ra man ug tindog sa gawas so niuli na mi ni ken kay 10pm na sad. As we went to the MRt station, we decided na Ken should take a bus nalang, so bumalik kami sa may Megamall, he was really following us, kaso its too obvious na, if he'll follow us papuntang Mega. So end of love story na.
Why prospects? kay wa ko lain mathink na topic, wa ko gana mowork kay frozen ako utok sa katugnaw diri sa office. Who are these prospects ba? First si Bernard, meet daw kami bukas, maggigym lang, haay ewan ko ba sa taong to, baka mapostpone na naman ung gym date na to..dont want to expect further...Si josh, wala na yata to kasi he saw na my profile sa friendster at di siya nagtext, di ako type. Si Van, nagreply na sya, he gave his number, i texted yet di rin nag reply,siguro tulog pa. Ung mestizo na sexy guy sa gym, kaso parang maarte kaya dequeue() na rin siya.. Ung Rico look-alike na guy din sa gym, haay..wa siyay effort mureach out sa ako...Haay! sa kadaghan sa prospects murag walay klaro tanan..
The biggest question...hapit na ang deadline, wala pa koy klaro na mauyab.....Kinsa ka ha? TABANG!!!
Monday, October 03, 2005
Missed Home
As I was waiting for the 5:30 mass at St Francis Church, I decided to hang out at Shangri-la Plaza to watch Wow Davao. I saw their dance, feels like home.. I missed Sinulog. I wish I could go home by January to witness next year's Sinulog!
It made me think, "saan kaya ako this long vacation?" Puerto Galera? Tagaytay? Subic? Vigan? haay, so many possibilities, wala naman pera hehehe.. May makakasama kaya akong bagong SO nyan? hehehe... How bout this Christmas? Even if I know na Ill be with either my VPALs barkada or with Ken or Julius or all of them, diba mas masaya if kasama kang u know na u can share those great moments with?
Just this morning, opening the website monsterradio.fm just struck my mind. Haay! It feels much like home, hearing Rick O'rion talk, the music.. the cebu ads...
It is really true when they say that most of the time, when you are alone, you feel like going back to where you came from. The place where you have so much friends, where your family is, where you dont get bored, where you have so many things to do.
It made me think, "saan kaya ako this long vacation?" Puerto Galera? Tagaytay? Subic? Vigan? haay, so many possibilities, wala naman pera hehehe.. May makakasama kaya akong bagong SO nyan? hehehe... How bout this Christmas? Even if I know na Ill be with either my VPALs barkada or with Ken or Julius or all of them, diba mas masaya if kasama kang u know na u can share those great moments with?
Just this morning, opening the website monsterradio.fm just struck my mind. Haay! It feels much like home, hearing Rick O'rion talk, the music.. the cebu ads...
It is really true when they say that most of the time, when you are alone, you feel like going back to where you came from. The place where you have so much friends, where your family is, where you dont get bored, where you have so many things to do.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
What Ifs
Maaga ako pumasok sa office because i have to finish a document and have it submitted by 11am. I was so sleepy when i got in but i have no choice but to start working, the clock ticks so fast.
Its Teddy's birthday today, so i also thought of sending him a message sa YM,
"Happy Birthday! I wish that you will be the happiest person on your birthday. I hope God will give you everything that you have been asking for. God Bless! Im just here for you"
When i sent him the message, he was still offlyn sa YM baka siguro nagbirthday leave. So i continued with my work, kasi nga diba kailangan ko matapos to by 11am.
So un, not until i saw his status as onlyn. Aba nagonlyn? Most likely he is just at home.checking his messages, sana magreply siya, i told myself. Kaso nag offlyn na siya, i didnt receive a reply, ang taray nito!
What ifs...
I asked my officemate this question, "Do i have to do something, now that it is his birthday?" sabi niya, "wala, its enough that you greeted him, at least you remembered" ...
Then i thought, what if kami pa ngayon? Ano kaya gift ko sa kanya? Where kaya kami pupunta? Mapapasaya ko kaya siya sa birthday niya? What if birthday ko na, may gift kaya siya sa akin? Maaalala kaya niya birthday ko? Lalabas kaya kami? Mapapasaya kaya niya ako?
Now that it is his birthday, Sino kaya kasama niya? May gift kaya siyang matatangap? Is he happy? Ano kaya wish niya? Ano ginagawa niya?
Haay, siguro i still like him, why am I asking these questions? No matter how hard i try to hate him or entertain other guys or try to flirt with other guys just to forget him, when the sun sets, siya pa rin iniisip ko makasama... I cant just brush him off my thoughts... Even if i try to sarcastically answer his questions sa YM or tell blatantly all my stupid lies that i dated other guys na, whats inside my thoughts is the longing for him, the questions why it happened, what went wrong.. what i could have done to be better or he could have done for the relationship to be better.....
Sayang nga lang, it didnt work out.. maybe i just have to continue with my moving on process and try to forget him and start taking him as a friend....He may not really be the ONE for me ....
Its hard to close the book when you still want to reread some of its chapters, when you cant find any new interesting book to read. Or maybe you just have to sit down somewhere and ponder on what you have learned from the book you have just read. Eventually, you will learn to close it...slowly...
Its Teddy's birthday today, so i also thought of sending him a message sa YM,
"Happy Birthday! I wish that you will be the happiest person on your birthday. I hope God will give you everything that you have been asking for. God Bless! Im just here for you"
When i sent him the message, he was still offlyn sa YM baka siguro nagbirthday leave. So i continued with my work, kasi nga diba kailangan ko matapos to by 11am.
So un, not until i saw his status as onlyn. Aba nagonlyn? Most likely he is just at home.checking his messages, sana magreply siya, i told myself. Kaso nag offlyn na siya, i didnt receive a reply, ang taray nito!
What ifs...
I asked my officemate this question, "Do i have to do something, now that it is his birthday?" sabi niya, "wala, its enough that you greeted him, at least you remembered" ...
Then i thought, what if kami pa ngayon? Ano kaya gift ko sa kanya? Where kaya kami pupunta? Mapapasaya ko kaya siya sa birthday niya? What if birthday ko na, may gift kaya siya sa akin? Maaalala kaya niya birthday ko? Lalabas kaya kami? Mapapasaya kaya niya ako?
Now that it is his birthday, Sino kaya kasama niya? May gift kaya siyang matatangap? Is he happy? Ano kaya wish niya? Ano ginagawa niya?
Haay, siguro i still like him, why am I asking these questions? No matter how hard i try to hate him or entertain other guys or try to flirt with other guys just to forget him, when the sun sets, siya pa rin iniisip ko makasama... I cant just brush him off my thoughts... Even if i try to sarcastically answer his questions sa YM or tell blatantly all my stupid lies that i dated other guys na, whats inside my thoughts is the longing for him, the questions why it happened, what went wrong.. what i could have done to be better or he could have done for the relationship to be better.....
Sayang nga lang, it didnt work out.. maybe i just have to continue with my moving on process and try to forget him and start taking him as a friend....He may not really be the ONE for me ....
Its hard to close the book when you still want to reread some of its chapters, when you cant find any new interesting book to read. Or maybe you just have to sit down somewhere and ponder on what you have learned from the book you have just read. Eventually, you will learn to close it...slowly...
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Happiest Friday Gimik
Since single na man ko, so feel nako, dapat mo move on nako, act like what a single person should be. So i invited Ken and Julius ( Claudine and Marjorie ). It took me and Julius 2 hours to wait for Ken, atay kau ning bayota dugay kau naabot, 48 years mi ni julius ug inihap pila ka gwapo niagi sa amo atubangan sa greenbelt. Naabot mi sa taas ug ininom ug strong ice para lang muhuwat niya.
So when Ken came, we just had our dinner at chowking then we headed straight to Club Government. First time ko sana dun kaso di kami natuloy kasi ala pang tao. So we just headed to Malate. Shet, i promised myself ill never go to Malate. Pero asa nako, padung nako didto. TIming pa jud na ang taxi drivers namo kay mga bisdak! Giuwan pa jud mi ug kusog sa Malate, pero hala sige lakaw jud kay kinahanglan manlaki hahahaha!!!!
So when we got there, wala pa rin tao so what we did, we just went to Gilligan's Island, kay naa man mi free na Cerveza Negra courtesy of Julius mArketing sumthing friend from San Miguel. Luod man to na beer murag red wine, pero kevs! free bitaw so oks na, naa pa juy nagrambol sa ubos..saun nalng...
So when the it was like 12mn na. nisulod na mi balik sa Bed. shet daghan na kau tawo..gipicturan na pud k ni Doc Tony( Tag-iya sa Bed) atay ani oi, mapublish na pud balik ako ngowan sa website..atay nalang lata na kau ko ug image diri...so mao to..
Haay, wa koy naharvat..si ken daghan na kau..atay jud..gwapo man gud mni bata-a. Ang ako rapunzel na haai giputol ni delilah. upaw nako...
Now, naay naabot na laki named Ralph, type niya si Ken, kasi type man ni Ken iya friend na si Cj so wa siya choice adto siya sa first runner-up, kinsa pa man e di ako! so mao to, atay 17 yrs old pa d i from letran, unsaon, mas bata pa sa ako manghud..taas kau libido aning bataa, hubog pa jud...haay! di nako keri ....( di na nako isulti unsay nahitabo didto)
Pag 4pm, niuli nalang mi kay buntag na .....
So when Ken came, we just had our dinner at chowking then we headed straight to Club Government. First time ko sana dun kaso di kami natuloy kasi ala pang tao. So we just headed to Malate. Shet, i promised myself ill never go to Malate. Pero asa nako, padung nako didto. TIming pa jud na ang taxi drivers namo kay mga bisdak! Giuwan pa jud mi ug kusog sa Malate, pero hala sige lakaw jud kay kinahanglan manlaki hahahaha!!!!
So when we got there, wala pa rin tao so what we did, we just went to Gilligan's Island, kay naa man mi free na Cerveza Negra courtesy of Julius mArketing sumthing friend from San Miguel. Luod man to na beer murag red wine, pero kevs! free bitaw so oks na, naa pa juy nagrambol sa ubos..saun nalng...
So when the it was like 12mn na. nisulod na mi balik sa Bed. shet daghan na kau tawo..gipicturan na pud k ni Doc Tony( Tag-iya sa Bed) atay ani oi, mapublish na pud balik ako ngowan sa website..atay nalang lata na kau ko ug image diri...so mao to..
Haay, wa koy naharvat..si ken daghan na kau..atay jud..gwapo man gud mni bata-a. Ang ako rapunzel na haai giputol ni delilah. upaw nako...
Now, naay naabot na laki named Ralph, type niya si Ken, kasi type man ni Ken iya friend na si Cj so wa siya choice adto siya sa first runner-up, kinsa pa man e di ako! so mao to, atay 17 yrs old pa d i from letran, unsaon, mas bata pa sa ako manghud..taas kau libido aning bataa, hubog pa jud...haay! di nako keri ....( di na nako isulti unsay nahitabo didto)
Pag 4pm, niuli nalang mi kay buntag na .....
At Last!
After 26 years of waiting, finally our country has captured its 4th Miss International crown. Congrats to Precious Lara Quigaman.
Friday, September 23, 2005
Im idle, sexy, sick, single and its Friday!
Im idle
No bugs to fix, can't proceed with my next task because the testing has to be finished first, tired of reading java certification exam tutorials
Im sexy
They said that beauty should come from within, yeah that is perfectly true. When you think you are beautiful/handsome/sexy, definitely it will exude. Now i feel so sexy, i know that it will also exude from within me..hehehehe..in short feeling lang!
Im sick
Yes, i have colds and i feel i have slight fever. Ive taken my medicine (No drowse Neozep), drank gallons of water(kept going back to the pantry for water and CR to pee)
Im single
It's hard to be sick and single.
Its Friday
It's hard to be sick and single on a weekend!
No bugs to fix, can't proceed with my next task because the testing has to be finished first, tired of reading java certification exam tutorials
Im sexy
They said that beauty should come from within, yeah that is perfectly true. When you think you are beautiful/handsome/sexy, definitely it will exude. Now i feel so sexy, i know that it will also exude from within me..hehehehe..in short feeling lang!
Im sick
Yes, i have colds and i feel i have slight fever. Ive taken my medicine (No drowse Neozep), drank gallons of water(kept going back to the pantry for water and CR to pee)
Im single
It's hard to be sick and single.
Its Friday
It's hard to be sick and single on a weekend!
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Moving on...
While waiting for Georgia, nag gym na ako..1 had an hour of cardio and abs routines...kasi pagod na masyado body ko... While in the gym, i was hoping na sana andun si G---... kaso di siya dumating..eh bat naman siya dadating diba sabi nga nya wikend lang sya sa ortigas maggigym..so no hope..i have to go na cguro kc Georgia texted na nasa Asian MAnsion na siya....
So while waiting for a shower cube to be available ... saw him entering the mens changing rum. Shet! i told my self..then nagCR siya..shit! na naman, di niya ako pinansin!..nainis ako..kaya after shower nagchange na ako then umalis... i asked myself.."Bakit di nya ako pinansin?" then....my phone vibrated
G---: Ey u at d gym? (Isn't it obvious..u just passed by me, as if di mo ako kilala!)
Me: Yep. Pauwi na rin. b goin to makati to mit my frens. ( If only pinancn mo ako kanina, di na sana ako aalis..)
G---: Oh. Okay!
G---: Dat was u nga. Shet snob! (Di noh! kainis ka, u challenging me huh?!)
Me: Kaw ung snob. Di mo ako pinancn s may showr rum. Tampo ako! huhuhu (Paano ko po kayo papansinin, eh may kausap ka, baka maissue..)
G---: U wer there!? Sana u called me! U knw naman i space out. Sayang! (Cge next tym di lang kita tatwagin..ikikiss pa kita)
Me: Cge nxt tym. Kala ko kc nakalimutan mo na ako. Txt me f gym ka d2 para i wud knw. paalis n rinkc me eh. (Haay..papacute na naman ako... isa na lang.....)
Haay..eto ba moving on ko..para yatang kahapon lng kami nag goodbye ni Ted... hehehe
Sana sya na nga..eh papano ba yan, parang he is not yet into me e...o baka sana di lang sya nagmamadali... or he is still tryin to figure it out...whatever!..basta gusto ko na siya and i have to do something.. then what? ...break my two legs? huh?...better plan things na..cant wait for the next...sana kami na before my birthday hehehe....
So while waiting for a shower cube to be available ... saw him entering the mens changing rum. Shet! i told my self..then nagCR siya..shit! na naman, di niya ako pinansin!..nainis ako..kaya after shower nagchange na ako then umalis... i asked myself.."Bakit di nya ako pinansin?" then....my phone vibrated
G---: Ey u at d gym? (Isn't it obvious..u just passed by me, as if di mo ako kilala!)
Me: Yep. Pauwi na rin. b goin to makati to mit my frens. ( If only pinancn mo ako kanina, di na sana ako aalis..)
G---: Oh. Okay!
G---: Dat was u nga. Shet snob! (Di noh! kainis ka, u challenging me huh?!)
Me: Kaw ung snob. Di mo ako pinancn s may showr rum. Tampo ako! huhuhu (Paano ko po kayo papansinin, eh may kausap ka, baka maissue..)
G---: U wer there!? Sana u called me! U knw naman i space out. Sayang! (Cge next tym di lang kita tatwagin..ikikiss pa kita)
Me: Cge nxt tym. Kala ko kc nakalimutan mo na ako. Txt me f gym ka d2 para i wud knw. paalis n rinkc me eh. (Haay..papacute na naman ako... isa na lang.....)
Haay..eto ba moving on ko..para yatang kahapon lng kami nag goodbye ni Ted... hehehe
Sana sya na nga..eh papano ba yan, parang he is not yet into me e...o baka sana di lang sya nagmamadali... or he is still tryin to figure it out...whatever!..basta gusto ko na siya and i have to do something.. then what? ...break my two legs? huh?...better plan things na..cant wait for the next...sana kami na before my birthday hehehe....
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Answered Prayer
My past 2 weeks were tough. I left, i begged, i cried, i hoped, i tried, i did everything to get this feeling off my chest ...
Finally i prayed.....
i have thought that maybe God did this to me because i kind of forgot about him....
...then i told Him.. "Lord if he is meant for me, i hope he will fight for me, but if not, i hope he would let go of me...."
Just this morning, he left me, i didnt know what to feel, i felt happy because finally i could say im free... im sad because i'll miss him and i still have him in my heart and finally im angry.. because the guy i was supposed to meet 2 weeks ago told me he is not worth it...he invited him for sex just last week(oh shit!!!!)...he goes to malate(which he told me he doesnt), when he explained things to me, i cant help but start doubting him, if only he knew what i knew... all im thinking now is , after all, maybe he has been lying to me ... or maybe it's just that i dont know him that much...
At least God answered my prayers... now i have a new life ... new things to expect ... more time for my friends and myself ... new lessons learned ... new obstacles to tackle ... a fresh start ... a new heart and mind ... life indeed is such an exciting spectacle.....
Finally i prayed.....
i have thought that maybe God did this to me because i kind of forgot about him....
...then i told Him.. "Lord if he is meant for me, i hope he will fight for me, but if not, i hope he would let go of me...."
Just this morning, he left me, i didnt know what to feel, i felt happy because finally i could say im free... im sad because i'll miss him and i still have him in my heart and finally im angry.. because the guy i was supposed to meet 2 weeks ago told me he is not worth it...he invited him for sex just last week(oh shit!!!!)...he goes to malate(which he told me he doesnt), when he explained things to me, i cant help but start doubting him, if only he knew what i knew... all im thinking now is , after all, maybe he has been lying to me ... or maybe it's just that i dont know him that much...
At least God answered my prayers... now i have a new life ... new things to expect ... more time for my friends and myself ... new lessons learned ... new obstacles to tackle ... a fresh start ... a new heart and mind ... life indeed is such an exciting spectacle.....
Monday, September 19, 2005
Fool To The End
Im about to leave the office, be going again to the gym, to keep my self busy, well, this is my third post today... i just wanna exhaust all these bad feelings i have, i normally relate my life, the feelings and thoughts that i have in a particular song, right now this is the best song for me... at last i could finally sing this song not with a heavy heart but with a heart flying.....hehehe
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Fool To The End
by Paolo Santos
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Somewhere,
lost in the wind I'm watching you
Sunlight touching your hair
And I remember
Somehow,
we said that we would never stray
But somehow we lost our way
REFRAIN 1
Promises too often spoken
Are easily broken apart
CHORUS
And I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided,
no no
And I don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
Trace of forever lingerin'
Drawin' me closer to you
A new beginning
Now I know
There is no doubt
I understand
Just how fragile love can be
REFRAIN 2
I can't forget,
your mem'ry by me
Now I know where I belong
CHORUS
And I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided,
oh no
And I don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
Through every day into the night
We got love to guide us
And I don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
BRIDGE
Let the lovin' decide I can't run,
I can't hide
AD LIB
I'm ready to go
My heart will show that...
CHORUS
I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
And I don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
Searched everywhere,
nothing compares
Only love to guide us
And I don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
CODA
I'm wondering what might have been
We're gonna find what might have been
I've got to know what might have been,
yeah Ohh hoh,
what might have been
What might have been,
yeah
----------------------------
Fool To The End
by Paolo Santos
----------------------------
Somewhere,
lost in the wind I'm watching you
Sunlight touching your hair
And I remember
Somehow,
we said that we would never stray
But somehow we lost our way
REFRAIN 1
Promises too often spoken
Are easily broken apart
CHORUS
And I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided,
no no
And I don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
Trace of forever lingerin'
Drawin' me closer to you
A new beginning
Now I know
There is no doubt
I understand
Just how fragile love can be
REFRAIN 2
I can't forget,
your mem'ry by me
Now I know where I belong
CHORUS
And I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided,
oh no
And I don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
Through every day into the night
We got love to guide us
And I don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
BRIDGE
Let the lovin' decide I can't run,
I can't hide
AD LIB
I'm ready to go
My heart will show that...
CHORUS
I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
And I don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
Searched everywhere,
nothing compares
Only love to guide us
And I don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
CODA
I'm wondering what might have been
We're gonna find what might have been
I've got to know what might have been,
yeah Ohh hoh,
what might have been
What might have been,
yeah
He's Just Not That Into YOu!
Its monday, im bored, have so many things to do, after all that happened to me the past few weeks, i think its pretty perfect to write my first blog entry.
Manila, the Philippines grandest city. I never thought my life here would be very exciting. I cant tell my mother that the biggest reason why i transfered here is that its because i wanted to be free. I have experienced so many things here, been here for two months and yet i havent blogged any of those events, not until now. Maybe this is the best tym to write one...
Last friday, after the third time my date was again not pushed through, i finally decided to meet up with my friends. I met up ken at Mcdo Glorietta until Georgia showed up. I was so fucking shocked to see the book she was holding...SHIT!!! super fucking SHIT! This is the book my friend Julius wanted me to read!!!!! "He's Not Just Into YOu!"
What's with this book? Eto ung book na bagay sa mga taong "babae/bading/bisexual/o lalaki" na pilit kiniconvince sarili nila that there is this somebody who's interested in them!
This book fits me so well kasi, i kept convincing myself na this person im dating still likes me and that may hope pa na magkatuluyan kami. This book made me realize na wala na talaga and i have to let go and move on.
1) The person is super busy with work, no time to sleep, kaya di na ako imimeet every day
2) The person can meet me na, kasi di na siya super busy, kaso imimeet na naman nya bestfriend nya, lola nya, tita nya, etc
3) Nawala cellphone nya, ala pa siya pera pambili
4) Binigay ko contact number ko, para macontact nya ako kahit weekend, kahit email pa siya , recieve ko phone ko, to no avail ala pa rin....
5) Weekend, di nagparamdam, di ko alam, siguro nga busy talaga siya..heller!!!
6) Been dating for a month, di parin pwede maging kayo kasi hindi daw ready, dami pa issues ...
Now tell me, would it be right to conclude that the book is really true when it says "He's Not Just That Into YOu!" .. Its high time for me to move on, open my doors for new things. if the person really wants you, no matter how busy he is, kahit ano pa, basta gusto ka niya, gagawa at gagawa yan ng paraan mapafeel lang nya sayo na gusto ka niya.... Diba.. "Pag gusto maraming paraan pag ayaw maraming dahilan!"
Haay.. im such a fucking stupid hopelessly romantic guy! i still like the person kaso ano ba magagawa ko, eh parang ayaw na talaga nya sa akin, its not that there are lots of fishes in the ocean to catch, iba pa rin ung taong gusto mo, pero paano na yan, eh ayaw ka na nya..pipilitin mo ba sarili mo?
Nasasayangan talaga ako, what else can i do? wait? yes i could wait pero for how long? forever? no way.....siguro if tym comes na he will realize things for me, i hope im still available for him, pero sana, if ngayon he'll tell me nlng na wala na talaga..para my thoughts will be clear of whatever..at least now, kahit wala kaming proper closure..i'll date new people nlng..cguro mahanap ko ung "THE ONE" for me... na di ako iiwan... na di super busy .... na pagmagmimeet kami, di suddenly mawawala at di magpapaalam na di pala matutuloy...
Greatest lesson: Ang daming isda sa dagat, kung ikay isang gutom na mangingisda bat ka pa nagpupumilit humuli sa isang isdang ayaw magpahuli sa'yo eh ang dami naman dyang gustong magpahuli sayo! Gusto mo bang maghintay hanggang mamatay ka sa gutom?
Manila, the Philippines grandest city. I never thought my life here would be very exciting. I cant tell my mother that the biggest reason why i transfered here is that its because i wanted to be free. I have experienced so many things here, been here for two months and yet i havent blogged any of those events, not until now. Maybe this is the best tym to write one...
Last friday, after the third time my date was again not pushed through, i finally decided to meet up with my friends. I met up ken at Mcdo Glorietta until Georgia showed up. I was so fucking shocked to see the book she was holding...SHIT!!! super fucking SHIT! This is the book my friend Julius wanted me to read!!!!! "He's Not Just Into YOu!"
What's with this book? Eto ung book na bagay sa mga taong "babae/bading/bisexual/o lalaki" na pilit kiniconvince sarili nila that there is this somebody who's interested in them!
This book fits me so well kasi, i kept convincing myself na this person im dating still likes me and that may hope pa na magkatuluyan kami. This book made me realize na wala na talaga and i have to let go and move on.
1) The person is super busy with work, no time to sleep, kaya di na ako imimeet every day
2) The person can meet me na, kasi di na siya super busy, kaso imimeet na naman nya bestfriend nya, lola nya, tita nya, etc
3) Nawala cellphone nya, ala pa siya pera pambili
4) Binigay ko contact number ko, para macontact nya ako kahit weekend, kahit email pa siya , recieve ko phone ko, to no avail ala pa rin....
5) Weekend, di nagparamdam, di ko alam, siguro nga busy talaga siya..heller!!!
6) Been dating for a month, di parin pwede maging kayo kasi hindi daw ready, dami pa issues ...
Now tell me, would it be right to conclude that the book is really true when it says "He's Not Just That Into YOu!" .. Its high time for me to move on, open my doors for new things. if the person really wants you, no matter how busy he is, kahit ano pa, basta gusto ka niya, gagawa at gagawa yan ng paraan mapafeel lang nya sayo na gusto ka niya.... Diba.. "Pag gusto maraming paraan pag ayaw maraming dahilan!"
Haay.. im such a fucking stupid hopelessly romantic guy! i still like the person kaso ano ba magagawa ko, eh parang ayaw na talaga nya sa akin, its not that there are lots of fishes in the ocean to catch, iba pa rin ung taong gusto mo, pero paano na yan, eh ayaw ka na nya..pipilitin mo ba sarili mo?
Nasasayangan talaga ako, what else can i do? wait? yes i could wait pero for how long? forever? no way.....siguro if tym comes na he will realize things for me, i hope im still available for him, pero sana, if ngayon he'll tell me nlng na wala na talaga..para my thoughts will be clear of whatever..at least now, kahit wala kaming proper closure..i'll date new people nlng..cguro mahanap ko ung "THE ONE" for me... na di ako iiwan... na di super busy .... na pagmagmimeet kami, di suddenly mawawala at di magpapaalam na di pala matutuloy...
Greatest lesson: Ang daming isda sa dagat, kung ikay isang gutom na mangingisda bat ka pa nagpupumilit humuli sa isang isdang ayaw magpahuli sa'yo eh ang dami naman dyang gustong magpahuli sayo! Gusto mo bang maghintay hanggang mamatay ka sa gutom?
Crazy Saturdays
I did two great things the past 2 Saturdays... hehehe.. read on!
September 10, 2005
The thursday before that, i sent Ted a letter na im leaving, di pa kami ha? pero i told him na di ko na kaya ginagawa nya sakin, i hate feeling left out, di pinapansin, kasi gusto ko pinapafeel talaga sakin na gusto ako...kaya un..
i was supposed to meet a new guy named bernard, super cute sya, gym sana kami sa the fort, kaso di natuloy, ewan kung bakit, maybe it was he knew what i was going thru and maybe he doesnt want to meddle with guys na may romantic issues..in short ayaw nya sa taong may hang ups pa!
so nag gym nalang ako sa ortigas... malapit lng kasi sa bahay..yokong mag stay sa bahay..mas lalo akong nadedepressed...
kaso wyl naggigym ako sa fitness ortigas, ala lang naisip ko lang..magpapacute ako... shit! kumagat ung pinapacutan ko!...kaso that very moment when the guy approached me, i didnt feel good.... andun pa din sa mind ko si ted... naisip ko siya...
kaya.......
i hurriedly finished my sets, nagshower na ako at tumakbo papuntang shangrila plaza para mag-internet..hay salamay onlyn siya..kaso out for lunch..pano na yan.. so what i did, nagsend nalang ako ng message na i wanted to meet him again..
nagreply sya na di pwede kasi ala daw sya pera kaso he sent it to the wrong address..kaya ang tumakbo na naman ako sa garden court and starbucks shang and seattles best mega hoping to see him there.. ala pa din eh so i went to fitness ortigas..i took my chances.. and the receptionist said he isn't there i asked if andun sya makati..yes andun nga sya..kaya i hurriedly got a cab and went to makati fitness.. there i found him.. sa shower talking to jomai hu liked him a lot..shit! nagsecond thoughts na naman ako, maybe im late na...
to cut the story short, nagtalk kami, i cried, i asked for his heart back... and he said yes..haaay..buti nalang nawala ung big L sa noo ko....
FAST FORWARD >>>>>>>>>
September 17, 2005
Haay eto na naman ako, depressed kasi di na naman nagparamdam si Ted... sonag gym ulit ako sa fitness ortigas to keep myself busy.. then i found this guy.." mala jovince canizares" look. in short model..sexy, maputi... i stared at him..shit! and he stared at me too... haay.eto na naman ako nagsisimula na naman...
then finally this model guy approached me na pwede ba kami magshare ng machine..e d oo na!!!...then he introduced his self..and finally got my number... e di ang haba ulit ng hair ko....
i met the guy again last sunday and now were friends... we talked, i told him what i have been through... and he shared his story too... haay! enjoy talaga ako last wikend..di ko masyado naisip si Ted...
still dont know ano what will happened next..hoping for the best....
Lesson learned: Keep your self busy with other things ... if ayaw na nya talaga sayo... wag mo pilitin sarili mo..u have the right to enjoy ... meet new people .. get to know them ..and enjoy theyre company, if theyre meant for you..tym will come na theyll be yours!
September 10, 2005
The thursday before that, i sent Ted a letter na im leaving, di pa kami ha? pero i told him na di ko na kaya ginagawa nya sakin, i hate feeling left out, di pinapansin, kasi gusto ko pinapafeel talaga sakin na gusto ako...kaya un..
i was supposed to meet a new guy named bernard, super cute sya, gym sana kami sa the fort, kaso di natuloy, ewan kung bakit, maybe it was he knew what i was going thru and maybe he doesnt want to meddle with guys na may romantic issues..in short ayaw nya sa taong may hang ups pa!
so nag gym nalang ako sa ortigas... malapit lng kasi sa bahay..yokong mag stay sa bahay..mas lalo akong nadedepressed...
kaso wyl naggigym ako sa fitness ortigas, ala lang naisip ko lang..magpapacute ako... shit! kumagat ung pinapacutan ko!...kaso that very moment when the guy approached me, i didnt feel good.... andun pa din sa mind ko si ted... naisip ko siya...
kaya.......
i hurriedly finished my sets, nagshower na ako at tumakbo papuntang shangrila plaza para mag-internet..hay salamay onlyn siya..kaso out for lunch..pano na yan.. so what i did, nagsend nalang ako ng message na i wanted to meet him again..
nagreply sya na di pwede kasi ala daw sya pera kaso he sent it to the wrong address..kaya ang tumakbo na naman ako sa garden court and starbucks shang and seattles best mega hoping to see him there.. ala pa din eh so i went to fitness ortigas..i took my chances.. and the receptionist said he isn't there i asked if andun sya makati..yes andun nga sya..kaya i hurriedly got a cab and went to makati fitness.. there i found him.. sa shower talking to jomai hu liked him a lot..shit! nagsecond thoughts na naman ako, maybe im late na...
to cut the story short, nagtalk kami, i cried, i asked for his heart back... and he said yes..haaay..buti nalang nawala ung big L sa noo ko....
FAST FORWARD >>>>>>>>>
September 17, 2005
Haay eto na naman ako, depressed kasi di na naman nagparamdam si Ted... sonag gym ulit ako sa fitness ortigas to keep myself busy.. then i found this guy.." mala jovince canizares" look. in short model..sexy, maputi... i stared at him..shit! and he stared at me too... haay.eto na naman ako nagsisimula na naman...
then finally this model guy approached me na pwede ba kami magshare ng machine..e d oo na!!!...then he introduced his self..and finally got my number... e di ang haba ulit ng hair ko....
i met the guy again last sunday and now were friends... we talked, i told him what i have been through... and he shared his story too... haay! enjoy talaga ako last wikend..di ko masyado naisip si Ted...
still dont know ano what will happened next..hoping for the best....
Lesson learned: Keep your self busy with other things ... if ayaw na nya talaga sayo... wag mo pilitin sarili mo..u have the right to enjoy ... meet new people .. get to know them ..and enjoy theyre company, if theyre meant for you..tym will come na theyll be yours!
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