Modelling na naman

I have always admitted that I am a feeling model. It has always been my dream since puberty to be a model. Muntik na ako maloko ni Rick Rendall na nabisto sa Imbestigador kasi nanloloko siya ng male model wannabe. Thanks to georgia and monette di ako nakasama, shet narape na sana ako ng matabang jokla na yun.

Putang inang friendster na yan, bakit ba yang agents na yan sa friendster lng ako nakikita, bakit di nila ako makita sa daan. Siguro di nga talaga ako pangmodel hanggang picture lng ako talaga kaya friendster lng sila. Shet, sayang ung Giordano na audition at ang Reco models na vtr(last week nagmsg sa akin sa friendster ung agent nila). Kakahiya, they might like me sa pics ko pero im definitely sure they wont like me when they see me in person. Shet talaga!

In the first place, why would an agent get models thru friendster? diba mali? Things arent just meant to be. Kaya wag pilitin.

=)

Blame hell

Last thursday i really felt so bad, because i felt that my team lead here in hp is blaming me for all my projects issues. It was one of the lowest points of my career as a software engineer. And one of the worst pre-birthday gifts i received. Last monday he gave the team chocolates and in a way he looks kinder. i know its not his fault, he is not really like that, maybe he just did it because of pressure from our client. Or maybe i was just overreacting. In a way, it also is an eye opener for me. I better check on what i have and what needs to be done.

I thought I could escape from this, coz akala ko till October nalang ako dito. Pero there might be changes, shet ..if ever Ill be using the whoeel month of November to redeem myself and prove them all wrong.

Happy Birthday To Me

This is an overdue and delayed post, drafted liek a month ago. So i decided to just post it, I cant wait for the pics to be published dugay kau ko tagaan sa copy....

Since its Abby's birthday last October 24 and mine was last October 21, she and J--- decided to have it celebrated together at Tagaytay.

The whole weekend was so memorable and fun. It was my first tim to go to Tagaytay, the beach we stayed in Nasugbu was also ok and i love Caleruega.

This is one of the best birthdays I ever had, amidst all the things i have been thinking bout my life, its so good to see and feel that there is somebody who will do something really great for you to be happy. Thanks J---.

New Friendster Pics

kung si ria naay inigat igat na pictures ako pud di palupig! Though i promised to post only decent pics at friendster, j-- cant help but take new pics of me na sexy. We just want to try if i still have the aura i used to have before at friendster.
My normal pics only gave me an average of 4.5 hits a day, nwo with these new pics shet i got 39 hits in only 3 days ..atay..mo matter d i na? well mao bya na ang purpose sa pic nako karon..well...

Bored ko!

Bored ko! after weeks of having sleepless night ... given a week of working regulary..naanad ko na mumata ug ten hehehe late ko pirmi everyday ... shet deadline na d i nako sa Friday ...i missed this feeling na ur waiting for your off to come, pero narealize nako na kapoi d i siya nabore nako nahan ko daghan work ..paet

Milenyo, production release and us

I woke up with very strong winds hitting our door and windows.
I woke up seeing rain water flow through our walls and into our floor.
I woke up with heavy winds.
I woke up seeign disaster.

This was what i saw yesterday.
It was typhoon Milenyo making its rage felt over metro manila.

A friend texted me that theres no work but if our project requires us to report in the office weve got no choice but to go to the office.

Shet, production release pa naman namin, may bug pa daw according to Tina.
Shet talaga! kusug kau ang ulan! Mas kusog pa ang hangin.
So unsay pasabot? makigkompetensya ko ni Milenya sa dalan?
Muiway sa mga sin ug mga dahon na naglupad lupad labi na sa baha ug sa mga billboards og kahoy nga nangatumba?

Walay kuryente, so pasabot dili kaluto!
Kay dili man kaluto , walay pagkaon..
Gigutom nako, wala ko mahimo, ang ang man ug mugawas ko
para mupalit ug pagkaon..nya muluto ko? asa nako iluto? asa kog init?
so unsay resulta? GUTOM!

Haay kalami sa among monthsary ni J---, naa mi sa balay, di kagawas, di kakaon...
Unsay among buhaton sa katugnaw sa panahon? sa kagutom? ug sa kamingaw sa panahon....
1) Manlimpyo sa tubig na nisulod sa balay
2) Matulog
3) Maghaircolor hehehehehe

Pero gutom na kaayo mi..di na nako maagwanta...
Pero unsaon man ni nako? What if mutawag si Juric or Tina na paadtuon ko sa office?
Pero buotan japon ang Ginoo! wala diay koy bug nya ugma na daw ang release ..
Haay nahuwasan ko geng!

So di na japon nako maagwanta akong kagutom..di makatabang and chocolates na gihatag ni Claire ug ang cereals and chocolates na amo gipaklit sa Subic..Dili makatanang ang tubig ug magic flakes nga akong gipalamanam ug peanut butter ni Claire ug mayonnaise..Di na ni mahimo kinahanglan na jud mi mugawas

May gani sa taknang alas kwatro, nihunong ang ulan ug hangin..
nagilis na mi kay mag gym mi....
As if abli pa ang gym..pero gutom na kau ko as in
so nanawag mig mgaamigo! paet walay signal
may gani naay globe og smart si j---

nanlakaw mi padung ila vans iya miga..
kataw ana kau ang auto niya kay punog dahun,
kahinumdom ko sa flaot sa Sinulog na puros ferns hahahah

Ni agi mig mall - sarado, ni agi mig jollibee og fastfood - sarado,
Ni agi mig gas station - sarado..

unsay naa? baha! billboards nga naguba! poste ug kahoy na natumba! tawo nag nastranded!

Paet paet paet! gutom na kaayo ko!

May gani naay pagkaon si Vans, ug didto nangaon mi...

Kabantay mo? bisdak kaayo ko ahahhah!!!!

haay English na pd..

And so vans asked us if we could accompany her to the airport to fetch her brother...
And so we went there with tara. It was like for of us going to NAIA.

HUWAAAT!!! On our way to NAIA there I saw the effect of Milenyo's wrath!
Manila was in total wreck!

Pero balik napud kog Tagalog..kapoi ininglis

Pero it was fine naman, when we got home, we had a sumptuous meal..as in seafoods.sarap kumain with sukang pinakurat as in makuratan ka sa kalami.
tapos nun, uminom kami, tinagay ko black label with sprite si j--- naman amarula

tapos kwentuhan kwentuhan about lovelife, then uwi na kasi work pa

haay that was how we spent our monthsary. it was fun, first tym we spent it together the whole day... after 7 months love n love ko pa rin siya as in! matamaan man ako ng kidlat pero totoo to!

1 year of blogging ...

its been a year na pala since i started blogging ....

September 21, 2006

Its exactly a month before my birthday ..yeah yeah yeah ... well im not excited, my birthday has never been a big event for me, well at least it used to when i turned 1, but hey i couldnt even remember who my visitors were .. well thanks to the betamax that my mom kept in memory of that special day....well well i knew i had lots of guests that even our neighborhood favorite postman manoy tasyo was there and all those relatives and neighbors and my mom's officemates and charismatic mates(is this what we call them or better we call them brothers and sisters in Christ) all laughing everytime i walk(i used to walk like my father) .. hehehe..well thanks to rondinas(our family's former official videographer ..diba sosyal ko naa koy video coverage pag 1 year old nako hehehehe ...

now fastforward 23 years after ....

ill be turning 24(shit 24 ...), 1 year and 2 months in manila .... haaay ..
dami na nagyari sa buhay ko ..daghan na nahitabo sa ako kinabuhi ... a lot of things happened to me since i came here( karememebr ko ni fr bonaventure valles of the oasis of love in ana siya mag homily, trilingual iya iinterpret iya sentence in 3 languages)

well im so thankful kay Lord for everything and for being there for me everytime im in danger ( danger? ) whatever .. basta thank you Lord)

my last years birthday was great but it was still sad, i went to st francis church to hear mass pero naclosan ko ug simbahan, sa gawas sa church in its darkness i prayed and i cried. i felt so sad..that was the first time i celebrated it without my family. that was when i missed them so much..imagine hulaton pa nako sila maabot ako friends like for 2 hours kay 9 pa daw sila maabot ..haaay pero at least when they all came lingaw na ko ..they were all present ..
pero seeing the pics..shet nangahurot na d i mi .. most of them left na ( si ria, ken, julius, arlene and soon si claire) ..haaay

1 year and 2 months in manila
- 3 addresses ( sa condo ni georgia, sa house ni ken and now sa san juan , wala pa apil ang wack wack ug valle verde ,....hala isingit jud)
- 1 company ( 77 aka cyberj ) plus 1 subcompany (hp)
- places i visited ( galera, cavite, subic, pangasinan )
- people i met .. well sobra kadaghan hehehe
- people i loved .. well erase them all, isa lng ako gi love si j---
- people i hated .. hmmmmmm
- places i still want to visit ( tagaytay, batangas, clark, SAGADA, PAGUDPOD, CARAMOAN)
- things i want to have ... exactly wala i really don't care, not that materialistic (PAK!..PANG!... PANG!... PANG!)
- things i wanna let go off ... pimples..scars.. i just want to be stunning and sexy
- books ive read.. the zahir, 5 people you meet in heaven, 11 minutes, he is not that into you

haaaay ..kakapoi sa life pero indeed it is really exciting...1 lesson learned, you just cant get everything you want there are always ifs and buts

Celebrity Lookalike

Wa koy lingaw, sunud-sunod sa uso...sige ako pud...mao ni ako mga celebrity lookalike .. in fairness .....

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My Favorite Miss Universe Winners (Last Ten Years)

1996- Alicia Machado, Venezuela Alicia ignited one of beauty pageants biggest controversies --> weight problems. She was almost dethroned because she gained too much weight. Nevertheless, she is truly a very beautiful Miss Universe and the last Venezuelan to bag the title.

1997 - Brooke Lee, USA This girl nailed her spot as Miss Universe when she established her connection to the audience through her smart answers. She beat Ms Sweden Victoria Lagerstrom during the interview by singing(she sang The Star Spangled Banner during the interview infront of the american audience) and to think Ms Sweden was the better singer hehehe...

2000 - Larra Dutta, INDIA I consider her as the last true traditional miss universe. The one who has the beauty and personality who is truly a representative of a woman with a purpose. Our very own Nina Ricci Alagao could have given her a good fight if only she was given the chance to be in the top ten.

2001 - Denise Quinones, PUERTO RICO OMG! This lovely girl snatched the crown from Ms Greece..hehehe . The last one to wear the traditional Miss Universe crown. A crowd favorite(obviously, the pageant was held in her home country!)

2002- Oxana Federova, RUSSIA She is my favorite Miss Universe. Too bad she lost her crown. Noone can forget her stunning evening gown. She is the first ever winner to wear the 250000 dollar Mikimoto crown.

2003 - Amelia Vega, DOMINICAN REPUBLIC I just like her, thats all! ..nothing special..though i love her fadil berisha shots...

2004 - Jennifer Hawkins, AUSTRALIA Second to Oxana, Jennifer is my second favorite Miss Universe. She is "The Thunder From Down Under", as coined by Billy Bush. Like Oxana, I never noticed her prior to the finals night.

2006 - Zuleyka Rivera, PUERTO RICOA woman who was determined to win from the very day she sat foot in Los Angeles.

Midlife Crisis...

No, this post is not about me, its about j---. Right now he is experiencing this thing we call midlife crisis. Well, as far as I am concerned, I havent had that thing yet. Or was I not just paying attention to my problems/issues and just brushed it all off my thoughts, thinking and hoping that things will be Ok soon. Im kinda worried about him, because he has been thinking of so many things. He has questions about his work(if he is happy with it, is this really the job for him, that he is so tired and stressed with the demands of his job). He wants to have a child(thinking what happens if ever he chooses to have one, will i be leaving him if ever he does decide to marry(i definitely will) or he will get it from a surrogate mom. Some issues about being tied , missed being single but enjoying his relationship with me, assurign me that im not part of his issues more of something about him and his path in teh future and some other issues about his self. Haaay, so complex something i cant control. Whatever the result of this so called journey/soul search. I think Im ready to accept what it is.Pero I just hope he will be able to resolve all his issues. Its hard I coudnt relate cause I havent been to this kind of situation. Ill just be here to support him.

Am I Obvious?

Last Friday, while I was walking towards home, on a very rainy and lonely night at the streets of P. Guevarra. A girl, holding an umbrella shouted at me and said,
"Hi Bakla!". Oops, was I hearing it right? Yes, she definitly shouted those words at me. I was silenced by that declaration of my gender. Many questions haunted me at that very moment. What was I doing making the girl think that I am gay? Was it the way i held my umbrella? Was it the way i walked(hello I can't seem to imagine my self doing my catwalk while my feet was aching on a rainy Friday night), Was it my outfit?(Every guy now wears body fit) Was it my voice? (I was singing a Josh Groban song while walking therefore its the least of all possible reasons) Then why did she shouted at me? Why?

For whatever reason there is, the biggest question amongst them all is, am i obvious?
If ever, is this a negative thing? Is this something I have to be ashamed of? Is this soemthing that can causa a major alarm? Is this soemthing that can destroy my relationship with my beau? Is this something that can make me a lesser individual?

Miss Universe 2006 result

Well the pageant has just ended last Monday, for my score i got 11 of the top 20 plus 2 dark horses making it 13/20. Not a bad score i guess knowing that this years batch was so amazingly competitive. I rooted for Japan to win the title. Im so done and tired of seeing Latinas making it, im so tired of seeing a Miss USA and the rest of teh Americans(North, South,Central and The Caribbeans) making it, this year I wanted an Asian to win if not a European. So sad tehy still wanted Puerto Rico to win, 2004 with Alba Reyes(2nd Runner-up), 2005 with Cynthia Olavarria(1st Runner-up), and 2006 with Zuleyka Rivera(Miss Universe). Well for Puerto Rico this is a very impressive achievement. I still love Zuleyka, though its pretty much obviosu that she is a Michael Jackson wannabe(with all the plastic surgeries). She is still a stunning winner.

Here are the official results

Top 20

Argentina
Brazil
Denmark
Ethiopia
Hungary
India
Russia
Sweden
Thailand
Ukraine

Top 10



Bolivia
Canada
Colombia
Mexico
Trinidad and Tobago

4th Runner-up USA
3rd Runner-up Paraguay
2nd RUnner-up Switzerland
1st Runner-up Japan
Miss Universe 2006 Puerto Rico



Awards

Photogenic Philippines



Congeniality Ghana



National Costume Japan

My Miss Universe 2006 Top Picks

This is the best miss universe so far in terms of the quality of delegates


australia

bolivia

canada

colombia

ethipia

india

indonesia

mexico

paraguuay

philippines

poland

puerto rico

serbia and montenegro

spain

sri lanka

st lucia

switzerland

ukraine

usa

venezuela

















----- dark horses -----

brazil

chile

croatia

cyprus

ecuador

egypt

israel

japan

lebanon