My past 2 weeks were tough. I left, i begged, i cried, i hoped, i tried, i did everything to get this feeling off my chest ...
Finally i prayed.....
i have thought that maybe God did this to me because i kind of forgot about him....
...then i told Him.. "Lord if he is meant for me, i hope he will fight for me, but if not, i hope he would let go of me...."
Just this morning, he left me, i didnt know what to feel, i felt happy because finally i could say im free... im sad because i'll miss him and i still have him in my heart and finally im angry.. because the guy i was supposed to meet 2 weeks ago told me he is not worth it...he invited him for sex just last week(oh shit!!!!)...he goes to malate(which he told me he doesnt), when he explained things to me, i cant help but start doubting him, if only he knew what i knew... all im thinking now is , after all, maybe he has been lying to me ... or maybe it's just that i dont know him that much...
At least God answered my prayers... now i have a new life ... new things to expect ... more time for my friends and myself ... new lessons learned ... new obstacles to tackle ... a fresh start ... a new heart and mind ... life indeed is such an exciting spectacle.....
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